Tabby

Tabby Jul 2021

Soulmate

You make me feel yet again whole,
No longer am I feeling blue;
You are the mate to my soul.

I am forever yours to hold,
Your hold mends me back like glue;
You make me feel yet again whole.

I'm shy but you make me feel bold,
I wonder do you have any clue;
You are the mate to my soul.

Happiness and love is your end goal,
You look at me and not through;
You make me feel yet again whole.

You love, and do not try to control,
I'm not sure if you already knew;
You are the mate to my soul.

I was dull but now I shine like gold,
No longer matching the skies hue.
You make me feel yet again whole,
You are the mate to my soul.

Tabby Jul 2021

Cody's acrostic

Certain of the way you love me -
Only you make me feel this special.
Do you realize that for me -
You are the only one for me, ever.

Dramatic as this must sound -
All I will ever want or need is you.
Leaves fall, but I'll never leave you -
Ever.

Tabby Jul 2021

Mourning

My heart and body felt too profound,
the morning I went into mourning.
So many tears I feel I could drown, there were no signs of warning.

I've never prayed so hard for a lie, until I learned of your passing.
How I wished to have said goodbye,
I can feel my heart is crashing.

I sat numb for numerous seconds, hoping that I could have awaken.
I deeply miss your presence,
If only my ears were mistaken.

Why must you have left us so soon, knowing my heart will be weighted.
Plentiful tears I could fill a lagoon,
I realize its not a dream and hate it.

Time ticks on and it gets more easy,
though I still think of you.
My broken heart feels so queasy,
all these years I still feel so blue.

Seven years and counting on more,
to me you were like an brother.
I beg and I plead for an encore,
one more day, just give me another.

L.A.G 💜

Tabby Jun 2021

You give me your patience

I still flinch at every sudden movement, yet you give me all your patience.
I still overthink everything, my brain is too spacious.

I apologize for crying, he used to scream at me for it.
I was degraded for everything, I'm still damaged after the split.

You give me so much love, yet still I can't believe it's real.
To him I was worthless, I was only kept so I could kneel.

I'm hideous and also obese, I was only there to lay.
Nobody is ever gonna want me, he told me day by day.

You give me all your patience, though I think I'm undeserving.
You say all the time, how I was treated is unnerving.

You are what I'm thankful for, I'll keep you forever if I can.
I wasn't looking for love, but love crashed into me like a van.

I still flinch at everything, yet you give me so much peace.
With more time and your love, the leftover bad energy will cease.

I am overjoyed that I have your love, I'm keeping you always.
Some day, there will be no more negativity lurking the hallways.

Tabby Jun 2021

Missing the blue

Anxiety has its grip on me, it cannot be removed.
I've had this crippling disability for quite awhile, it cannot be improved.
I try to scream aloud, though my mouth seems to be paralyzed.
I'm shaking back and forth, but nobody seems to realize.
The whole world seems to be staring, or is that just the anxiety?
I didn't even notice when, it took over as propriety.

My voice was finally heard aloud, though they just shrugged me off.
"Just get over it," they told me, and all I could do was scoff.
That phrase is getting old, it does not help me none.
There is a huge weight on my shoulders, its like it weighs a ton.
Anxiety is getting annoying, I wish it to go away.
I have not a clue why it picked me, or why it insists to stay.

Anxiety needs to disappear, I want it to be gone.
I wish anxiety did not want me, but it is just so drawn.
I hope one day it will leave, I do not wish for it to stay.
It's way too cloudy all around me, everything is grey.
Maybe some day I can see the true sky, it will feel brand new.
That weight will be lifted away, I really miss the blue.

Tabby Jun 2021

I found the light

My eyes are blinded, everything is dark and gloomy.
Your love was unrequited, you made my heart so droopy.
You think I'm stupid and I'm reminded, you also say I'm loopy.

I'm tired of walking sightless, your heart is caged.
I feel so very lifeless, the love you gave me was staged.
I am done with being lightless, even though you are now enraged.

The curtains have been drawn, I have found the light.
So happy that you are gone, no longer is there blight.
No longer married to a con, no longer is there fright.

My light gives me the love I need, I feel so very fortunate.
No longer do I have to beg and plead, no longer am I subordinate.
His love does not mislead, I know that it is permanent.

Cody 💙😘🌹

Tabby Jun 2021

Not looking

I wasn't looking when I found you, I just fell into your arms.
You held onto me so tightly, my broken pieces seemed to mend together.

  I instantly felt safe, no longer did I hear any alarms.
My heart is flying, soaring, I feel light as a feather.

  I am so high on your love, I am on cloud nine.
I want to float up forever, I never want to come down.

  Of all of the treasure there is in the world, you are the greatest find.
I've been searching for you my entire life, and you were right there in town.

  I was crashing when we met, not in a great place.
He had me flinching every second, to him I was just a piece of trash.

  That part of my life was trash, I wish it could be erased.
He tossed my heart away, my heart strings were slashed.

  I ran hard and fast, I wanted to get as far away as I could from him.
It didn't matter where my legs took me, I was not slowing.

I've longed to run for so long, this was not on a whim.
My eyes shut, and my legs ran,
I was not looking where I was going.

  I crashed into you, but it was a comforting fall.
I melted into you, you made me yet again whole.

  With you I feel so much peace, there are no more brawls.
You're the one for me forever, you are the mate for my soul.