Take small steps,
So you don't slip.
If there's an obstacle like water,
Be on your guard and walk.
If the floors totally dry,
My friend u don't need to pry.
The guide for both,
Life that's not in our hands,
And chappals not for our hands.

Everyday I play,
With cockroaches,
Everywhere they stay,
And make me guess.
Where they are today,
When will they come out.
How did they come yesterday,
Why would she shout.
They might think, but Hey!
Could you please not be there,
Wherever, whenever I'm here!

I want to break free,
Break all the glasses,
Cups and boundaries.
I want to break them into pieces,
Like a hitting a ceramic plate down.
I wish to shout above my lungs,
Tear everything apart,
And heal myself.
I want to break free,
So I can free myself.
I want to break free,
So I can heal myself.

Nothing's going in my way,
It is like this everyday.
I feel like giving up all the time,
Have no other colors just lime.
All my dreams turn their backs on me,
I try to keep up I run behind for glee.
I look up for the shining stars,
But what I see are all blurred marks.
So I close my eyes to get lost in thoughts,
To end today and the night of fraughts.

I was at a sea shore,
Looking at that blank wave.
It came up to the dry sand,
And just took it all away.
I hid my dreams there,
Thinking it's the safest place,
So I cried, I cried terribly,
But the next wave brought it back,
The sand and all of it.
I was happy that the sand's back,
But are were my dreams back too?

White nights,
O white nights!
Thou ought me rapture,
In midst of my mind's chaos.
O white nights!
Thy quaint dreams made me abhor
My absolute pleasure.
O white nights!
When will thee end thy zany and vile times?
For I am done embossing myself!
O white nights!
I need dark nights!!!

Have you been there,
When the mind doesn't agree with the heart,
And you feel like your life's jinxed?
Have you felt like,
Your mind is a complete mess but your thoughts make up a plain mosaic?
Have you ever felt so down,
That you get ****** into that black cosmos which you've painted with all the regrets that you have?

It pours and I paint...

If nothing goes right,
Love yourself a bit more and then everything will be alright!

There were dark clouds in the sky,
With all of the feelings stuffed inside.
They made barely to their destination,
But then again dripped just a little.
They were still so dark and heavy,
Yet the Sunrise made them disappear,
From my sight or from the sky?
I still wonder! Is this a part of life?

Cloudy but there's sunrise,
Sunny but there's no rainbow.
Windy but it is still,
Humid but it's dry.
Today I see,
Myself in thee,
Confusion and agony,
Yet you are like me.

Happiness,
Thou art I ask for.
All the time,
Hither I stayeth.
For thee  to  cometh,
Into mine arms.

You are really blessed,
When you put your Spotify playlist on shuffle and it plays all your favourite songs!!!

How badly do u miss,
Home.
When you fall sick,
Can't fall asleep.
Blame all mine life's choices,
Regret it all.
Count the hours,
To home,
Only to feel sad.
Again and again,
Will time be fine?
Is it life's way,
Of making me miss,
Things that I already miss,
So badly that it tears apart,
And the tears flow out.
Years go on,
But why do we go out,
Of the place that we are about.
Away from the warm embrace,
Of mother, kisses from father.
Tantrums on your brother.
Family,
It all flashes in.
And throughout.

I craved for silence,
Wanted to shut,
The whole **** world down.
Wanted to hear the perfect silence,
Where I can hear the wind.
I crave for just that,
It is what fills my battery.
It will keep me sane.
It will make me free,
From this world of wicked.

Did it ever fall down,
The whole sky all of a sudden.
Did you ever feel like it did thou?
Does it feel heavy on your head too?
Or does it make your mind blank,
Or is it like a fog filled tank?

This life that I'm living,
This is not mine.
This isn't me.
Who am I slowly turning into.
A lie?
Or an adjustment?
Is this me?
The Realme?

My shoes don't fit,
But I put them on.
The laces get undone,
On their own.
Is it's way of telling,
They don't belong here,
Or is it's way of telling me,
To stop fitting in the wrong shoes.

Is life just losing parts of yourself,
And then living to find them again?
Getting lost in the journey,
Hoping to find the past YOU,
And when you get it,
You'll lose the real YOU,
And by the time you become present,
You yearn for the past YOU.
But when will you be happy,
With the YOU that you are now?
The YOU that you hated once,
Is the YOU that you love now,
But will you ever love YOU?
The one in the present YOU.

I didn't even know,
That I could laugh this much,
Smile end to end,
Talk like crazy,
Until I talk to them.
They bring ME out,
Whom I love.
Hours seem like minutes,
And I yearn to meet them.
A family of friends,
That I have,
That I love,
Forever.
Thanks.
A lot.