So many has cast stones at me
they made me out to be evil
they said so many bad things
they made my heart frozen
I felt I could no longer breath
I'm not frightened
of them any more
their cold pits
that once hit the core
with a Big surprise  
I hold no fear in my eyes
for the ones that has cast
their stones upon my soul
Oh ,Darkness of true sadness
has pass me on by
now what I see is the beauty
of sunrise ray of rejoicing
because love is with me,
the window of my cold room
has been Broken in late June
for all to see Love is with me
now all my Hatters
cast their stones
just to see me bleed,
now they cry out my name
in their own pains of Darken Dreams .


Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Tears Of Autumn
Tears are silent words

The words that cut the

   heart very deep,

In silence, tears will fall

like autumn leaves

   from near or far

without a sound until

   they hit the ground .


Poetic Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I still Cry

but not about you

all my tears I cry

are from Yesterday's blues

My tears will flow

from long ago

but the pain I hold

I will only know .



Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

A mother's child is every breath that she takes,
walking hand in hand,
they are every step that she makes.
as their steps will grow to strides, still a child
in mother's eyes
Every ache and pain they shall feel,
mother will share and with love she will kneel
She will pray to God to take care of her child
to protect and guide them through every mile
Her child is the very core of her soul
from baby in arms to an adult they will grow
For to a mother, her child will stay
the precious infant she held that day.
  
Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

I always act like everything

is going okay

to everyone face

but when the night is still young

the pains takes a run

that cuts deeper at my heart

until the rain comes

I know deep within

I feel so very I'll

without you in my Life

I know I couldn't hide my pains

when the world can see it

My heart is breaking

my body is aching  

But I still keep on faking

that I am okay without you in my Life.



Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Looking Glass
I always wondered if anyone

understands my pains

or feel my needs to be free

this old  darken life isn't ease you see

my pains that brings on more rain

while my heart bleeds out like ink

into the sea of darken dreams ,

Someone , somewhere

let me know you care

let me know you can love a broken spirit

can anyone read what it is my heart bleeds?

why do others look at me as if I am different ?

Can you understand my loneliness

and all my despairs ?

all anyone ever does
is look at me as an eye cone

an ideal of something from the dark

that has a broken heart

but I am human just like all

I just been cut deep within me that bleeds

I had once loved

but that was some time ago ,

I know deep within my mind

if anyone looks at me too closely

they may see the one who has given me

a life of darken dreams ;

can you see all my tears that fall ?

can you see me at all ?

hiding behind the walls of dark?

look at the crying ravens fly out from my eyes

oh, looking glass of my pains of yesterday’s

when will you go away?


Poetic Judy Emery © 1986
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

You Judged Me
Who are you to judge me
did God give you that right?
didn't he say first to cleans
your own eyes first ?
  You come around my page
to tell me how I should write
or how I should be
but then you steal from me ,
You even try to be me
for the world to think you are me
you don't have that right
to ever judge me ,
You don't have the right
to try to steal my identity
I do study Criminal Law
it wont be long for you
to be locked up by a Judge.


Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Far spread light
move along the sea
in darken dreams
strong freshening breeze
made desire of true delight
that lead to mastery
on a true ancient time
that perfumed the mind
sea sail filled night
desire haunts the skies
divine powers blooms
the true fashion of the moon
in late June
winds, clouds, heavenly birds
given renew of true delight
to darken dreams
herald radiant springs
that leaf out pages of a new breed
for a world to read
swimming words
with strong fruit
pen down to what hurts
swollen pride had moved
into darken places
into a time of the unkind
Ocean blues
guide its way to a bird like Flu
bound in chains to an ancient place
wild winds crying at me again .

Poetic Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

The Night is long
and my mind is working hard
while holding back a wild storm
of pains started sinking in
I open my mind to a time
that brought me back to you
  autumn was always so cold
walking around in snow
but that was way back then
where you left me all alone
I could feel the coldness
of your touch
in the air holds so much fear
I looked outside my window
just to find you locking back at me
downward through the twilight
I got lost in your eyes
a place you love to take me
a place of darken dreams
a place that makes me scream
those old memories
started rushing back at me
I see the darkness all around us
I see the old streetlight
holding on to gloom
autumn leaves fallen down at my feet
my mind fines you in every memory
your eyes looking back at me ,
My heart tell many stories
while the blood of me
pours out like ink
you love to see me bleed
  his words he would say
started playing with my mind
his voice cutting into the fog of dreams
leaving me marked
my tears started running down my face
like a thunderstom of rain
Oh, how I can feel the pains of yesterdays
intensified with protests cries
asking him why are you doing this to me
  I feel I can no longer breath
Dark Angel is a rebel of darkness
that gives darken dreams .


Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

The loss is great
lost of faith
left my life in a dark stat of mind
where sadness ,and pains remains
where everything is cold
in a life that stands bold
I always feel alone
pity lone
eyes dropping in tears alone
words from an old beathen down past
always find its way back to my mind
in memories are darken dreams
a place upon seas
Oh, how my heart grives
my body always aches
wery joints rised in me
while I am upon on kneel knees
Praying to be set free
from this darken state of mind
that has been haded down to me .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

I called out your name
but no other knows it but me
In darken times of my life
is where you will always be
you are the king of darkness
the king of darken dreams
you cast your spell
upon on me out upon sea
I call you Dark Angel
because you ask me to
you are the one
that put me on the run
on that cold september night
you had given me fright for life
you broken me down
you pushed me to the point
I had never been pushed
you test me beyound reach
you left me out to bleed like the sea
you cast me in darken dreams
a place I never wanted to be
a place where Love has never been
darkness is where all sins are made
into a life of pains
into your eyes you look into mine
you don't like what you see
I gave you back the pains you had given to me
seas upon on seas
dreams upon dreams
storms upon storms
but my visisons you will never see
that is only for me
that is my own gift you will never take
I feel your angers
I even feel your cold touch
you will always be to me
The king of darkness
where lost souls play their games of hate .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Secret wounds of long ago
Oh, you know how my story flows
it has been witten down
in my own blood stain ink
the pains of yesterdays blues
Love never came my way
Love I do waite
I will keep my faith
others has cast their stones
just to see me fall
they wound me from the start
they sink my spirit
like a ship in doom
they love to see me in pain
they lie about me day and night
making my life a darken place
secret wounds of yesterdays pains
that brings on more rain
that makes a tidlewaves
into darken dreams
I will always be
the woman of lost dreams

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Moonlight is a goddess
she sits in many paintings
where the storms are raging
her eyes are gray blue
but they change with her moods
they are like the moon
She is a true goddess in many eyes
they will never leave her side
she seeks for peace
for one day to be free
she waits for that day
when true love comes her way
she is still young
yet growing old
she is the story
that will always be told
she is the goddess
that stand so bold
of long ago
she has once been loved
and will always be
she is written down in history
but locked away into darken dreams.

Poetic Judy Emery © 1985
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Night Falls

Night falls is where the darkness is
all around me is sadness
a place of emptiness
I look into my own thoughts
were love was once was with me
falling leaves hidden darken dreams
they all are apart of me
days of gray
where love is lost
where memories come a cross
where every leaf that falls
has a name of pains
on very leaf I see your name
in my own blood stain ink
Oh, how you made my heart bleed
At night fall
I can see your eyes upon on me
out in the rain is all kinds of pains
I think about  all the things
that you have given to me
You taken me by the edge of the sea
you held me when I cried
but then you let me fall
deep into the night I do cry
I felt all the pain of that darken night
you left me out to die
You held on to me tight
why we was looking at the blanket of stars
that was shining on us from far
but then you left your mark
upon my heart
The roaring sea is now a big part of me
anger of the fall rushes to the shore
broken spirit for shure
sadly enough you are always with me
you given me that
when you cast your spell
to give me a life of Hell
I know this may seem harsh
but I am so glad we did depart


Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

A place of silence
is a very cold place to be
words are never really heard
my pains hold its own language
for others to read
Oh, how my body feels so weak
Silence holds no peace
when witness are around
they see me fall to the ground
what they hold in their eyes
is a sense of wonder
what is happen in my life  
that made me this away
Silence is a place of gray
with pains that never go away
I wanted to tell them
what was truly going on with me
but I didn't think
they would understand
I didn't want to be caught up
in the talk of the town
to have my name past around
like a beat up clown
rages are upon my skin
while my poor heart
sinks deeper in
Silence is a place
that holds no faith
all I see is the rain
that falls from clouds of gray
I long to be comfort
but that day
never made its way.

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

In my own silence
is where I bleed
my pains cut me very deep
words that will never be hared
Silence is my storm
this is where old memories
come to me in silence
where the rain is always
pouring down on me
cuts from long ago
has marked my heart
deep into my soul
My own silence
is a darken place
a state of mind
that works over time
Silence of memories
that gave me painful dreams.

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Unstable winds
calling me again
shadows of time
dwelt upon my mind
most of the time
pages and pages I do right
in my own blood stain ink
about you and me
I had written down
all my pains
you had given to me
Oh, how you made my spirit sink
like a ship out upon seas
among the unstable winds
that cry's out to me .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Everlasting dreams
will always be apart of me
my spirit is weak
my light is always on dim
but the visions of time
will always shine
deep within my eyes
like a star that shines from far
eternity I do sleep
hopeless sorrow
with no tomorrow
cold reality haunts over me
hearts are broken
spirits are sunken
a life with no token
everything has been broken
holding on to no devotions
deep dark passions
are everlasting
Pains, Rains,Shames of guilt
will always be with me
in everlasting dreams
that always makes me scream
will always be with me
upon crying sea  .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

You'll Never Know

You’ll never really know
how this story will go
or how it will end
My heart will be with you
  just wait and see
what I mean
You are in all my dreams
this Dark Angel brings
My heart still skips a beat
every time he comes near me
when I hear your name
I feel I'm going to go insane
I feel far from what would seem close
And close to what would seem far
at times I feel I'm flying among stars
I don’t want  to cry
but this is what I do
when I live in a world of confused
Dark Angel gives darken dreams
a place I never wanted to be.

Poetic Judy  Emery © 2004
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Togetherness / Dark Angel

Dark Angel, with thine aching lust
for what he cannot have
my heart isn't for him
My body is flesh
but my spirit is with the light
but he thinks he owns me
he wants to rid all that I love
the world of his darkness
is all he knows how to give
he cast his spells
gives a life of hell
locked away in a unknown place
darken dreams he gives to me
a gift from he
He wants my all
he wants everything I love
he wants my the visions
that I hold deep within
Dark Angel, doesn't no true Love
  what it is that I hold
I loved what is good
I loved my true God
with all my heart
with all my might
I had fallen  apart when I found
myself in the dark
someone has broken my heart
Dark Angel ,made his way
into my mind
he showed me things
that brings on much pains
I am standing in the rain
I feel I am about to go insane
the violence is all around me
I am cut very deep from he
My life will never been the same
he gives me so much blames
I questioned all his words
but he holds no self worth
I myself did not want what he holds
he reveal what is dark and cold
like we are apart of the dead
am I losing my head
my mind sees the angry sea
a ship of pain
with many dancing in the rain
I don't no what to think
are what it is I feel
what I felt in my soul
is something from the unknown
Dark Angel ,looks at me
like he is reading my thoughts
I can't put nothing past him
in a world of dreams ,
Oh , how he makes screams
Why did love take flight from me ?  
I cried in so much pain
in pouring rain
with so much shame ,
Dark Angel,  on wing of darkness
fly's over to me
asking me what it is I see
but I never said a thing
he never reaches me too late
this pain of coldness is freezing my blood
  frozen emotions ,
among silvery to a sultry fire
thine envious heart
delight tortured by desire of Dark Angel
things of beauty burn like a  flames
evil ecstasy he has for me
the gloom of dooms is all around me
moments of his lust
I hate this so much
he lied me down with gentle coldness
words of hunger
whispering words in  my ears
dark love to me
He admires my beauty
my body
but most of all is my eyes
and the visions  I hold within
my hands around him
my skin is almost lifeless as his
tears he kissed off my cold face
my lips he kissed
then he bite until blood run thin
upon my skin
he had been looking me up and down
He put me next to him
hope that I will never try to escape.


Poetic Lilly Judy  Emery (c)

Fire Colored Leaves
Fire colored leaves
smothered the wet autumn grounds
where solace was found
in a time of need
in a place where forgiveness is made
piercing skies painted down
my emotions of my pains
I feel my body going numb
while holding on to memories of you  
Oh, here comes more rain
while I try so hard to hold back
yesterday's pains
Fire colored leaves
has fallen down to the wet ground
where my love do sleep.

Poetic Judy Emery © 1982
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Most wild is he
who haunts me
he phantoms all my nights
while he takes over my Life
he don't play nice
Every September
I start to remember all his words
his cold voice
echos through my mind
most of the time
the horror of his touch
his eyes of darkness
looking deep within mine
while he was on top of me
his breath of death
was all over me
he terrifies me
his voice runs deep
into my mind
just the thoughts of him
brings me down
he has destroyed
all that I had Love'd
when he is angry
he clamps his fist to hit the wall
while he pushes me down the hall
he would tell me all kinds of things
just to bring me down in pains
he cuts at my soul
he never lets me go
he crushes my spirit
while he walks around bold
when it comes to Love
he has to run
he holds the crown of darkness
this is all he knows
his frivolous moods
keeps me on the blues
he provokes
he cast evil upon all
that comes around
his deep laughter is like thunder
when he is angry
his eyes starts to twitch
he indulges more pains my way
Oh, here comes the rain
I start to fall down
to the wet ground
while my body starts to tremble
while coldness makes its way
into my body
I start to cry
but only he is by my side
Dark Angel is his name
the one that cast all blames my way
he treasurers all my tears
he loves to give me fears
Every September
will always be remembered .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Messages are all in silence
while the angry  waves
move along like a sad song
tragic new's spreads like a storm
words are handwritten
down in blood stain ink
oh , how the ship will soon sink
souls are doomed
into a nightmare of darken dreams
oh , how we all do scream
windows are broken
life was once a token
freedom will never be
souls will always bleed out into the sea
in many darken dreams
shadows of a storm
dances along the shore
the sea of dreams
are always with me
railing of time
messes with my mind
wounded , lost
entwines into my thoughts
whispering wind
cry's to me again .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

DRAW NO ENVY

Draw no Envy to my own beauty
into my world of dreams
I know I have two names
when it comes to my fame
but remember
we all bleed the same ,
Draw no envy ;
When it comes to Love
Love is like  a beautiful dove
an open book to all who takes a look
let that beauty shine  deep within ,
My own fame comes in rain
when my heart feels so much pains
when the heart is broken
it is ready to be spoken
on my silk written words
in blood stain ink
of what my heart bleeds,
My fame is being written
on the pages of emotions,
When it comes from the heart
everyone can feel that spark
when love has depart into the dark,
blind affections of true reflections
when the heart bleeds out on sea
into a winters breeze
that make the heart freeze
echoes of crying
hold the sighing of long ago ,
when Love taken a stroll
The pains of fame made a home
on pages of blood stain ink
as the heart truly bleeds
ill fortunes of lonely rage
that comes along with age,
applause to the old crying moon
May and June has seen better of days
that words had warm the ears that hears
tears that falls with autumn winds
wishing Love would find it's way back again.

Poetic  Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Malicious People

When I was just a your little girl
I always had around me
was malicious people
always jealous of my beauty
thy would go around town
talking all kinds of trash
they would call me names
just to make them feel good
what a shame to casting all kinds of blames ,
When I had got older
I was much stronger
and I stood up for myself
I started remembering all their names
that had given me so much pains
but I never cast no hate their way
because they had to see their own self in the mirror
and face their own fears each and every day
their old friends just linked together
making all kinds of trouble in that old small town
but I never let them burst my bubble
no way will I let them bring me down
into their own shame of lies
I have my own life
I've seen so many things that has given me
darken dreams of pains you would never believe
rains of sorrow that has no end
my life became so gray on that cold September day
by the time December made its way
I felt I was in a grave
I had lost my faith when it comes to love
I come to that old garden of pains
and that is where my heart stayed
around me are falling leaves of memories
that withered deep within my mind
this pain moved deeper and deeper in my heart
I felt I could no longer breath
when I start to think about the loss of my loved ones
It became hard for me to move on in my life
but then I start to think about those malicious people
and I started to think
where they in pain too ?
is that why they act the way they do .

Poetic Judy Emery © 1982
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

THEY WANT TO FILM MY PAINS

Now they want to make a film
about me and the pains of yesterdays,
But if only they could feel
what it is I feel
they would all be so I'll,
My emptiness has left a Life time marks
all over my heart
Oh, the cuts are very deep
I feel most of the time I couldn't breathe
but now they want to film me
make stories about my pains
my life of a beaten down past
can they see my fears
my tears of blood rolling down my face?
My heart bleeds the pains of Yesterdays
that keeps eating away at my soul
I had to take a deep breath
and I gave them my best of what it is I hold
deep down in my mind
that keeps me locked in that time
when they ask me
if they could film me and all my pains
I just moved my head
then I said yes
That is when I see the eyes of all times
Dark Angel looking deeper into mine
I crawled into my cold empty bed
praying one day this will all end
I pulled the cold sheets over my heard
like I was already dead .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

AUTUMN SKIES

I found an over heated desert
deep in my thoughts ;
that made its way down to my heart,
But when I look deeper into my heart
I found a hunger
a howling that was crying loudly
deep within me ;
while I looked around out side
just to see the sheet of the autumn sky
I felt my own loneliness
weeping for the one I miss ,
as the teas of fall broken down in my heart
as the years moved along like an old sad song ,
across the way is a beautiful garden
where my true love lays
Oh, how my sadden heart craved
the years of yesterday's .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

MOONLIGHTS BROKEN WINGS

Moonlight revels her pains ,fears
in the storm rain flowing tears
upon angry seas
in darken dreams
that makes her scream
Oh, velvet moon
you had given bright eye
in late June ...
when winter made its way
the sky became more gray
all hearts gone numb
on a darken throne
where no love to be found
to lift a finger to help one out
in terror she spoke
while her own faith did sink
she was left with broken wings
in darken dreams .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

SEPTEMBER RAINS

When I look into your eyes
it is like I am looking in stain glass
seeing a fire burning on high
will you hold restrain from me
I can see the pains you hold
but you stand so bold
just to tell me you have love for me
that I am your queen
but I cried out how can that be
you don't even know me
and this is what he told me
I cast pain upon all who see's you
because I will never let another have you
or love you
You will always be my everything
when Dark Angel taken me down
he looked deep into my crying eyes
I will always be your only one
I am your king of darkness
the one you will always miss
I had cast my spells upon on your head
you will never forget
this cold September night
Dark Angel would tell me his stories
and tell me so many lies
just to keep me on your side
Don't you see what you are doing to me?
you are cutting me way too deep
I am starting to feel I can no longer breath
you are taking life out of me
I know nothing last forever
this is something you tell me most of the time
but when I look into your eyes
I see stain glass of blood running into the sea
I start to cry because that is my life
you handed down to me
in darken dreams
I know deep within my heart
people do change
Why don't you give it a try
then I told him over and over
I could never love a man like you
that would be so hard for me to love someone
when he isn't free to love me back
the way I need him too
your heart is so cold
I 'm starting to think that is all you know
is a life of darkness
So I hold a candle up on high
into that cold September sky
oh did it rain with no end to the pain
this old candle has your name
I tell myself don't feel a shame
because I know I am not the blame
of yesterdays pains
Oh, why September rains
keep the memories a flowing
If we only had taken some time
you could see I had never lied
but now I set out in that cold September rains
crying out so much pains
I try to rest my head upon my bed
but when I fall into a deep sleep
I will see you
what is my poor heart to do
when I still Love You?

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

ANOTHER CRYING SEPTEMBER

It was a sad cold September night
when you had taken over my life
Why do you say things that are not true?
you taken me in your arms that night
and dance away with my life
you taken me to darken places
I had never seen
you given me bad darken dreams ,
You told me its not what it looks like
things are never what they seem
oh why do you give my heart so many wounds
look at me and tell me what you see
Oh, Dark Angel you can never give me back
what you had taken from me ,
Bullets of fire hit the sky
upon on that cold September night
oh mirror let him see
I left my mark on him in deed
just like he did to me
Oh, you cut me deep
this anyone could see .
You left me out to bleed
just like that old crying sea
you Dark Angel covered me in scares
and you given me roses
that had lots of thorns
you written a note saying
I love you more than you'll ever know .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

TEARS OF JEWELS


I sung to the sea
in so many dreams
but its all the same to me,
I cried and cried day and night
while the old moon looked down on me,
while my tears had fallen deep into the sea
they looked like jewels of history
from all the pains I held deep within
lips of words that cut do deep
that made my heart bleed out into the sea
the sea became a friend just like the autumn winds,
dreams that taken me back to the past
oh, hear comes the pain bring down the rain
those memories are cutting at me
my mind could see
the eyes of he looking back at me
while my tears started to fall like autumn leaves
the sea made them all into tears of jewels of me.

Poetic Lilly  Judy Emery (c)

EVERY TEARDROP

All alone ;
wishing you was hear with me
But things had changed
and all the years are moving along
and now all I could ever do
is cry out my pains
oh the emptiness that cold my insides
while my heart just broken
into millions of pieces
while you moved on with your life,
I often wonder if you regret
what you had did to me
our did it make you feel like a King
Oh, at times I think about
when I truly thought we had it all
We had dance so many songs
we singed to are songs
you would always tell me
I was you only true love ,
But when time started moving along
your eyes started telling another story
all the roses was no longer with color
and my heart started to feel the thunder
Oh , how the storm came
I started running in rain
with all that pain ,
You would call out my name
like you really cared
you started running after me
you held me down in the rain
telling me I am your everything
I am the angel of your life
there are no other
but it was all a lie ,
Oh how this still makes me cry
If only you could had been true to me
I wouldn't be in so much pain
September will always be remember
this I will never forget
your name is on every teardrop
that has fallen from my eyes .

Poetic Judy Emery © 1988
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

MIRROR OF TIME

When I think about those days
the pain comes my way in the light of day
When I look into the mirror
I could see the pains of time
that speaks its mind to me
that makes my soul bleed like the sea
why do Life half to be so mean ?
In my life It feels I had already lived it
when I look back into the mirror
oh the tears come so near
words of long ago cutting away at my soul
bold yet so cold
darkness of another time
that play games on my mind
the distance of life hidden  away
in the mirror of time of gray
faith has been lost in the eyes of the dark
hearts have been broken
like tokens tossed into the sea
left out to bleed
while the heart sinks into darken dreams .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

NO RHYTHM IN HIS BONES


Just turn to take a look
and tell me what you see
he just moved along
like the winter breeze
Then he turn and said
I love to see you bleed
lost into darken dreams of me
I cried so ******* that winters night
he gave me so much fright
almost taken my mind
I had learned so much from him
but nothing of any good
you know he came from the hood
that is no manhood,
In his eyes all you see is the dark side
nothing nice to see that comes from
Dark Angel gives out a cough
then he takes his walk
he holds so much envy
for the light of what is right
the bullets of pride reaches the sky
he holds no rhythm in his bones ,
his life of the unknown is his home
his heart is dark and cold
holds no hope
but every September
he will always remember me.

Poetic Judy Emery © 1990
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery