Changing
I am changing all the time
but one thing has never changed
is you
You are the darkness of all times
you stay upon my mind
most of the time
Life is no game
so why do you play as if it is?
I know I am changing
but not for the worse
but indeed for for me
I see the things you do
I walked in your shoes
I felt the pains
I was even put down in rain
I cried and let out my tears
I felt the fears
I was broken
put in shackles
locked away in darken dreams
your eyes are always on me
I listen to your lies
I stand by your side
You put me in a cage
to never be found
you prison me up
so you had thought .

Poetic Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams

Kindness
holds blessedness
where Love , peace
will be with thee
when you find yourself
overpowered in darkness
open your eyes to what it is
you truly miss  
go out and touch someone
with kindness and love
speak to them with hope
let the light shine into your night
Hatting on people
is a dark state of mind
it is like a stone upon your throne
the sickness that made way to your soul
a darkness that has taken control
THIS ISN'T THE WAY TO GO.

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

I ponder over my true goals
in deep solitude of your laughter
to the inner courtyards of my heart
I will always find you there,
I know life can be so unfair
when it comes to love from different breeds
I will always stand up for you and me
when love is among weeds
never take from me your laughter
even among the the people perfuming the night
with so much hate, keep standing in faith of Love
if the waters suddenly wash the land clean
I pray you will be standing by me
know that God Jehovah is judging the land of man
as for all the hands, they keep dropping down
and all knees, keep dripping with water
in tears of true Love is among all .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

RAVEN

Lost, hurt so cut up  
Puzzled the way my life has been  
I had been gazing out my bedroom  
Window thinking about the hurt  
Of what Dark Angel gave.
I looked and what did I see and ''Raven'',
Looking back at me,
His eyes so little like a spark shining in
That cold darken sky,
His beaded yellow eyes had been looking me  
Up and down,
I pondered over and over in my mind,
What did the ''Raven'' see when it was looking  
back at me,
Did it see all the pains that was in my eyes?
The cuts of the night that had been cut in  
Deep wounds of Dark Angels knife,
From my bleeding heart that is all over my
Bedroom floor .
Did the ''Raven'' see the same story of he  
When he was looking at me.
Poetic Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I Had A Dream To Become

I had a dream of you Jehovah
holding my hand and
He would talking to me about
Life's pains that I was in
I was crying because I was
I'll of some kind
You Oh Jehovah
You have taken my hand and whipped
away each tear that had fallen
from my eyes
My heart was filled with compassion
for your
Love for humankind
You Jehovah opened my eyes to see
Yes, spiritually bound by Satan and helpless
Or the loss in their way of the night
Sicken by the night of not living right
To even see their tragic dilemma even mine
Oh, how my spirit started to pray
for them and all mankind
I even prayed for my life  
for Jehovah to take full control
  led the way for me to go
Jehovah and our Lord Jesus
deliver me and all mankind
from this ******* that
We are in ;have mercy
for each of the lost souls
To make their way back home  
break these bindings of Satan’s work,
take his sick hands of his ***** works
off of each one of us and
let us live a life to be Fisher Of Men
I suddenly felt confident that
Jehovah God heard me,
while I was sleeping
I heard his voice say to me
you are free from your sickness
go teach others what
you know to save souls
the ******* I was in has been broken
So go and teach the world
of my ''Kingdom'' ,
My ''Love'', For the lost souls
clean your ways and walk
In the light of Jehovah God
you will gain ''Everlasting Life'',
so pick up your things
we walk and become ''Fishers Of Man ''.

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Every eyes want to see me cry
they even act as they
would love to see me die
they wobble around
on the sandy ground like snakes
they hold hate in their eyes
I could never let them on my side
walking with me in Life
I show them all
that I am not afraid
to face them at their game
it is like a tidal wave of pains
that will soon go away
it will be a battle I will win
But until then
I will write out my pains
in my own blood stain Ink
for all to read about me
what makes my heart bleed
comfort comes to me
like rushing water
that moves my emotions
like fireworks to art up the sky
for ever Love on my side
but in this world
all I have is the pains
and my own blood stain Ink .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Fire Colored Leaves
Fire colored leaves
smothered the wet autumn grounds
where solace was found
in a time of need
in a place where forgiveness is made
piercing skies painted down
my emotions of my pains
I feel my body going numb
while holding on to memories of you  
Oh, here comes more rain
while I try so hard to hold back
yesterday's pains
Fire colored leaves
has fallen down to the wet ground
where my love do sleep.

Poetic Judy Emery © 1982
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

IN LOST DREAMS

Let the rain come on down
let every drop wash me clean
from yesterday's pains
that Dark Angel gave
I became his queen
in darken dreams,
He always makes me feel
I'm ill like I am going insane
in my dreams, I seen my grave
Oh, how that made me scream
Look! what you have done to me
I am among the shying of sad songs
silence remains in my own pains,
in my mind, I will always see
Dark Angel eyes
when you came in life
I don't have one
I'm written down in history
in crying eyes of darken storms
when others seen me
they walk away from me
they call me strange
someone that is locked away in dreams,
My deepest affections are now lost
like a sad song in the crying wind
Autumn leaves fall like me
in darken dreams is where I will be
if anyone is looking for me
You’re the first and the last
you are something from my own past
you are something I pray to never see
but you are always in my dreams
just to make me scream
upon the sea
that makes me bleed out your name
You had taken everything from me
but this you do see
you are so mean,
You take my freedom
my life
I have no hope left in me
dreams of true love will never be
You take my heart
and left me scared
I will always remember
what you did to me
on that cold September
I will never forget the pains
that brought down the rain of me
your eyes
your world
like fire works
that plays over and in my mind
most of the time,
you give me fright from your darkness
You touched me I feel so cold
you stand so bold
even though you are old
your love is something out of my reach
I can still feel you always near
I know I mean everything to you
but you mean nothing to me
this you must see
even in darken dreams
you had to take me down
You are a nightmare
you poisoned my mind
you give me a world of pain
you take everything from me,
I feel so cold
this is the life know I hold
darkness engulfing my soul
I have nothing I could call my own
a Queen of darken dreams
he made of me
I have No exist in life
only in lost dreams
is where I scream to be free
this is where I will be
locked away in darken dreams of him
that always makes me scream.


Poetic Judy /Lilly Emery © 2004

TREASURE

I keep on loving you,
But you always make me so confused about you,
You lock me away in a darken room,
Where the world could never see me,
You keep me like a treasure
that you always keep on guard,
in the back of your darken mind,
you play evil games all the time,
You say you are protecting me from harm,
But I must ask, who is protecting me from you?
Your old prying eyes are on me all the time,
I know this isn’t an imagination,
You keep my photo next to your heart,
But then you say thing to break me down,
You call this love, but I know it’s all a lie,
I look out my window,
watch the slaves caring a casket to the graveyard,
this kept me in full wonderment;
I see a shining diamond flashing from the night,
Hiding behind the forest sky,
A rare jewel of truth,
It moves strong feelings from my spirit,
Like a renewal of some kind,
I’m in a place of un-refined of my mind,
I start to receive visions from an ancient time,
That is leading me to a place I felt close,
A place I held on to my faith,
where the gift of the Light shined deep in my eyes,
while I have seen, others died for this dream,
I open my eyes while others cry,
they call me their queen even in darken dreams,
when my heart starts to bleed,
The Light would shine to me in my darkest hours,
I start to become humble in the true presence,
I never half to question this true Love,
This is the divine design of all times,
while I am locked away in darken pleases,
I know I am only being tested,
Jealousy and hate with envy eyes
are always at my door,
Dark Angel, treasures my every move,
While he tells me all the time,
I am his for life, I will become his wife,
I will be his queen of darken dreams.


Poetic Judy Emery © 2017

Saying Goodbye To Love
another night closes in,and I feel so
lonely touching heart freezing on my
skin,
everyone says that love don't hurt
but that not true.Because I'm black
and blue over you,
I'm talking to myself on this lonely
road ,I'm starting to feel old,
sometimes I'd like to quit ,nothing
seems to fit,
loneliness made it's way and my life
feels so cold with no love of any kind,,
I cry in the night hanging around all
the places we use to go,
roller coaster Of the up's and down
Of a lie that he call love and I feel like
Ice ,why he is going on with his life,
while I walk around like some lost clown
I really need you tonight,
once upon a time
You was my love for life
all I have now
is an empty heart running in
the dark,I'm falling apart
I say good bye to love
there are no tomorrows
for this heart of mine
surely with time
will lose these bitter memories
where I can get on with my life .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

On Holy Grounds
Loyal souls , are upon the land
among the blind
that dance with time
the earth began to
shake and rock
the mountains themselves
became very agitated
the lost sheep of the field
they had fallen down
upon the holy ground
the eyes of the lost sheep
became open for the world to see
God is standing among these
they moved upon the ground
on bidden knees
asking God to forgive them
for all their ***** deeds
and God washed them clean

Poetic  Judy Emery © 1995
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I sit in silence
like a mindless puppet
this is what I had become
my strings are torn
my spirit broken
along with my wings
abused is the life I am in
creaky bones
but his bones
are creaked even more than mine
Dark Angel loves to fight
all the time
he loves to tells me what to do
but I tell him what I will do
if he isn't careful
My eyesight gone bad at times
when he gives me a black eye
The yell ,
the blaming
the hitting
I couldn't take no more
I had to even the score
He is cutting at my soul
he just wont let me go
his old voice makes me sick
his words play over and over in my head
but I bet mine is stronger then his
I bet he wish it would end
his old eyes had never faded from mine
my body fading fast
I'm starting to get as mean as he
The chance are turning
wrong to right
Wars-a-waging,
old mans guilt is craving
Love and dreams
now makes me scream
In books others will read
all about Dark Angel and Me
I look in the shadows of darkness
what do I see
looking back at me
Dark Angel  lurk about
He whispered to me
I would like to sit with you
so don't be mean
so we sit along time in silence
with so much pain
holding so much regrets
There are darkness in the air
of unhappiness
It was like an autumn sharpening in the air
the shadow of time
shone beneath the sea in darken dreams
My mind race
my body and soul wanting to let go
That reawaken pain starts all over again
out among the unknown .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Malicious People

When I was just a your little girl
I always had around me
was malicious people
always jealous of my beauty
thy would go around town
talking all kinds of trash
they would call me names
just to make them feel good
what a shame to casting all kinds of blames ,
When I had got older
I was much stronger
and I stood up for myself
I started remembering all their names
that had given me so much pains
but I never cast no hate their way
because they had to see their own self in the mirror
and face their own fears each and every day
their old friends just linked together
making all kinds of trouble in that old small town
but I never let them burst my bubble
no way will I let them bring me down
into their own shame of lies
I have my own life
I've seen so many things that has given me
darken dreams of pains you would never believe
rains of sorrow that has no end
my life became so gray on that cold September day
by the time December made its way
I felt I was in a grave
I had lost my faith when it comes to love
I come to that old garden of pains
and that is where my heart stayed
around me are falling leaves of memories
that withered deep within my mind
this pain moved deeper and deeper in my heart
I felt I could no longer breath
when I start to think about the loss of my loved ones
It became hard for me to move on in my life
but then I start to think about those malicious people
and I started to think
where they in pain too ?
is that why they act the way they do .

Poetic Judy Emery © 1982
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Love has a voice
but pain has many tears
Darkness holds a life time of fears
Love sends its greetings
in the summer sun
that shines deep within
Love is the Key
that opens the door
of lovers hearts
love dreams
where dancing
is around the raindrops that fall
just like the autumn leaves
when Love is no longer
you will fall into darken dreams
that will cut you deep
Love has a voice
but it is up to you
to hear what Love is saying.

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

The Night is long
and my mind is working hard
while holding back a wild storm
of pains started sinking in
I open my mind to a time
that brought me back to you
  autumn was always so cold
walking around in snow
but that was way back then
where you left me all alone
I could feel the coldness
of your touch
in the air holds so much fear
I looked outside my window
just to find you locking back at me
downward through the twilight
I got lost in your eyes
a place you love to take me
a place of darken dreams
a place that makes me scream
those old memories
started rushing back at me
I see the darkness all around us
I see the old streetlight
holding on to gloom
autumn leaves fallen down at my feet
my mind fines you in every memory
your eyes looking back at me ,
My heart tell many stories
while the blood of me
pours out like ink
you love to see me bleed
  his words he would say
started playing with my mind
his voice cutting into the fog of dreams
leaving me marked
my tears started running down my face
like a thunderstom of rain
Oh, how I can feel the pains of yesterdays
intensified with protests cries
asking him why are you doing this to me
  I feel I can no longer breath
Dark Angel is a rebel of darkness
that gives darken dreams .


Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

MUCH TO BE WRITTEN

There's so much to be written
in a life that is forbidden
there are the challenges
that duck behind the darkness.

Poetic Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Night Falls

Night falls is where the darkness is
all around me is sadness
a place of emptiness
I look into my own thoughts
were love was once was with me
falling leaves hidden darken dreams
they all are apart of me
days of gray
where love is lost
where memories come a cross
where every leaf that falls
has a name of pains
on very leaf I see your name
in my own blood stain ink
Oh, how you made my heart bleed
At night fall
I can see your eyes upon on me
out in the rain is all kinds of pains
I think about  all the things
that you have given to me
You taken me by the edge of the sea
you held me when I cried
but then you let me fall
deep into the night I do cry
I felt all the pain of that darken night
you left me out to die
You held on to me tight
why we was looking at the blanket of stars
that was shining on us from far
but then you left your mark
upon my heart
The roaring sea is now a big part of me
anger of the fall rushes to the shore
broken spirit for shure
sadly enough you are always with me
you given me that
when you cast your spell
to give me a life of Hell
I know this may seem harsh
but I am so glad we did depart


Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

You'll Never Know

You’ll never really know
how this story will go
or how it will end
My heart will be with you
  just wait and see
what I mean
You are in all my dreams
this Dark Angel brings
My heart still skips a beat
every time he comes near me
when I hear your name
I feel I'm going to go insane
I feel far from what would seem close
And close to what would seem far
at times I feel I'm flying among stars
I don’t want  to cry
but this is what I do
when I live in a world of confused
Dark Angel gives darken dreams
a place I never wanted to be.

Poetic Judy  Emery © 2004
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Where There Is Love  
never give up
on something you really want
It's difficult to wait
but more difficult to regret,  
where there is light you will find love
where there is love the day is brighter  
A beautiful place to be
where there is love
you will hear the harps  
the hundred and forty four thousand  
playing a new song and no one was able  
to master that song
where there is love there is a smile  
to make all things seem more worthwhile  
where there is love
there’s quiet peace  
a tranquil place where turmoils cease
Love changes darkness into light  
makes the heart take wingless flight
Where is love you
will find the way to everlasting life  .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

What Must I Do

You was always their to the very end
my dear lover for darken dreams
You had always been my evil friend
even to the very time Dark Angel
taken down my life
on that cold September night
You have a big part in my heart
but only while I'm in the dark
time tells me to let you go
this I had already  known  
  some how in our life
I will see you again
It in your big brown eyes
that kept me on the line
I do apologize for making you cry
when I had to take control of my own Life
this makes my heart sight
when I had to watch you leave
but again this is only a dream
Should I be feeling guilty
for the let go
I don't think so
the judges of  frown
are always around
they are the lost
that will never be found
What must I do my friend
But you could never be my lover
Please take my hand
while I take my stand
watch my tears fall hard to the ground
while Dark Angel makes his round
Let each tear fall touch your heart  
to walk out of the dark
I saw the end before we'd begun
this was no fun
I felt  your pain
  that another gave
I seen everything that broken you down
into darken dreams
I tell you everything
you must Stop following me
I have set you free
from the pains of darken dreams
because I hold the Key to everything
that Dark Angel brings
you were blinded by the truth
Dark Angel kept you confused
I knew I had won
way before it all started
even though I am broken heart'ed  
Someone so wonderful
so full of Life and  love
you don't belong hear
don't hold no fears
your heart wasn't for me to clam  
You gave our friendship love
to another under the law of pain
one night Dark Angel gave so much fright
you left my side
out of lust you sold me out
I took what was mine mine
that was my own Life away from you
this is my own eternal right
so it was time for me to let you go
I walked alone
hoping that this pain will soon end
My dear friend what must I do
It may be over for our friendship
but it won't stop there until
the right time to say
you need too move on
You will always be
my friend in the dark
but that will one day Stop
in my dreams
Dark Angel will make you feel the pain
of yesterdays blues
When everything end's
I am here for you
if you'd only care to see
what you had meant to me
You touched my heart
you touched my soul
but that was sometime ago
then you cut me deep
made me heart bleed
Why is it you can't see
what you had done to me
You changed my life
then you taken me down
and handing me over
to a darken place
At one time you made me smile
but that had all end
in just one night you given
me Lies to the dark side
To your anger
to your lust
now look at us
Your love is blind
My heart was blinded by you
I've kissed your lips
held your hand
Shared your dreams
shared your bed when we wed
I have a heart
and it is saying I must let you go
I can no longer hang on
to what could never be
that would be you and me
So I am lost into darken dreams .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

The Light

The light in your eyes is fading fast
Like a bladed glass ,
I try to keep up a good front that
Nothing's wrong ,
But inside my head and my heart
Are constantly fight who's right and
Who's wrong ,
As soon as I feel I can grasp for air
And go ahead and let the pain's run
In ,and accept that you are long gone
I can move along ,
The taste of happiness has faded away
To another place and silence made
Home ,
This feeling that I feel that is holding me
Captive within myself ,
Feels as if someone pulls out the rug.
And I fall off my feet onto my face ,
My heart does feel a beat.
And I have strong faith in you to see
Me through in Jehovah's name,
I don't want to give up , but this is too
Much pain that won't go away ,
This is killing me slowly within why I
Am holding it all in,
But how much can one person take.
I try with all my might.
As darkness try's so hard to fall over
Me when death has taken its course ,
This is not who I'm supposed to be.
I always try to remain bright in the love
Of Jehovah God ;
But this time my heart holds dimering
Light of a lost life and I must get my
Feeling back right,
So I call on yo Jehovah to let me run
Free until I have finely found me .
And now I am asking Jehovah God
To dust me off from all my sinful ways
And let me see brighter days to run
In the race .


Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Most wild is he
who haunts me
he phantoms all my nights
while he takes over my Life
he don't play nice
Every September
I start to remember all his words
his cold voice
echos through my mind
most of the time
the horror of his touch
his eyes of darkness
looking deep within mine
while he was on top of me
his breath of death
was all over me
he terrifies me
his voice runs deep
into my mind
just the thoughts of him
brings me down
he has destroyed
all that I had Love'd
when he is angry
he clamps his fist to hit the wall
while he pushes me down the hall
he would tell me all kinds of things
just to bring me down in pains
he cuts at my soul
he never lets me go
he crushes my spirit
while he walks around bold
when it comes to Love
he has to run
he holds the crown of darkness
this is all he knows
his frivolous moods
keeps me on the blues
he provokes
he cast evil upon all
that comes around
his deep laughter is like thunder
when he is angry
his eyes starts to twitch
he indulges more pains my way
Oh, here comes the rain
I start to fall down
to the wet ground
while my body starts to tremble
while coldness makes its way
into my body
I start to cry
but only he is by my side
Dark Angel is his name
the one that cast all blames my way
he treasurers all my tears
he loves to give me fears
Every September
will always be remembered .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Mysterious Moon

Oh, mysterious moon
you hang so low in gloom
images of the motionless
but only see eye movement
that stalks out the night
Oh, how you keep me anxiously in fright
The temperature had dropped another notch
I can feel the coldness into the autumn air
color leaves are on the ground
and the birds are lacking courage to move ,
This is a journey of fear
a fantasy of a childhood game
floating away into my brain
I can feel and see all things
that hold a blaze of danger
upon a darken road to nowhere
this has betokened my future with anger
The old crying wind
made its way back again
making ghostly hues of dangerous cry's
that shaken the night
given more fight to what will happen tonight
then a tapping and a groan
bring on rain of sobbing pains
that was when Dark Angel stood so near .

Poetic Judy Emery © 1996
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

A mother's child is every breath that she takes,
walking hand in hand,
they are every step that she makes.
as their steps will grow to strides, still a child
in mother's eyes
Every ache and pain they shall feel,
mother will share and with love she will kneel
She will pray to God to take care of her child
to protect and guide them through every mile
Her child is the very core of her soul
from baby in arms to an adult they will grow
For to a mother, her child will stay
the precious infant she held that day.
  
Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)