He treated her beautifully
They where madly in love
they talked for hours
Starring what felt like each others soul
They had a special bond that couldn’t be expressed
Made love for hours
Even days at times
Passionate
Explosive
She looked at him adoringly
Wondering how did she get so lucky
She loved how he looked at her
Touched her kissed her.
Both passionate about everything they did
Art, music, movies, their kids, family etc so on and so forth
She..
she...
She....
I
:-(
Little did I know I was the rebound
It was all an illusion
How was I to know?
I’ve never been in that position before to recognize it.
Picking up the shattered pieces of my heart at the moment
Wondering if I even really want to
Or should
What’s the point?

When the fighting for something side is finally broken. Pain isn’t felt anymore and tiers no longer fall. It’s kind of a relief and you pray being in that grey area lasts.

When does this pain stop?
I can’t sleep
I can’t think
I can’t stop crying
Missing my heart
I gave it to you
And I find myself in a ball every night
My tears won’t stop
Holding my pillow as hard as I can
Trying to drowned the sounds of me crying.
A peace of me dies every day I’m not in your arms
I dreamed you just showed up at my house
Held me close and kissed me
I wake and all the pain comes rushing back.
My stomach is in knots
Pleading with myself to stop crying. My day and night are so gray
Crying so hard I stop breathing
My chest as hurts
When will this pain stop

My body, mind and soul are tired
Every fiber of my being just wants to give up
The end sounds so sweet
When I think my tiers have run dry
I’m reminded that I mean nothing to you
My breath slows and I close my eyes
Hoping that somehow I don’t wake tomorrow.
Please please don’t let me wake.

Is this real?

I can’t decide which is better
Needing you
Or wanting you
You make me loose my breath
At the thought of you
I’m strong
independent
And I know that
But when it comes to you
You make my heart softer
I can’t recognize the steel walls
That I once forged to surround
guard and protect me
When I’m with you I don’t want to leave your embrace
Dare I say I’m madly in love with you?
In love in a way I’ve never thought possible
It scares me to the point I don’t believe it’s true
want to run away
But you pull me into your arms and kiss me like I’ve never been before
You make love to me like I’ve never known before
With one glace you make my knees Trimble and my heart skip multiple beats
I find myself sometimes unintentionally holding my breath
Wanting time to stop
I feel like you’re my home
You have my heart in you hands and I don’t want anyone else to keep it
I find myself pleading to the universe
If this isn’t real, don’t let it go on
Wake me from this dream
Save me from this over abundance of intense desire I’ve never encountered previously
What are your intentions?

Every second that turns into a minute
My thought are filled with being in your embrace
Every minute that turns into hours
My hands wonder by the ways and places you touched
Every hour that turn into days my breath slows thinking of your kisses
Everyday that turn to a week
I find my hands clenching my sheets and pillows  tightly
for than I don’t think I could control my actions anymore.