The sun puts on a mask, every morning till night.
She shines so bright it's blinding, but her smile was not quite right.
Nobody seemed to notice, or if they did, they didn't care.
Even if they asked what's wrong, she wouldn't ever share.

The moon of course did notice, he just didn't want to intrude.
He hated how her heart seemed, to have a heavy bruise.
The moon watches over the sun, wondering how to make her okay.
He really hopes that one day, her true smile will stay.

The butterflies are crazy in my tummy.
My throat feels like the desert, cracked and dry.
The words want to explode out of my mouth,
But my brain is scared.

What if they don't feel the same?
I can't handle rejection again, not this close to the last time.
They make me so happy, I can't lose them due to my stupid exploding words.
It's only been months of two soon.

My heart tries to speak again, but my brain has other ideas.
Keep them bottled up, rejection is the fear.
He's smiling so much, but is it fake?
Did he too, wear a mask that was well worn?

Those exploding words again.. I actually typed them out.
My brain was quick to get with the program, and the words were erased.
Not completely though, just from the screen.
See, those exploding words are lingering now, in the back of my throat..

Depression is a stalker, a clingy one at that.
He mainly comes when I'm alone, to remind me that I'm fat.
He always knows where I am, there is no escape.
But happiness shows up at my door, letting me think she's a replace.

A month or so goes on, no sign of depression.
But then he shows up in my room, due to his obsession.
I beg of him to move on, but he refuses to leave.
He talks and talks forever, feeding me more insults to believe.


I'm worthless and I'm stupid, he tells me so himself.
I can't believe not long ago, I didn't hate myself.
He follows me wherever, though only I can see him.
My friends don't even notice, that my tears are at the brim.

Depression is a stalker, but one day i'll be free.
I'll be with happiness, filled with so much glee.
I won't even see him standing there, he'll be so mad.
See, depression can't get to me, because I'll be too glad.

Everything is well and fine, the sun does always shine.
Life is so great, I will not break.
Oh, they probably didn't get my-

No, they just didn't say bye.

Who are you? Don't make me feel blue.

Hello, I am Anxiety; Now of you I take propriety.
They hate you, they're disgusted, the ones you thought you trusted.
They don't wanna talk, away they want to walk.

No, they're busy, they're my friends, that will never end.
They would be there if I cried-

They lied!
They don't care, they were dared.
Whoever can stand you the longest wins, until the very end.

That's not true, when I had the flu..

Part of the dare, it's a mask that they wear.
Open your eyes. let out  sigh.
Realize the truth already, the lies are just steady.

That can't be right-

The sun is too bright. You're blind to it, now sit.

I have to throw this away-

No, stay. They will make fun' lies are the sun.
It's not always shining, it's not really the clouds that are crying.

But what about this trash? I can't be full of bash. Everyone throws trash away too-

Not like you. Witted you are dim, reckon who will win?
Just wait until people leave. They'll laugh, just believe.

You were right, how could I have lost my sight..

That's why i'm here. Don't shed yet a tear.
The sun has blinded you when its actually bright.
Your breathing will now become tight.

I'm glad you tell me when I forget. Please, i'll have one ticket.
I'll stay on the anxiety train, take shelter while it always rains.

Anyone can see my smile, but you see more if you listen a while.
Deep inside, there is a scream, I am just a teen.
You may judge, and say all I want is chocolate and fudge.
You say i'm fat but i'm normal.

Stop being mean, and treat me like a queen.
It may sound like a silent scream, but down inside it's louder.
You see my scars that were cut too far.
You won't have my happiness.
My friends re there for comfort.

This poem may not rhyme, but now is the time.
For me to realize that haters are nothing in my eyes.
You won't have my happiness.
I forbid you to take it from me.

I will smile, longer that a while.
Cause you can't steal my happiness.
If being happy is all I have, that's all I need.
No more people bringing me down, teasing me like a bunch of clowns.

If you try, I will say bye.
Cause you won't have my happiness.

He paints a pretty portrait,
Of a flower in a forest.
Only those who wander see it bloom.

He paints the lilac sunset,
The birds chirping a duet.
Only those who wander hear the tune.

He paints the changing moon,
The different eclipses will make you swoon.
Those who wander float like a balloon.

He paints the world beautiful,
Though it can be crucial.
Those who don't wander see the gloom.

Lost in thought, so many tears I have fought.
I can't fight them any longer, I don't want to be a bother.
I'm not sure why I still care, you ripped my heart with the claws of a bear.
I'm stuck right here with watery eyes, even though I know I should let them dry.
You brought me so much pain, played my heart like one of your little games.
You did this before but somehow its worse.
I've been hurt so many times, it feels like a crime.
You always said you'd never do this again, but you did!
Left me for the same kid twice, that just ain't right.
People think i'm actually happy, but that's just the strong in me.
I told myself i'd never let you hurt me again, but jokes on me, I did.
All these tears I have fought, i'm so lost in thought.