I love to get lost in my imagination
Its a place of freedom to me.
But i was reading
a poem that said we suffer
More in our imagination, than
We do in reality.
Now its left me wondering if my imagination is my prison.

I long to taste your kiss and feel a touch thats makes me tremble.
Lay naked with you in the dim flicking
Candle light.
Watching as the pleasure roll across your face listening as we cry into
The darkness of night.
Lost in that one perfect moment that will be gone when morning comes.

I am in love with angel that will never
Be mine who said love doesn’t hurt.

I want the pain to stop hurting the only to do that is to let you go.

I was willing to let my guard down Show you all my broken pieces.
I would have given you all that i am
Without any question.
With tears in my eyes i now know
The heart shattering truth.
I'll never have all of you and thats
Not never going to be enough.

You give me dreams only
To shatter them.
You keep breaking my heart
Piece by piece.
I heard you tell her on the phone
I was nothing special.
Just a pawn in a game you and her
Like to play.
Don't bother saying sorry i know
Your not sorry.

Burst bubbles and broken dreams
Lies created for me to believe.
Now i am fool with a broken heart.

Some people are loney because they
Have no family or friends.
But then theres the hateful people
Who are alone for a good reason.

How do you answer the question
Am i making a mistake.
My mind says who are you to tell
Her if she is making a mistake.
While my heart says
A good friend would tell the truth.
I am stuck between my heart
And my head.

Dear dad
I am writing this with a broken heart
Because i know now the truth.
You'll never love me as i am and nothing will ever be enough for you.
I remember when i was young
You beat me black and blue.
You choked me you broke my mum mentally she was never the same.
The happiest day of my life was when me and mum left you.
I have a step dad who loves me supports me.
Does all the things you never did he taught me not everyone is bad
Never contact me again you don't have a daughter.
Erase me from your mind like i have
Erased you from my life.

Sometimes i wonder do you
Remember me like i remember you.

Hands caress our lips kiss our
Tongues dance.
Our bodies move in rhythm lost in
A moment of bliss.
Desire flame washs over us listening as our crys dance in the night.
Your finger tips slide down my back
Sending shivers down my spine.
His eyes widen my heart races and shakes.
Locked in a trembling embrace wiping the tears away.

Down on my knees looking up
The starry night.
If your listening to me god i am
Feeling lost please come and find me.

Oh hail to the lovers game
His charming lies.
He never plays for keeps another
Heart for his jar.
Telling you all the things you long
To hear.
Wrapping your heart around his finger.
Beware of his smile because you
Could be next on his list.

I write to escape a painful reality
There is no words for.
The anxious thoughts another sleepless night.
It doesnt matter what you do.
It's doesn't matter what you say.
It doesn't matter how good you look or
How good you write.
Haters will always hate.

Does hurting me make you good?
Becuase you still lonely.
You use my weight as a weapon but that can change and you can't.
You can try put me down and I will keep getting back up.
You can keep trying to ruin my life but you will never win.
I told you to say stuff to my face but
You talk beind my back.
The sad part is your a grown bitter nasty woman who no one likes.
Your like a straw who ***** the fun out of everything.
You might be family but doesn't mean you can troll me and abuse me.
Step out from behind your keyboard and see what happens.
I am left wondering do I take revenge or wait for karma?.

I remember a time when we where
Told not to talk to strangers.
Now we are happy to share everything with strangers.
Serach for the perfect picture and filter to share with strangers.
I know what people care more about what strangers think of them.
Not everything has to shared social media, careless about what strangers
Think about you.
Not everything has to liked loved or hated.
Care about the ones who love you and know you.
Who are always there's not everyone is your friend.

The door bursts open and
I know whats coming.
A punch a slap screams that still
Haunt me.
Bags packed never going back.
Please come with me.
You'll never have another black eye
Or hide another bruise.
We can live by the sea walk along
The beach watch the sunset.
You will be free to live.

The saddest thing is I remember
How you use to look at me.
All the beautiful things you use to
Say to me to make smile.
The little believe in your self notes
In my lunch box.
I cry everytime I see you because
I am just a stranger.

I don't know what hurts more my
Broken heart,or the anger i
Feel for believing the lies you told.

Don't water things down.
Don't sugar coat your words.
Don't hide behind a mask
Because even that will slip.
Stay true to yourself you can't make
Everyone happy.