I'm obsessed too,
I don't know what to do.
Can't get hold of the time that's running,
Tick-tock,Tick-tock it keeps going.
I feel suffocated, I lose my breath,
Lub-dub,lub-dub can hear in my ears.
All the energy in my legs drain,
Into that invisible river of procrastination,
And I find myself drowned in it.
How do I get out of it?
I raise my hand only to catch my lost self in the cosmos,
I stretch my arm into thin air, and I did get out,
Catching the soft hand of wrinkles,
It was my Dad!  
I woke up from my bed.

Take small steps,
So you don't slip.
If there's an obstacle like water,
Be on your guard and walk.
If the floors totally dry,
My friend u don't need to pry.
The guide for both,
Life that's not in our hands,
And chappals not for our hands.

The clouds move faster than usual,
But do they go to where they want to?
Or just follow the wind where it leads to?
I wonder.
And I keep wondering about those clouds...

Why do I feel like I'm a cloud?
Just passing by and living the life as it is.

Am I going there where I want to?
Or am I just spending my days like life leads to?
I wonder.
And I keep wondering about the life that I want...

In this world of no supernatural powers,
I wished if I had one.
But if there were a world where everyone had supernatural powers,
Would I wish if I had NONE?
Would I wish to have NONE??

Year became like some months,
Months became weeks
And weeks became days,
Days pass by like minutes.
Everything is going on in 2x speed.
But i haven't changed the settings.
It's like a snake game,
As snake eats my time it gets big,
And I'm scared I'll lose out of time.
Why is life so busy and it keeps getting busier day by day.
Say something, Hey!!!

I craved for silence,
Wanted to shut,
The whole **** world down.
Wanted to hear the perfect silence,
Where I can hear the wind.
I crave for just that,
It is what fills my battery.
It will keep me sane.
It will make me free,
From this world of wicked.

It pours and I paint...

How badly do u miss,
Home.
When you fall sick,
Can't fall asleep.
Blame all mine life's choices,
Regret it all.
Count the hours,
To home,
Only to feel sad.
Again and again,
Will time be fine?
Is it life's way,
Of making me miss,
Things that I already miss,
So badly that it tears apart,
And the tears flow out.
Years go on,
But why do we go out,
Of the place that we are about.
Away from the warm embrace,
Of mother, kisses from father.
Tantrums on your brother.
Family,
It all flashes in.
And throughout.

White nights,
O white nights!
Thou ought me rapture,
In midst of my mind's chaos.
O white nights!
Thy quaint dreams made me abhor
My absolute pleasure.
O white nights!
When will thee end thy zany and vile times?
For I am done embossing myself!
O white nights!
I need dark nights!!!

Nothing's going in my way,
It is like this everyday.
I feel like giving up all the time,
Have no other colors just lime.
All my dreams turn their backs on me,
I try to keep up I run behind for glee.
I look up for the shining stars,
But what I see are all blurred marks.
So I close my eyes to get lost in thoughts,
To end today and the night of fraughts.

Is life just losing parts of yourself,
And then living to find them again?
Getting lost in the journey,
Hoping to find the past YOU,
And when you get it,
You'll lose the real YOU,
And by the time you become present,
You yearn for the past YOU.
But when will you be happy,
With the YOU that you are now?
The YOU that you hated once,
Is the YOU that you love now,
But will you ever love YOU?
The one in the present YOU.

This life that I'm living,
This is not mine.
This isn't me.
Who am I slowly turning into.
A lie?
Or an adjustment?
Is this me?
The Realme?

There were dark clouds in the sky,
With all of the feelings stuffed inside.
They made barely to their destination,
But then again dripped just a little.
They were still so dark and heavy,
Yet the Sunrise made them disappear,
From my sight or from the sky?
I still wonder! Is this a part of life?

Have you been there,
When the mind doesn't agree with the heart,
And you feel like your life's jinxed?
Have you felt like,
Your mind is a complete mess but your thoughts make up a plain mosaic?
Have you ever felt so down,
That you get ****** into that black cosmos which you've painted with all the regrets that you have?

If nothing goes right,
Love yourself a bit more and then everything will be alright!

You are really blessed,
When you put your Spotify playlist on shuffle and it plays all your favourite songs!!!

I didn't even know,
That I could laugh this much,
Smile end to end,
Talk like crazy,
Until I talk to them.
They bring ME out,
Whom I love.
Hours seem like minutes,
And I yearn to meet them.
A family of friends,
That I have,
That I love,
Forever.
Thanks.
A lot.

Cloudy but there's sunrise,
Sunny but there's no rainbow.
Windy but it is still,
Humid but it's dry.
Today I see,
Myself in thee,
Confusion and agony,
Yet you are like me.

If only my camera could see,
What my eyes could.
A painting made by the nature.
Sky of blue spread in,
Like watercolors.
Clouds of red and orange,
Smudged like in oils.
White mist and birds,
Standing out like acrylics.
The details I see,
Sunshine on coconut trees,
Thunderstorms in the evening,
Stars poking in,
With the peace of sunset.
I dream of becoming one,
With the beauty that I see.
Stand tall and still,
Like the mountain hill.

Why do we feel strong,
By doing those things that are,
Meant to be masculine.
Is it because we were,
Oppressed too much,
That when we finally do those,
We feel powerful.
Or were men scared,
That we'd be too powerful,
If we did all what they could.
So they put a tag-masculine,
And prevented the women.

The smell of home,
Has left my bedsheets already.
The color has faded,
They have become pale totally.
Maybe I shouldn't have washed them,
Or dried under the sun for too long.
But I use the same detergents as in home,
Wash them the same way like we do,
But I don't feel the same under these,
Like I used to in my dear lovely home.
I miss them again today,
I miss you my family even more.

In search of ladybugs,
Cause my life is in shambles.
Lost the hope,
No energy to cope,
Down the *****,
I'm losing myself,
Daydreams are eating me,
Glued to phone,
I'm losing me.
My goals are leaving me,
And I'm tired of chasing them.
I forgot who I am,
I lost myself.
So let me pull the anchor,
Let me move faster,
So I'd get myself back.