Out on The Streets

Out on the streets
is the pains I weep,
the lies he tells
to keep me on his side,
Picture's only begun
when love was so much fun,
but that was then
Not now,
I feel so much sorrow
and madness that keeps my mind
going back to a time
when love was on my side,
But love has changed and so have I,
darkness is always around
in the city to night,
velvet moon shinning her light
with all those billions of dark diamonds
deep into the sky,
they remind me of my lover’s eyes,
this old moon is everywhere I go
I don't ask for pity,
I just want to get out of the cold,
because pity is already with me
there's nothing that you can do
to take away my darken woes.

Poetic Judy Emery © 1983

PAINTED ME ON THE WALL
I  stood tall
as he painted me on the wall
my nerves stayed strong
I didn't let him see me fall
flesh and blood
he loved so much
while he put the brush
in the water
he would lick his lips
hungering for my kiss
but that I held cold
while I stood bold
silently he moved the brush
without much fuse
silence flown into
the cold darken room
energy started drained from me
like a sad movie
had taken me down into
a heavy sleep
that is  where I lost my head
I found myself into
the waters of the angry sea
of darken dreams.

Poetic Judy Emery © 1992
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Passing Of Time

To love you is to hold you as you sleep
Oh, how I wish you was with me and
let us both dream
between your heart and mine we both
can unwind with time on our side  
just you and I if you was by my side
laughter sprang from shallow seas
my tears were trivialities
I walked on by with love in mind
I watched the stars shinning so bright
while you're sleeping to night  
I feel so hurt because you're
so faraway it makes
my heart is braking
the colors burning everywhere
even through my long whit hair
then one spring the blue-bells tolled
of leaves in green and suns in gold
of hearts that pulsate ripe and red
love burst in rainbows around my head
And you and I even as
we are old we became
Husband and Wife even
when time had past us by  
I still became your wife
with Jehovah God on our side .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

I proceeded to have more darken dreams
I remember that old sad night
when you had made me cry
but then wanted me to stand by your side
while he told more Lies
I just had to walk away
with anger in his eyes
I had been wondering all this time
why did you need me to be with you
we are like night and day
I don't see things your way
after all these years
you still give me so much fears
while I sleep
I fall deep within darken dream
I hear a very loud voice
crying out to me
what does this mean for me
that is when it started to rain
I started feeling so much pains
I had always heard
time will heal the mind
will mend the heart
but mine hasn't maned
My heart is still marked
my mind remembers everything
Dark Angel brings
I still proceed to dream
dark cuts remain within my soul .


Poetic  Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Puppet On Strings
I can't keep feeling this away
with all this strife and pains
I can't even remember
last December
I feel like a puppet with strings
in many darken dreams
Dark Angel is so mean
I always hear screams
dancing around like clowns
in an old evil town
with their face upon the ground
praying to be found
they are in so much pains
they could no longer
remember their names
I feel like a puppet with strings
in darken dreams
I can hear Dark Angel laughing
in his evil ways
while his words rings in my ears
pulling on my strings
I began to scream
while he starts to cut on me
my heart is bleeding out
into the sea of dreams.

Poetic Judy Emery © 1985
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Puppet On Strings
I can't keep feeling this away
with all this strife and pains
I can't even remember
last December
I feel like a puppet with strings
in many darken dreams
Dark Angel is so mean
I always hear screams
dancing around like clowns
in an old evil town
with their face upon the ground
praying to be found
they are in so much pains
they could no longer
remember their names
I feel like a puppet with strings
in darken dreams
I can hear Dark Angel laughing
in his evil ways
while his words rings in my ears
pulling on my strings
I began to scream
while he starts to cut on me
my heart is bleeding out
into the sea of dreams.

Poetic Judy Emery © 1985
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

RAVEN

Lost, hurt so cut up  
Puzzled the way my life has been  
I had been gazing out my bedroom  
Window thinking about the hurt  
Of what Dark Angel gave.
I looked and what did I see and ''Raven'',
Looking back at me,
His eyes so little like a spark shining in
That cold darken sky,
His beaded yellow eyes had been looking me  
Up and down,
I pondered over and over in my mind,
What did the ''Raven'' see when it was looking  
back at me,
Did it see all the pains that was in my eyes?
The cuts of the night that had been cut in  
Deep wounds of Dark Angels knife,
From my bleeding heart that is all over my
Bedroom floor .
Did the ''Raven'' see the same story of he  
When he was looking at me.
Poetic Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Red Rose is for Love

Oh, how I wish the color would never fade,
But with time dark days taken love away,
The sky started turning gray,
Oh, how my world
I lived felt much pain,
The rain would never end,
The roses in the garden lost its color
The roots were no longer strong
The rain rotten the roots,
Now, all the beauty of the red roses
Turned into black rose dust;
When the valley was once green
I would see the colors of red, white and pink,
That was a delight to my eyes,
But again, that was one love was on my side,
Oh, how love made me fill so alive;
Like I was sleeping and dreaming
Walking on red roses all at once!
But that was ancient ago,
Now, all the red roses are dead,
And I am resting in my bed;
Hoping one day love will return
and give my life a true meaning again,
Where the red roses will fill the valley
with its Beauty, again.

Poetic Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I tried so hard to change my ways

but in my mind is like the weather

when I live a life of gloom

this life don't make my heart beat

like it once used to ,

my life is somewhat verisimilitude

when it comes to living a life in dreams

what does all of this means ?

I have been waiting for a sign

to let me know I will be fine

while Dark Angel saving all his lines

who is right when you live from Light

I know I must stay strong and not let hate

become my fate , this will not save no one

this I truly know hostile ways will never

save it will only strain ones ways

my mind is ruining like crazy

while my body is growing in pain

my spirit stands in faith

even when I am growing weak

feeling locked away in Darken Dreams  

I will never let Dark Angel

take that away from me even though

he stands strong in darkness poisoning minds

my body may fall and I may go down

like a flu virus I need to know

My God is still there with me

shining his Light on me

and never leave me

because Dark Angel is a virus that

makes things so hard to defined .



Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Rose Dust

I have danced in the bed of ruse dust
where lust was always made,
I found myself playing the hand that Dark Angel gave,
where I patently waited in a darken room,
holding on to my heart praying I never loss it,
every summer of late June,
I could see the sky innovation so quickly
into that cold September, I will always remember,
while the night slowly moved along,
my mind played back that sad old song,
while I counted the days of the torment he gave
I could see all those times you had given me roses
they turned black into rose dust,
It was like the Universe started changing
to a place of darkness where love could never shine through,
I remember his eyes while I walked away,
Oh, the pain he gave to me out into that cold September rain,
My life never was the same;
I thought maybe love will shine it light on me,
But nothing came my way but only darken dreams,
Oh, how he made me scream,
things are never what they seem,
I would always take many walks by the sea,
Dark Angel, names the sea after me,
the moon he names too,
I could always feel his eyes upon me,
I would look around but I could never see him,
But I know he is near bring on fear,
he is always following me,
every time he looks at me, I could tell he has
no care in his eyes for anything,
his heart is could as ice and he isn’t very nice,
at times, he surprises me when he gives me roses,
then he would say; Moonlight give you heart to me!
Shed you tears and let them fall,
I will drink them up like white wine,
Come Moonlight, let me see you care for me,
then he would whisper in my ear, I will always be your king
you will always be my queen in darken dreams,
you will never escape me;
then I looked at him saying I could never give my heart
to a slander as you,
Oh, how the angry wind started to cry at me again,
Then Dark Angel, taken hold of my hands,
Then we started dancing upon the wet blood stained sand,
while he started give out his commands,
the rain started pouring down,
the sea started making weird sounds,
that is when I had fallen into the arms of he
the one who calls himself my king.

Poetic Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

ROYAL GODDESS

I have a dark side of me
I don’t like to see;
It truly masks everything about me,
I feel the warmth of the wind
dancing upon my ivory skin,
drying up my tears from my colored eyes,
while my own royal memories
come rushing back to me
like a wild fire that could never be put out,
I hold my head up high
Showing others, I am just fine,
I am a goddess in true fashion
My own father handed down to me,
He is and was the king of the land
My mother the true goddess of beauty and love,
It was like they were both sent from heaven
But again, what do I know,
While time was only a chapter in their life book
Now I have many pages I must also fill
For the world to read all about me,
Life wasn’t all that easy;
Like others would think
just because I had royalties,
my life was never easy,
I felt a part of me had been lost for sometime
And I try hard to find out what it is
That has been taken from me,
In my years, I come to face most of my fears,
But something of long ago
was always eating away at my soul,
I remember someone given me a drink
like a potion to help me sleep;
that’s when I started having all those bad dreams.
that when I would hear something evil
crying out to me in the desert wind.

Poetic Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Running from reality
running is a game  
of hide and seek  
you can pick an name
it's a name you can't keep
Run , run as fast as you can
before true reality starts
to make it's way in
in my true reality
as time pass me on by
what I had been running from all this time
just to find I had been running from myself
True reality became my true friend .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery  (c)

SALTY WAVES OF YESTERDAY’S

Tomorrow;
today steps in more pains
with the lack of faith;
frost frozen hearts
left their marks,
on the weary minds
that got lost in darken times,
where wealthy
drinks up the wine
that flushes at their souls
of long ago where kings once ruled
and queen played their games,
Silence of what hasn’t yet
been accomplished;
Where astonishment of hope
Was in a place long ago;
But now it’s only written down in a book
where all wants to take a look;
the light of the moon
saddens in late June;
Words of hate
Worn out the bell;
Death and Life
We all must face;
darken roads;
leads to sorrow of tomorrow.

Poetic Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Satan's Hotel

The waiting land of better days
just faded away just like that
the fields of righteousness are few
the fields lie in darkness
after the flame died away
Loneliness and darkness filled the soul
Drugs and cheep woman and men
That are selling their souls
Life had no meaning to them you could
see it in their zombie eyes
they live in Satan's hotel
the coldness of their souls is out to take
another young life into drug world
understanding the ways of the Life of
Darkness and gloom
Kids are walking around
thinking they are doing just fine
Just to find their
Mommy and daddy's killing of there
Souls to another blow
of the drug pip
oh, just look at their lives
look what they have done
they are walkers of the night
words has been spoken
Will **** one's life
If you would walk by
Satan's hotel you could feel the control of
the lost souls lost in the eternal blackness
never to be seen again.
something new has come
into another life
taking the demons in their mind
and a pipe in their hand
the young and the old under
the control of Satan's world
Parents looking all over town
wondering how to find their kid
then they hear there
Kids learned a new trick
for the angel of death
has arrived in that
cold sad lonely night
when another has taken a life
broken down of the drug world
Satan's world
when you check in to Satan's Hotel
the way that they act
is no way of coming back
to the way of better days ,
You can see the evil
in there eyes's an urge to ****,
the desire is a thrill
to **** the good in another Soul
once upon a time
they had Jehovah in their lives
walked in the light
all of that had changed
when they said goodbye
and they let Satan's
in their lives by taking the drug pipe
Dark angel is all over
the place hunting for new souls
to take into their control
the broke word
that  killed dreams of the young and
the old nobody there forgave sins
they just keep making them
The Drug fights take a blood bath of the knife
Behind the walls you can hear it all
The cry's of the night when
a baby cries to be fed why it's
Mommy is out doing what she knows best
So now the baby's grow up
to be the victim of prostitution
Of preconception and true damnation,
the young minds
Reaching out into a world
that is lost every time ,
They can no longer see
the twisting emotions that they live in
they will longing for
the person they once used to know
But that was long ago
Know they live in Satan's world.


Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Saying Goodbye To Love
another night closes in,and I feel so
lonely touching heart freezing on my
skin,
everyone says that love don't hurt
but that not true.Because I'm black
and blue over you,
I'm talking to myself on this lonely
road ,I'm starting to feel old,
sometimes I'd like to quit ,nothing
seems to fit,
loneliness made it's way and my life
feels so cold with no love of any kind,,
I cry in the night hanging around all
the places we use to go,
roller coaster Of the up's and down
Of a lie that he call love and I feel like
Ice ,why he is going on with his life,
while I walk around like some lost clown
I really need you tonight,
once upon a time
You was my love for life
all I have now
is an empty heart running in
the dark,I'm falling apart
I say good bye to love
there are no tomorrows
for this heart of mine
surely with time
will lose these bitter memories
where I can get on with my life .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Sea Of Dreams
I dwelled along
the sea of dreams
I seen the winter winds
I felt the coldness
upon my skin
I felt the sins of time
I held no pride
but in my eyes
I seen the light.

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery © 2004
The Queen of Darken Dreams
Poetic Lilly Emery

SECRETE LOVE
Oh, never reveal who it is you love,
Love is a secrete between two,
Love is something untold,
Love isn’t to be sold,
Oh, gentle winds that touched the skin
You hold love of all time,
Your touch is smooth
Yet, it is cool and silently invisible,
Love is the music to my ears,
Only I can hear,
Love kissed me on my lips,
Love whispered his heart to me,
Trembling bodies upon the sand
A place where we once danced,
We made romance in lover’s memories,
Cold, sea blown winds,
Casting its spells again,
In ghastly fears, we go
To a place of the unknown
Where lies are always being told.
Oh, how love departed,
Left me broken hearten,
Soon after the fall, I traveled on.

Poetic Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Secret wounds of long ago
Oh, you know how my story flows
it has been witten down
in my own blood stain ink
the pains of yesterdays blues
Love never came my way
Love I do waite
I will keep my faith
others has cast their stones
just to see me fall
they wound me from the start
they sink my spirit
like a ship in doom
they love to see me in pain
they lie about me day and night
making my life a darken place
secret wounds of yesterdays pains
that brings on more rain
that makes a tidlewaves
into darken dreams
I will always be
the woman of lost dreams

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

SEPTEMBER CRYING

It was a sad cold September night
when you had taken over my life
Why do you say things that are not true?
you take me in your arms that night
and dance away with my life
you take me to darken places
I had never seen
you give me bad darken dreams,
You told me it’s not what it looks like
things are never what they seem
oh, why do you give my heart so many wounds
look at me and tell me what you see
Oh, Dark Angel you can never give me back
what you had taken from me,
Bullets of fire hit the sky
upon on that cold September night
oh, mirror let him see
I left my mark on him in deed
just like he did to me
Oh, you cut me deep
this anyone could see.
You left me out to bleed
just like that old crying sea
you Dark Angel covered me in scares
and you give me roses
that had lots of thorns
you written a note saying
I love you more than you'll ever know.

Poetic Judy Emery © 2000
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

When I look into your eyes
it is like I am looking in stain glass
seeing a fire burning on high
we'll you hold restrain from me
I can see the pains you hold
but you stand so bold
just to tell me you have love for me
that I am your queen
but I cried out how can that be
you don't even know me
and this is what he told me
I cast pain upon all who see's you
because I will never let another have you
or love you
You will always be my everything
when Dark Angel taken me down
he looked deep into my crying eyes
I will always be your only one
I am your king of darkness
the one you will always miss
I had cast my spells upon on your head
you will never forget
this cold September night
Dark Angel would tell me his stories
and tell me so many lies
just to keep me on your side
Don't you see what you are doing to me?
you are cutting me way too deep
I am starting to feel I can no longer breath
you are taking life out of me
I know nothing last forever
this is something you tell me most of the time
but when I look into your eyes
I see stain glass of blood running into the sea
I start to cry because that is my life
you handed down to me
in darken dreams
I know deep within my heart
people do change
Why don't you give it a try
then I told him over and over
I could never love a man like you
that would be so hard for me to love someone
when he isn't free to love me back
the way I need him too
your heart is so cold
I 'm starting to think that is all you know
is a life of darkness
So I hold a candle up on high
into that cold September sky
oh did it rain with no end to the pain
this old candle has your name
I tell myself don't feel a shame
because I know I am not the blame
of yesterdays pains
Oh, why September rains
keep the memories a flowing
If we only had taken some time
you could see I had never lied
but now I set out in that cold September rains
crying out so much pains
I try to rest my head upon my bed
but when I fall into a deep sleep
I will see you
what is my poor heart to do
when I still Love You?

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

SEPTEMBER RAINS

When I look into your eyes
it is like I am looking in stain glass
seeing a fire burning on high
will you hold restrain from me
I can see the pains you hold
but you stand so bold
just to tell me you have love for me
that I am your queen
but I cried out how can that be
you don't even know me
and this is what he told me
I cast pain upon all who see's you
because I will never let another have you
or love you
You will always be my everything
when Dark Angel taken me down
he looked deep into my crying eyes
I will always be your only one
I am your king of darkness
the one you will always miss
I had cast my spells upon on your head
you will never forget
this cold September night
Dark Angel would tell me his stories
and tell me so many lies
just to keep me on your side
Don't you see what you are doing to me?
you are cutting me way too deep
I am starting to feel I can no longer breath
you are taking life out of me
I know nothing last forever
this is something you tell me most of the time
but when I look into your eyes
I see stain glass of blood running into the sea
I start to cry because that is my life
you handed down to me
in darken dreams
I know deep within my heart
people do change
Why don't you give it a try
then I told him over and over
I could never love a man like you
that would be so hard for me to love someone
when he isn't free to love me back
the way I need him too
your heart is so cold
I 'm starting to think that is all you know
is a life of darkness
So I hold a candle up on high
into that cold September sky
oh did it rain with no end to the pain
this old candle has your name
I tell myself don't feel a shame
because I know I am not the blame
of yesterdays pains
Oh, why September rains
keep the memories a flowing
If we only had taken some time
you could see I had never lied
but now I set out in that cold September rains
crying out so much pains
I try to rest my head upon my bed
but when I fall into a deep sleep
I will see you
what is my poor heart to do
when I still Love You?

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

SEWER RAT

I know I seen a sewer rat going down stream,
Playing along while it sings;
Down by the sewer love is waiting for the rat
hear come a fat cat,
don’t you dear look back at that
or the rat will attic;
because she doesn’t want no other
looking at her lover;
She is a sewer rat that has long teeth
And her breath stinks
But she can get nasty and downright mean,
She does have a bad name
If you know what I’m saying,
She lives near a run-down town,
By the sewer where all the other ugly rats play
To get their way;
She makes traps upon that cat;
She stalkers every move he makes
just to see where he goes,
If he is out playing with other sewer wholes,
that she knows.
She licks and picks her long yellow teeth
While she plays with a long green bean
that was floating down stream,
she goes around telling her lie all over town
that her cat is playing with gay men
just to keep others cats and rate from him.
He old cat has a long story;
That can get kind of boring
That can get her snoring,
Then she thought to her self
maybe she should of stay floating down
the sewer to find more action
for a little more reaction
to the packen,
where she can do some lay backen
on some wet sacken
doing some ripen and tapen
that kept her old cat on his tootise
where he would do some casing
but she knows her old love wouldn’t car
so, she would dare;
she knows there’s a lot of rats down town
but there isn’t one like her own fat cat
that loves to play in the sewer doing
what they love best.

Poetic Judy Emery © 2015
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

SHADOWS OF An ELDERLY KNIGHT
The intellectual interests of scorn twilight
Is shining its beauty into the night?
Upon the meadow lands,
Where the elder knight stands,
Tall and very bold
Ivory skin
Big blue eyes
With plumped lips,
A man I once kissed,
His shadow I still see dancing with me,
It was a dance I will never forget,
But at times my poor heart wants to follow
The shadow of that summer night,
He gave me so much delight
Love was in the making
But I again ran from love
Because of what I hold within,
I now, don’t understand why
I let love slip from my hands,
His words shadow me with a summers song,
That keeps me holding on,
But tonight, I hear another kind of song
Music of true madness
It became very dark in vain,
A tracking of a hunter for my life,
Dark Angel, wanting me for his wife.

Poetic Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Messages are all in silence
while the angry  waves
move along like a sad song
tragic new's spreads like a storm
words are handwritten
down in blood stain ink
oh , how the ship will soon sink
souls are doomed
into a nightmare of darken dreams
oh , how we all do scream
windows are broken
life was once a token
freedom will never be
souls will always bleed out into the sea
in many darken dreams
shadows of a storm
dances along the shore
the sea of dreams
are always with me
railing of time
messes with my mind
wounded , lost
entwines into my thoughts
whispering wind
cry's to me again .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

SHATTERED
I feel this pain
that carries on within me
I have been wounded
the cuts are deep
I feel I could no longer breath
my mind is racing
I am pacing the ground
Oh, how the rain is coming down
my heart is breaking
I'm Shattered like glass
there is no way of putting me back
my tears are flowing like rain
Oh, how I feel the pains
the memories are making a home
that keeps taking me back to that day
when you had passed away
they say till will heal
But I still feel the same
as I did on that hurtful night
my life will never be the same
I am Shattered
I am missing you
I love you mom
I feel I couldn't live without you.

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery © 2016
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery
2-9-016 The Night My Mother had gone to her resting place.

When we had departed
my heart shattered like glass
oh, how the silence
brought on the tears
thinking back on those years
we had making love fun
but that was way before
that darken storm
had taken our love away
oh, how I miss those days
running around on the beach
playing with each others feet
dancing around just to snick a kiss
oh, those days I will always miss
now I am brokenhearted
while the years pass
my heart is still shattered like glass
these old cold hours
made so many rain shows
of true sorrows of what
an ending Love foretold
so many years ago .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Shattered Memories
Ravens are out eating the scraps
of the dead that had lost their heads
a bottle of wine kills some time
letters are cast out into the angry sea
for the world to read
all about what it is I dream
what it is I bleed
Oh, shattered memories
stay away from my mind
you take up too much of my time
the shore is so nice to see
the sand feels so good underneath my feet
but when I sleep all I do is dream
your burning eyes
burn deep within mine
your words are like fireworks
the pains are never ending rains
that never turn out the flames
You are evil
their are no one compare to you
Your name is Dark Angel
the one who gives pains and so much sins
You give blames and shame
to turn up the rain
you dazzle your way in
with every drink
your eyes where dark
your reflection left you marked
you hate yourself
you don't like what you see
so you have to cast spells upon me
You are my beast
your love is like dark ice
you make my skin crawl
but I will never
let you take me down with you.

Poetic  Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

SICK BED
Feeling alone, scared
You are never are around
you are always uptown
playing around
deep despair
with no care
You walked around like a king
telling me I need you
I want you to
You do this
our I will do that
your eyes are always on me
even when you’re not with me
You touched my heart
then you started tearing it down
You cut me in so many pieces
beat me down
made me feel like I was a beat up clown
You would yell at me
Saying
Moonlight did you give up your sight yet
of your free will
Then I started feeling I’ll
Dark Angel started getting out of hand
push me down to read my mind
Look at me he would tell me
let me see your eyes
I started to feel lost
confused
dizzy
my eyes started rolling back
I didn't know what was happening to me
I felt I was losing control of myself
Dark Angel
looking deeper and deeper in my mind
Until he seen I still had light
left in my soul
but he couldn't ever see my visions
So he put a nasty spell on me
that made me very I’ll
sent me to bed rest
until I changed
I tried to help myself to fight him
but I couldn't he was too strong for me
He picked me up
started walking to the castle
you could feel the mist of the fog
upon my skin
the creepy sound of the night
ravens keeping an eye out
haven't I made you uncomfortable
Moonlight
I never said a world I am to sick
I couldn't even speak
Dark Angels breath at my face
every time he spoken to me
His world playing over and over  in my heard
Please I cried out to Stop
but he never did
Finely he open the door to the castle
and started walking up stars
to take me to my darken room
I been crying for the pain to end
He puts me on a big kings bed
walked away
locked the door
and that is where I stayed .

Poetic Judy Emery © 1982
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

A place of silence
is a very cold place to be
words are never really heard
my pains hold its own language
for others to read
Oh, how my body feels so weak
Silence holds no peace
when witness are around
they see me fall to the ground
what they hold in their eyes
is a sense of wonder
what is happen in my life  
that made me this away
Silence is a place of gray
with pains that never go away
I wanted to tell them
what was truly going on with me
but I didn't think
they would understand
I didn't want to be caught up
in the talk of the town
to have my name past around
like a beat up clown
rages are upon my skin
while my poor heart
sinks deeper in
Silence is a place
that holds no faith
all I see is the rain
that falls from clouds of gray
I long to be comfort
but that day
never made its way.

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Sinking Deeper
I sink into my cold empty bed at night
anchored down with guilt and pains
tossing and turn from all the memories
that burn in my head
he proud all his hatred onto me
he tells me I had earned it
I put a pillow over my head
hoping I wouldn't hear a thing
but my conscience buried deep beneath
my heart stuck in a skeleton of lies
my eyes can’t see happiness it is so far out of reach
I would hear his voice telling me
You can only get so far with no one by your side
A dark storm lies ahead with his words of lies
Oh, how I cry just wishing he would get out of my mind
You can never take back the seed you sowed
the cards you dealt on this long and lonely road
This dark throne is a place of sad and loneliness
pains of desire that sets the heart on fire
tainted lust that turns to dust
in a flame of shame
nothing to gain
only the rain.

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

SLAMMING DOORS

Deception is a part of life
that you want to leave behind
Betrayal is its friend of the night
that you want to take
Off your mind and let it run in
summers breeze so free
Without it just being a dream
If you watch closely to your pains
You will only find many doors you left open
And your will never be free
The people that gave so much pain's in your life
They’re not different in the end
So let them go
Let go of the pain and let
the rain come down
Slam that door as hard
as you can and move on in life
You cannot have both so just let go
I know love is bliss
Sadly I will never have a part of this
Just another dream that faded away just as fast
Lost in the moment of one lasting kiss
Something my poor heart miss
Oh this hurts so bad
My heart is taken the beatings
that it should never had
Glad some things are gone
washed away in the rain
But there is still some pains that remain
Slamming doors that yet have not came
You are like a song that I will not miss
But when the rain comes
I will cry out slamming doors
I need your love today
But then I don't need
no more pains from you and all
Those sad lies you tell
I need you now, before you go away
Trying to hold on, I know the cause is lost
Does this mean nothing?
I promised you, my heart
was crossed in the rain of your pains
I've  kept all my  promises to you
Can you say the same?
We're losing touch what is true love
You're driving me insane
I cannot keep playing your games
Are you so heartless to say you still love me
When I saw you with you know who
You must have me confused
My heart was open, the key was yours
But now all I'm doing is slamming the doors
Walking out of this darken life of your lies
Slamming all the doors.
I hate these childish games
Let the rain pour because
I'm slamming this door .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)