5 years later
who would have expected he’s moving now
You knew
at the end you hope too get a goodbye  
You always got abandoned
he was the first that stayed that long
it’s the part you knew
You wouldn’t get a goodbye
He took years from you look
you know it was 5 minutes for him
But it was 5 years for me
he is moving
You knew
You will never move on.
He always came back
You cling to that
But He won’t come back
You knew
now it lingers in my mind
  those thoughts in your head were always right
You knew
The ending
The end
RLC

You’re not allowed here
Your room
The smell of clutter
Cuts through you
The trauma the trash
The lies shatter you
stay in your room don’t go
I matter right
Don’t fight
Shhh dont lash out they won’t hear a word
Trash doesn’t deserve to get out
Your a monster right stay longer
your lost in the process toss in  piles and piles
I’m lost in the lies and the misery
Dont yell don’t make a scene leave
Don’t come back
That room isn’t yours
Was  I a guessed let’s guess
I was your daughter
But just laugh it off
Because what you keep inside
builds up just like the clutter
Don’t look back
Those roots rot  
Because they will lack the ability to move forward
You left but that trash stayed back
Don’t go back.

RLC

I think of you less and less
that memory is fading  
I forgot  you wanted it to fade


RLC

What will it take for you to say the words
It lingers in your eyes
When you stare at me
But why can’t you say it
Each year I yearn for that moment for you to say
the words
There’s me and you but when you kiss me time freezes you won’t let go of that coldness in your eyes in December  
But we stay frozen in time in this one sided love it’s not new it’s almost New Year’s Eve

RLC

There’s a fork in the road go left or right or just maybe go forward into the middle don’t decide to go where someone else goes. Go down the middle lane and plant your seed of hope for that it’s the middle ground  see both ways  Of the path of where you are heading be different be you there’s ups and downs but where you go is just a seed of hope plant it and it will grow see the light in both sides and stand in the middle isn’t it beautiful who cares don’t worry if you stand out you just have to keep being you see both ways because the middle ground will balance your  perception of hope .

RLC

🫴🏻
The risk of the trust
Is to sink into truth
But that bubble
Can’t double
Just pop the bubble

-rlc

What is  a memory?
What should I be thankful for
Honestly I have never actually known
I just can’t stop laughing about it now
The ******* the couch says Rebekah
that’s actually not a good memory
I tell her  it’s just funny to think about
I can’t make those memories into a bad one
Because those were the only good ones I got

RLC