By. Lauren

Swish.
Swash.
Swish
Swash.
Faster,
Swishidy.
Swashidy.
My mind is a washing machine gone rouge.
A high speed chase for sanity.
I've lost my own key to that of which I once owned.
A homeowner locked out for the 10th time in a day.
For now I will keep searching until the
Swishidy,
Swadiding,
Becomes a calm
Swish,
Swash,
Swish,
Swash,
Once more.

By. Lauren

They told me make it count,
But how do you do so?
When there's nothing left to count.
No sheep in the field waiting to escape.
Only a barrel of stress no one can erase.
The cry of a student.
Only work to do.
I just need a rescue.
A break from this mess.
A way to unwind.
More sheep to count in my head.
An escape from this stress.
No poems that I need to write.
Just a day in a life where it actually all counts.
A message from god saying it will all be
Okay.

By. Lauren

Relapse.
Another.
Another.
And yet another.
The place I'm at.
The place where my world spins.
The place where I can't look at food.
The place where I've lost 20 pounds.
The place where my blood is drawn.
The place where the world can see I am sick.
I am living in relapse
After relapse.
It just seems like an endless pit of sick.

By. Lauren

I feel like a visitor to my own life.
A intruder looking through a foggy window.
Each step is a step farther than who I use to be.
All I know is the past.
I know not of the future for I am a guest in my own body.

By. April Crew (a former friend of my mother)

When I say I love you, know
that it is true.
I love you from deep within,
I hope you love me too!

I hope neither of us will
ever go
But I pray our love will
Always grow.

You're the best thing that
Ever happened to me
You're the one I love,
You always will be.

I remember the good times
That happened in the past
I hope we can make them
Last

I will always be here for you
So please don't ever find
Someone new,

If you ever leave me
I would probably die
Please don't ever say good-
Bye

But now I am glad to
Have you as my friend,
I promise I'll love you
Right to the very end!!!

By. Lauren

You make my heart melt.

By. Lauren

You use to whisper in my ear.
Where has your voice gone?
Last time I checked a whisper still had sound.
But you have faded away.
You use to whisper in my ear.
Now my ear is searching for your voice to reply.