I think Letting go of something
that meant a lot to is
Harder then the first time
Because it bring back
The pain of the people who did it to you first
And the memories
Of you falling apart
One by one
To where you can’t get out of bed
To you just want someone to hold you
So you just hold you self
Because no one can do it
You try to get up
But the Weight on you chest
Push you down more and more
Where you just lay there
In the dark
Till another person come to get you up
And put you in the light
Till they do the same 
As him
Or  that one girl you met this summer
Because they just like the others


RLC

I can’t do this anymore.

RLC

When will it be all over
Just let me go already
I’m tired of this
You already know how this will end
So let me go
Nothing is going to stop me

RLC

It was like a gasp of air when I was born
My sister wanted a sister
but when she saw me she didn’t want that baby
Days turned in to month into years
My sister never wanted to play
I tried to make friend
I thought I had some
I guess she was one of my best friend
It was her birthday
I worked ******* a card
She said she wasn’t have a birthday party
But if you look on Instagram
She did
By 6th grade they all had changed
I moved schools
I thought I was going to get a chance to start over
But the kid they didn’t lie the told me the truth
The truth about how I look
The truth about how annoying I am
They torn my apart
By texted message
I would be the one who got in trouble
When they would tell me
if you where skinny and had long hair I would like you
Write notes about me
And laughs
For 4 year I had to deal with that
I work hard to get back to the school where everyone lied  
I thought it was going to be sun shine and rainbows
But when I go back
I thought they would change like I did
But no… no..no
They where worst
Everyday I would come in with a smile
Do my work
But when I talked
One girl said thank God I’m out of it so I don’t need to listen to her
When I went to lunch I would try and try to make a friend
But they would walk away or start saying rude stuff
Or shoving water bottle up they throat and make noise till I left
I would talk to someone one about this he was one of the guys at the lunch table
He said I’m sorry
He said people cared
He said people love you
3 Month go by with out a word from me
I stared text him again
He says sorry I can’t do this anymore
You can’t just do this to me
I have no one
He says his sorry
But I was stupid
So I open up about everything
I shouldn’t have
But I did…
He said ill meet you before class
I was happy for ones
But when I was going to class
One of the teacher grab me
And said let go
I was confuse
But know I now what happened
He told someone something
I started to text
And I see
That he was done with me
He bloke me
I was gasping for air
It was like I was drowning
I couldn’t breath
He was the only friend I had
At the stupid school
My life was ruined by people at school
Everyday I perseverate
Over and over about school
And what I could have done
So I wasn’t the girl called annoying girl
Or the one who lost everything because of her
And that me.

RLC

I’m falling for you
I hope you falling in love to
Because I need you

RLC

What we use to be is not the same anymore
We use to be something
She doesn't  know how to explain it
But that was in the past and
Now every time she thinks about it
her face gets the plan, and she can't breath
Everyone tells her, you need to let go
But that night she called him
She thought he would hang up
He didn't believe the words that were coming out of her mouth
She asks him before he goes
She wants a final goodbye
He said ok
And told her what she needs to hear
And now it time for her to let go
Of the past with him
And move on
RLC

Tomorrow...
I wish last year on that cold October day
Didn't happens
I wish I never lose what I did
I wish she were still  the same girl
But that day change who she was not better
But worst
What you had
What made you happy
It disappeared
And that girl did to
And everything that happens
The mountains she saw got taller and colder
She got lost in the woods
And she lost more then she thought she would
I wish it had never happened
But you can't erase that cold October day
What happens last year
Tomorrow......

RLC

It tried to hold on
But you broke it more
And what she had left
Was just a little bit
But it all gone now
She gone
You lost her
She fell to deep she can't get out  


RLC

Each time
The same thing happened
And now I know what keeps happening
It wasn’t you
It was me
I wish I could go back to make it better
But the pages of the book
Are ruined
And that chapter is done
I wish the story could have kept going
But it couldn't handle what was happening
So it was over before the story was ready to end
The book is close
The story is over

RLC

What happened to her
She uses to be this girl
But she disappears
He wants her to laugh again like how
she did before
But it too late
She gone
And she wishes she could be her again
But she can’t come back
She never can
Because that girl you knew is gone
She lost her self
And she can't come back
The bright red cheeks
Are now pale and have dark circles
around her eyes
And to many secret
To hold in


RLC

Im supposed to be happy right ?
Everyone thinks that I am .
But that is a big joke.  
Everyday I try to hold it in
But my mind is  trapped in my body
I struggle to say the words out loud  
But out loud is scary  
The words are like a  scream for help
But I cant… I just cant
When they ask me if I’m fine
I shut down and smile  
I try so hard everyday to be perfect
But the girl in my soul is scream louder
Is it ever going to get better?


          -RLC

You say you care
You say you’ll never
     LEAVE
But all those where
        LIES
If you cared you wouldn’t have
         LEFT
No
     G
       O
          O
            D
               B
                 Y
                    E
Just a girl who
    LOSE
  EVERONE
The girl thought
They would never leave
But once she open up
**** their
   GONE
         LIKE
               THE
                      WIND


RLC

walking down the street
it all a blur
can't feel a thing
look down at the phone
left 3 voicemails
one for him and the lies
one for the girl who couldn't keep a promise
one to tell her story
1 text
tell her you loved her and it not her fault...
you mouth all dry
it 4am
you put your headphones on
the song Go Solo  on repeat
you sit there  looking up to the sky
whispering, let me go
falling down to the ground
people say your life flashes before you eyes
but she didn't see anything
hit the ground
and lays there in pain
and looks up at the stars
and closed her eyes

RLC

You say you don’t want to hurt me
But as I see you with her
It hurts
I think
Why dose he
L
  O
      V
         E
Her
But
N
O
T
Me
I hold back the tears
When I know she pretty
And all you see are my scars
Of the pain of the past
And the pain in my eyes
When I hear her name in you mouth
And say
we’re  just not for eachother
When you where the best thing that happend
This summer
But the best thing that happens to you this summer was
Her....

RLC

“I love you”
Those words
F
  A
    D
       E

In the back of her mind
As He says it
She cant stand those lies
The lies that he really love her
What is
      L
         O
             V
                 E

If he never did mean it?
What the point of happy ever after
If there no true love
  


            - RLC

Your not the first...
Stay and let me explain
It took 16 year to find you
When October came I knew you cared
3 month go by with out a word
Come back everything shattered
They say I need to change
I try
Text by text everything goes wrong
Lost one
Then two
I never knew it would take a second to loss someone
As time goes by wonder what I could have done
Wrote a note
Tell her you love her
Your where happy for once because you finally told someone that
4 year ago I told that to someone who died
And I never said it again
But I said it to you
But I guess everyone you love
leave you
Your not the first

-RLC