There's so many things I want to say
But words just wont come my way
Choking on me when I try
To pen them where I lie.
I wish for so many things
I wish to let out my wings
and then I wish that I unwish them all
For I fear I am destined to fall.
But then an epiphany strikes
That its not just them with spikes
Its more me, my own folly
That I let them get to me so jolly
I fell, and I kept falling
Wanting to get up yet my feet stalling
For if I wouldn't get up I couldn't fall again
And in that way I could slowly forget my pain
But all I did was hide from it all
Cuz it cannot change the fact of my fall
And although I know that I need to wake up
Its all now theory, hard to follow up
I really want to put myself together
And make changes that make me better
Cuz those who've stepped on me are happy and fine
But hear I am paying, for no fault of mine
It shouldn't be this way and I know it true
But its so hard to start something new
Although I know its real good for me
I'm unable to do, I'm unable to be
To be that person that fixes herself
Although I want no one, its hard by myself
I know I'm my own enemy most days
But I'm gonna try again and walk out of this haze.