When she left she thought
that everything would change
But everywhere she goes is the same
She thought if she finally got what she wanted
She would be happy
But I guess you could say nothing did change
The people
The problems
The promises
The lies
She just turn into her worst version of herself.
So she went back back to where she was sitting
And watching the same show over and over  
Wait for something that she thought would happen
but in reality, it would never happen.

RLC

I spent a day wondering why
I spent  hours crying over you
And why every second feels like
I’m dying a little more inside

I’ll say you were my favorite person
But I was never yours
You said  you would never leave me
But that smirk tells me differently
I could say you helped  me so much
But…

I didn't matter to you anymore
Because that day that  you left me
It felt like I lost myself a little more
But you…
You’re  happy
You’re  free
you’re  fine

RLC

I’m
   F a l  l  i n g
             And
                    f
                   a
                   l
                   l
                     i
                          n
                               g
                
                                  And the thing is I was relived
                                   All that pain gone I was numb  
                                   Did I regret it no
                                    But I wish It did **** me
                                    If it wasn’t mud there
                                     If it didn’t rain that night
                                      I would have been gone
                                                                        For
                                                                      Good ……
                                       But I’m still here
                                Why the **** and I’m still here
                    
                                                  RLC

Find someone
You where shattered
But they put you back together with glue
And sometimes you wonder if they would be like the others and shatters you till you broke again
But you know this time is different
Because that person  found you at your dark time
And brought the light back into your life
And made you feel like your back to your old self that glue is now all dry so you know your new mirror not dusty or broken just a mirror with a few ruff patch’s .

RLC

When they say your name
Or how every day  
I think about you
I think of the 3 am talks
And that summer
When I knew
I would fall in love with you
And how you are perfect
and now you love someone else
And I’m not in the perfect picture with you
She is ...
Because I’m not perfect
I'm that photo on the side
that no one looks at and is shattered
And I try to pick it up to tell
you how much I love you
But the shattered glass is too sharp
and can’t be put back together

RLC

I keep finding people
Who says they will be there forever
But as time goes on
It starts to fade
They say they can’t help me anymore
they said they would stay forever
But forever is just a thought not Reality
And losing people over and over again
Make me repeat the first time to the next
And how they are the same
And reality now is just me
I get high to turn it off
And then it starts
To come back the pain the suffering
So you do it over and over again
When I run out I’m on the floor
Trying to hold
Back the pain of reality
But I know I’ll never make it out
Of the mud, no one will bring the white cloth
And wipe my face off
Because there nothing left
I just sit there in the dirt on my face
Because that is reality
Me by myself forever

RLC

Your not the first...
Stay and let me explain
It took 17 year to find you
When Summer  came I knew you cared
Falling off that bridge
Come back everything the same
She says I need space
I try
Text by text everything goes wrong
Lost her
Then its like  fall off that bridge again
I never knew it would take a second to loss someone
As time goes by wonder what I could have done
She tell you she tried so hard to stay
But your the one that was trying so hard to stay
Your where happy when  you with her
Then she gone and then you on the floor again
Holding your self
A couple of years before you meet her
You meet a girl like her
And told her everything and
how much you loved her
But ....I said it to you
And I never said it again
But I guess everyone  you love
leave you
Your not the first
Your the last

-RLC