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Cordelius Dec 2014
sitting in the shower
hoping that I scrub off all my ***** sins
praying that I can wash it all away
the water running down my face
wishing that I could start over
closing my eyes and imagining another life but,
I am far too young to die
when one door closes another opens
the cliches that keep us going in life
are the ones I am dependent on
His plan is often unclear but I trust in Him
to lead me down the path that is meant for me
hoping that I can make sense of it all
praying that it won't hurt for long
turn the water off
dry myself off
put on clean warm clothes
and continue on
hoping and
praying

s.r.
keep on keeping on
- Joe Dirt
Cordelius Jan 2014
I hate how you think of yourself as less than everyone else.
everyone has different strengths and weaknesses
and you have to learn to accept it for what it is. you have to work with what God gave you.

s.r.
Cordelius Jan 2014
how does one realize that they like their best friend more than a friend?
is it when she goes away for the week and it feels like you're missing a piece of yourself?
or is it when you sit in front of her house for an hour until she gets back just so you can be the first one to hug her and amidst the joy you kiss her
at first she is startled but surprisingly, she doesn't pull away. the moment was over in a flash. both perplexed by what just happened, but not opposed to it in the least.
this was it.
this was the moment I realized that I had fallen for my best friend harder than a tree in a wind storm.
our relationship after that moment flourished
Her and I became even closer than ever.
time passed
I made some mistakes that tested our future as more than just best friends, but she is the most kind and loving person I know and we always prevail.
the first time I use "we".
we did it.
we were officially a package deal
two peas in a pod
nothing could come between us
one night, staring into each other's eyes laying in bed
we knew that we were
in love.

s.r.
hi
Cordelius Dec 2014
hi
if you're reading this,
i love you.
if you ever feel like you're all alone
talk to me
if you feel like you're not loved,
guess what
I love you.
learning to love myself

talk to me please
Cordelius Jan 2014
I'm a liar
I look at you and smile
you ask me what
but my automatic response is nothing
even though there are hundreds of things racing through my mind at a mile per minute
all of which are about you

s.r.
Cordelius Jan 2014
it's been quite a long while,
but I still feel as if we have just started this beautiful relationship.
I think about how long we will be together
and hope that forever will be the answer.

s.r.
Cordelius Apr 2014
you were patient and forgiving
you believed in me when nobody did
you stayed faithful and I did too
you trusted me more than I did
you saved me from myself
I owe my life to you
I changed for you
I am in love with you

s.r.
Cordelius Mar 2014
sometimes I get sad
it's just a fact of life
nobody can be happy all the time
when I'm sad and we aren't talking
there's nothing that can make me feel better except for you
Cordelius Dec 2014
I need a fresh start
disconnect my heart from the paths already known
disassemble my life, stab a map with a knife
go wherever it shows, only myself and a bag of clothes
without a second thought im already on my yacht
crossing the big blue sea
set me free
set me free
set me free

s.r.
Cordelius Dec 2014
i hate this house


everything in it.
get me out of here
Cordelius Dec 2014
I try to write about you all the time
but
when i take out my pen it feels like
my bones are made of lead
the words all make crystal clear sense
in my head
but
when pen meets paper,
there is no way to illustrate the
l o v e, the
f r u s t r a t i o n, the
a w e, that comes from talking to you
the way we talk feels like we are so close
yet there is a thousand mile deep crevasse
keeping us apart.
three hours and twenty four minutes
three hours
and
twenty four minutes
two hundred and six miles
in between us
and
somehow I keep you within
arms reach all the time
never letting you slip through my fingers
like the sand at the beach when we met
for the very first time
I will not let you slip

slip           slip
      away      

s.r.
Cordelius Jan 2014
nobody will ever under stand
the love I have for you
it's more than rock band
it's more than a hue

it's about your personality
more than what the eye can see
they way you act around me
more cute than a little baby

your glowing persona will always be
refreshing like the breeze under a shaded tree
you are my map in the dee(p)
with out you I'm just lost at sea

i know you feel the same way
we talk about it night and day
we'll always be together, I pray
our love like an everlasting bouquet

our love like a beautiful ballet
precious to me like The Lord's day
this may sound a little cliche
but you're more beautiful than the Milky Way

your long wavy hair
the beautiful stare
I get when our noses touch
there's nothing I would rather feel than your clutch

I am a fragile flower and you are my sun
you are the reason that I grow
I need you to survive
with out you I am nothing but a ****

I could go on forever
but even that doesn't seem like enough time to complete my thoughts
I love you like my best friend, my girl friend
let's make out.

s.r.

— The End —