Life's a pain
Will it ever be the same
Is it me am I to blame
What do I have to gain
Is this all worth me going insane

Since we last spoke things have changed alot
She's becoming more of a fighter
Her strength grows wilder
Her eyes get bigger
Her smile wider
Her hair glows brighter
Her attitude is different than before
Her life is too
But she's brave
She's got no fear
She got the dream team
She got everything she needs
All she needs now is to see through my eyes
See this poem as true
So dear chloe the only one beautiful in a gown this is for you

Here she comes again
Just finished work
So we sit and talk about the ****
Her days been long her feet did
Ache
She told me she went berserk
She flipped her lid
So hit that silly **** she did

That month again where it all goes wrong
Sitting here with only a sad song
Words of encouragement like just stay strong
While my thoughts keep screaming move along
The pain of the past creap more this time
Looking at pictures of families drink wine
But I don't have that I don't have fun
I wake up alone just another lonly one
Merry Christmas and Happy New year
Every one happy full if cheer
But I sit and wait for the months end to draw near

I'm breaking daily
My minds in overdrive
I have to have a pill to keep my self alive
I'm trying my hardest not to hurt myself
I just want to put my hopes ambitions and dreams upon a high shelf
I will never open up about my demons I will never tell my thoughts I will never let you see my darkest dreams of hearing the ones I care abouts screams i sit alone at night watching the most horrible thoughts play out infront of my eyes so I grab the knife and take out the pain on my skin feeling the warm liquid wash away my sin