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Dec 2017 · 423
Fault
Pitch Hiker Dec 2017
Its not her fault
That she can't speak
When she's so nervous
Her knees just shake
Its not her fault she likes the rain
Its not her fault she likes to run away
Its not her fault that she holds her head high
Or that her head begs her to fly
Its not her fault she doesn't like to party
And not her fault that she likes to talk
Its not her fault she want to help
Or that the right words don't leave her mouth
Its not her fault she sees no future
Or that she doesn't make enough time for friends
Its not her fault she sees everyone
As universes
Or that she struggles trying to map them
Its not her fault
That she believes
Everything is her fault
Dec 2017 · 192
Its About Time
Pitch Hiker Dec 2017
Its about time
The years come to its end
Its about time I realize
My failures
Its about time I recognize
My successes
Its about time I remember
All the events this year has brought
Its about time I acknowledge
The people who shape me
And make me
Its about time
I write something....
Something meaningful
With truth and a lot of poise
Something that expresses the universe
Inside my head
All the buzzing all the
Click, click clicking's
With the long long
Beeeeeeep
Something that touches your heart
Crushes your heart holds and bears its pieces
Something that mends and heals your heart
Making it stronger than ever
A poem that make's you question your thought
One that reaches your frequency of thinking
One that never stops your wondering
Something subtle in an abrupt way
One that builds your dreams
Feeds your nightmares and ends in the perfect battle
Keeping you on your toes to see if you
Built your dreams strong enough to fight
What scares you most
This is my toast of a new year
That maybe by next year
I will write the poem
That expresses the universe of me
One that will tell you of my every
Galaxy
I just at I am made up of the people I have met
And have been influenced by
I am made up of thousands of stars and planets
Dec 2017 · 463
Trust
Pitch Hiker Dec 2017
I am learning to trust
Myself
I now see the things I’m capable of
It makes me feel in control
I take bigger risk when I know there’s
A greater gain
And it doesn’t matter if anyone agrees
I let my heart take the lead now
I get further that way
I’m exploring new things
Taking on leadership
And assuming it
I’m breathing confidence and grasping
Attention from those willing to donate
Their eyes and ears their heart and mind
Hopefully I can take the time and bloom it
Take all arrogance and boom it
Just listen to my voice I will  be loud
Just look to my eyes I will
Maintain eye contact and focus
This is important to me
Dec 2017 · 184
School Buss
Pitch Hiker Dec 2017
We are just kids on a school bus
We fill the bus with gossip
Tears, laughter
And the joy of daily conversations
With each others company for the
Hour we are stuck together
We are just kids on a school bus
On our way to greater things
Or less than
Planning to change the world
Wondering how
Or maybe not knowing if you will
Have any sort of affect
We are just kids on the school bus
Not knowing our worth
Losing our things
And accepting good deeds
For what their worth
We are just kids on a school buss
With the wheels going round and round
Nov 2017 · 196
Airports
Pitch Hiker Nov 2017
I just can't get the feel of a place
Full of hundreds of feelings
I don't get the drift of hundreds
Of different currents
I'm not able to comprehend the
Flavor of all the different taste
What a place
All the places
People come to gather
Unintentionally
Crossing paths without the Acknowledgment
Air ports are truly a manmade wonder
Nov 2017 · 196
Like Winter
Pitch Hiker Nov 2017
Im going on a walk.
Im sorry but I really don't want to talk.
If you don't let me go, Im going to miss it.
Your words don't really fit.
To much! your saying to much!
Let go! please don't touch!
Im not mad,
But I feel real bad
Just let me go on the walk.
I cant talk,
I cant know whats wrong if you don't let me look,
I will tell you whats wrong when Im done with the book.
Let me decipher my feelings
Before I cry with no reasons.
My heart is fading like the changing of the seasons,
Growing cold.
Im becoming winter.
Feel my veins harden and become the branches
Of a frozen tree...
Brittle...
Feel my hands stiffen and die.
Like the baby birds who couldn't stand the cold
Feel my eyes dim just as the ice on a pond will frost over.
And I will be frozen, lost with my lonely wilderness
Nov 2017 · 185
No conclusion
Pitch Hiker Nov 2017
Shh.
Let me listen to the silence,
Give my brain some space.
I can't hear what I feel
So I don't know what my
Heart is telling me.
Let me walk through the rain,
To help wash away the debri inside of me,
So I can think.
Let each drop
Distract each thought
Till everything I have thought up
Has been washed down.
Give me no reason but one to be happy,
I don't understand the negativity
You hand out like lollipops
And inject like a heroic vaccine  
Into the arms of those infected
With joy, peace, and laughter.
Bad blood donated to make a nation of bland,
Where every one is an emotional-*******...
Shh! Do you hear that?
It's my heart,
Speaking through the silence
Saying, there has been no conclusion
To my feelings
So mind whats left of your manners
And let me finish my story.
Nov 2017 · 196
I Will Remember
Pitch Hiker Nov 2017
The feel of each indented letter
And coffee bean
Vertically down the mug
Is a feel I will always remember
The darkness I would open the upstairs door to
Unless I took the downstairs door
Which was illuminated by the laundry light
Is a dark and a light I will always remember
The way I flipped on the far light switch
Instead of the one nearest to me
Instinctively
Is a way I will always remember
The sun setting walk down my street
To my house
Is a walk I will always remember
I always wanted to run
But my feet kept a walking pace
The pain from falling from a tree
I always climb
Is an pain unforgiving but in all understanding
These things have to happen
Oct 2017 · 204
Understanding My Feelings
Pitch Hiker Oct 2017
I don't understand my feelings
That should scare you
That statement is your only warning
That I could explode at any moment
When I do I won't know whats going on
I will not be that same girl you know
I will not mean what I do
I usually say what I mean in ways I don't mean
I will be out of control in a controlled
Whirlwind
Or
I will disappear
I may not be heard from for awhile
Solitude will be my antidote
Silence my remedy
Don't take me from this time to myself
You will be corrupting data
And I will have to start from scratch
With new materials to help me
Understand my feelings
Oct 2017 · 166
Experience
Pitch Hiker Oct 2017
I will bite my tongue
Rather than explaining
Your flaws
Because you would continue
To look through me
And ignore my attempts to better the team
I will take a bullet to the heart
Before ever mentioning your ignorance
Or revealing your arrogance
You have shown me my goal was pointless
You have taught me that to meet your standards
I was never going to be good enough
Well I have had the opportunity to be coached
By real coaches
And taught to play real soccer
Im sorry to say you have taught me Childs play
And forgery of the most cultural sport in the world
You disgrace the term soccer coach
Im quite disappointed in you all
But despite my pure dislike of you
I will sign your thank you cards
With a thank you for the lesson and
Experience
Oct 2017 · 196
Broken Mixing Pot
Pitch Hiker Oct 2017
What I thought before was wrong
I am not who I thought I was
I am not the description written on my toy box
Nor am I made up of the ingredients on my label
I am not just some appetizer set on the dinner table
I am able
To discover the truth
That has been diluted by all the lies
By all the bad guys wearing superman suits
And batman capes
People with big money
And big plans
But also
With enormous ego, greed, and whats it called
Private agendas
I may be an environmentalist
But the earth needs it
Our type of green
Has spilt the red that circulated men
It has erased species from our books
But not our history
We always have to have an enemy
But while we are picking our fights with all the wrong people
And nations
We have yet to realize
The only war we really need to be involved in
Is with ourselves
And we do not have to right to fix other nations
Until we have fixed our broken mixing ***
Oct 2017 · 158
Written In Blood #542
Pitch Hiker Oct 2017
The blood stained story
Is written in ones lonely tears
It speaks of all her engrossed fears
Over her lost years
That fell to her sorrow
She was scared of people
Not strangers or men with guns
But people as their everyday self
The people that hide behind elephant hide
That use me like a guide
They have lied
As if a lie were written in black and white
As if truth were so bright
Then maybe she might
Find a new way to take flight
And soar upon the night
As if she were that light
She is weighed down by good intentions
Train stations filled with the drought of love
And way
So many have lost their way
Just as she has
A sad blood written story
But stabbed with truth
It seems more satisfying
Than terrifying
She doesn't know what she is saying
In this sick game we've been playing
Oct 2017 · 123
Think You Can Break Me #501
Pitch Hiker Oct 2017
I invite you
To hate me
Hate my hair
Hate my face
Hate my body
And my place
Hate my personality
Hate my passion
Hate my reality
Hate my choices
And my voices
Hate my way of thinking
And the way I talk
Hate my solitary
And my ability
Hate my education
Hate my imagination
Light my world on fire
Theres not much to burn
I fire proofed it all
I knew you were coming
So talk behind my back
Spread the hate like frosting on your sour cake
Im not the one eating it
I try to be kind and I try to lend a smile to anyone
Who could use it
But you took mine and snapped it over your knee
Or I could say you tried
Instead your left with an amputated leg
Done in your own sense of ration
You tried to break me
And your efforts
Costed you a limb
So have a nice day
I hope things start to go your way
Oct 2017 · 158
Failed Attempt #505
Pitch Hiker Oct 2017
I would love to show the world
All my thoughts
Hopes and dreams
I would love to show people the world
But everything becomes invisible
And my voice silent
As I get criticized
And written over as a failed attempt
Not even being remembered by history
But the people I want to reach out to most
Are the ones with the most cement in their heads
And have the wrong kind of ears
I thought maybe in a couple years
But I have waited to long
To even care
Oct 2017 · 117
Like Your Still Here
Pitch Hiker Oct 2017
I have noticed the sky's a little bluer
The clouds don't conceal it the way they used to
The sun shines brighter and the cardinals sing louder
I know its you I never understood the point in letting people know
How special they were to me
And everyone around until I met a man
Who showed me more meaning behind a frown
At first meeting I met his tears
And he met mine you could see his spirit in his
Beautifully blue story telling eyes
They reminded me of soft waters
He and I feel we felt alone
People we loved left maybe not on purpose
They just left but its ok
And from then on we were friends
He held my hand in moments of pain
I wish I held on tighter I wish he held on longer
For I now have learned that we don't live for ever
But he does he is not seen
But does not go unheard you can feel him
If you wait he is strong
I know he held on as long as he could
He fought his battle till the end
I would like to think he won
I don't know who he was I know who he is though
I wish I could have shared more of the future
But he is on a journey
To be with his wife
In a place where they pain isn't felt
Where they stand hand and hand with us
And all their friends and family
I could tell you how terrible it is
That he is now gone
But thats not the case I try to remember
That I have been touched
By the heart of Woody
Thanks to him I have discovered my strength and courage
Pitch Hiker Oct 2017
Dear Cancer,
I would like to start
By telling you,
That you are evil.
I hope your full of self hate,
Because you are ugly.
You are ruthless and mean.
The perfect killing machine.
You took my best friend
And tried to take my mother
Your eating away another
And I am mad.
I am tired of crying every night
Or getting mad at others because I am constantly
Reminded of what you have done
You have taken many people
And species
I don't want you to take any more.
Im guessing you've never had a friend
Because you have only ever forced your way into having a relationship.
No one ever asked for your presence
Not even your existence
So I am telling you now
Stop living as a monster under the skin
And show your self clearly.
Stop infecting hearts!
And lungs! And breast! And tongues!
Bones!  And brains!
Stop playing these games!
Because tho I have never had you myself
I feel your pry I ask myself why
Do you **** and leave others to die
Why do we deserve you?
We may be beast but you are a monster
And continue to do them
But you honestly teach us nothing.
Oct 2017 · 119
Think Happy Thoughts
Pitch Hiker Oct 2017
Mentally I don't know where to start
Something feels wrong
But I don't know what
Then it shouldn't bother me
If I don't know
Something just feels so wrong
My chest is tight
My heart strains for some reason
It's breaking
I'm thinking happy thoughts but my
Stomach it keeps on turning
Thinking happy thoughts
But my head is pounding
Think happy thoughts
I've never felt so sad
Think happy thoughts
Think happy thoughts
All I can think about is that statement
No really happy thoughts cross my mind
Think happy thoughts
At least I'm distracted
Think happy thoughts!
******
Think happy
Think happy
Just be happy!
Oct 2017 · 198
Read My Thoughts
Pitch Hiker Oct 2017
Hey mom
Thanks for staying up with me last night
I know you were tired
But I don't see you often anymore
Sorry I spend so much time a dads
I just get to see my friends
More often over there
Your never home it seems to me
Neither is dad
So I have to make due
I'm sorry I can be frustrating
Stubborn to the point that you
Look disappointed
I try not to disappoint
Hey dad
I'm sorry you think I'm ungrateful
You couldn't imagine how grateful I am
You got it all wrong
Don't assume so just because I haven't
Said so
I have something planed in my
Head for you
A special thank and I love you
But you don't give me time
You jump to conclusions than lead to
Disillusions of who your daughter
Might be
You don't know me and I recommend
Not trying to understand
I'm a millennial but I don't
Follow their pattern
I just share the same characteristics
I'm sorry you think I'm selfish
I can't imagine ever being that way
I'll remember how selfish I am
Next time I'm late to class
Because someone couldn't open
Their locker and was having a bad day
Next time I help someone carry
Something heavy because they were
Struggling
Next time I help someone who fell
And dropped all of their stuff
Next time I try to talk someone of
Committing suicide
I'll remember how selfish I am
I'm sorry you don't see all these things
I go through
I'm sorry they make me selfish
But let me tell you how much
I think of you and how alone you are
All the way up here
Im even more sorry you can't read my
Thoughts
Oct 2017 · 255
Orderly
Pitch Hiker Oct 2017
Order is too much for me
I prefer to live unorderly
I don't like to be predictable
But inevitably I'm predicted
Living constricted leaves you
So limited and I can't handle limits
They say I need an organized
Person to straighten me out
Some say I need to be put in my place
People call me a mess
But I think I'm a test
A test run in process just let that process
Don't assume work it out
I work so hard to understand because
Mentally I'm slow
I'll forget you if I don't
Make an effort to know
Just let it go
Let it go is what they say
But first let me look at it
In every other way
Before it slips my mind
Let me study it
Let me inspect it
Because I will forget it
If I don't interrogate it
I want to remember you
I want to understand you
I want to know you and what you
Yourself stand for
Because your disorderly
In a way like me
Just smarter
You think logically
I try to rationalize who you might be
Because no matter how I deny it
In a way I'll admit
I like you
Oct 2017 · 154
2:30 In The Morning
Pitch Hiker Oct 2017
She loves the world at 2:30 in
The morning
One thing people have yet to ruin
For her
Wandering streets she cannot recognize
Without the decoding powers from daylight
Sometimes she walks
Sometimes she runs
Sometimes she bikes
Other times she does her dance
Because it is dark
And eyes can not locate her
Never resting figure
And judge her inability to dance
At 2:30 in the morning she's high in a tree
Nearly asleep watching the stars
Begging for a star to follow her stare
And fall
Finally watching the sun rise around 4
Through 5
But 2:30 is when the world holds her hand
And tells her she is not alone
Oct 2017 · 300
Abandoned
Pitch Hiker Oct 2017
I feel like I'm in solitary confinement
Always alone in my head
The people around me become the walls
That contain me
I'm angry
I'm sad
So disappointed
The people I believe in
Aren't ever who I think they are
And I'm out of trust
I'm low on exceptance
And don't care if I'm broken down
In the middle of no where
Because it would only be the physical
Version of my life inside my head
But people are just people
And that just kills me
People aren't who they seem to be
My world revolves around that
Honesty, loyalty, truthfulness
All qualities everyone seems to have
Abandoned but I'm still looking
Oct 2017 · 122
His Power Over Me
Pitch Hiker Oct 2017
I think it's because I love him
That I hate him so much
He makes me hate myself
Like I've never hated before
I continue to believe he's going to get better
But he won't
I don't know what's going on in his head
I wonder if he does love me
I hate to think that I do him
He knows how to get to me
So he uses it
That kills me
He the puppet master
I his puppet
Strings cut and retied
Arms ripped off then sewed back on wrong
My eyes popped from my head
My heart torn from my chest hanging hopelessly
He does love something
His power in our family
His power over me
Sep 2017 · 148
Did I Write?
Pitch Hiker Sep 2017
You were wondering if I wrote a poem
In which I did
But I'll choose to hide
Until you least expect it
I've written a few
But I will keep them kept from you
Until I know they apply
When you read them you will know why
You being 1000 miles away
Means I can speak my mind
And not suffer consequence
Still I fear of judgement
You yourself a writer
You yourself a poet
Who has his struggles
Who meets dead ends
Knows of the journey made by words
So let that be the journey
And see where it goes
Sep 2017 · 181
I'll be the Disaster
Pitch Hiker Sep 2017
Language fails me when it comes to
Disaster
So I can not discuss the disaster known
As myself
But I know you understand in someway
Or another
And I will never take that for granted
Thank you
Your messages mean the world to me
I hope you know
You have calmed me from so many  
Heights
That I would have rather jumped from
The gift
Of sleep you have given me on most of
My restless nights
Thank you for talking to me each night
Thank you
For taking time from your day to garentee
I'm ok
But just as you are the shoulder to my
Tears
I wish to be the shoulder and light to
Your fears
Whatever monsters whisper in your ear
Will disappear
The shadows that hover over you in your
Sleep
Will meet an unkindly fate
I will be
The disaster to strike down your worst Demons
But for now all I can do it try.
Sep 2017 · 123
Stay Awake
Pitch Hiker Sep 2017
My eyes remain heavy
Just like my heart
My head is learning the drums
Just like 10 year old would
Frequently and violently
Days that go so good
That I can't bare to leave them behind
As they beg me to stay frozen
In that frame of time
My hands once strong
Now shake with weakness
All the way to my  finger tips
My body says it's time to rest
I must keep thinking
I must cover every topic I do and don't
See and or list in a day
I must stay awake
Sep 2017 · 147
Little Lady Bug
Pitch Hiker Sep 2017
Hi little lady bug
Sitting on my shoulder
Your presence brings me joy
And luck follows your stride
I hope your enjoying the ride
Little lady bug
Sitting on my shoulder
What is life worth to you?
How do you live out your moments?
Do you laugh?
Do you know how to cry
When nothing is alright?
Little lady bug
Do you know your songs
Little lady bug do you know what you symbolize?
Little lady bug
Sitting on the babies shoulder
Do you know the land your standing on
Do you know why the sun rises and sets?
Do you know why it rains
And why it pours
Do you know why the seasons change?
And how we are involved?
How have you evolved?
How will you change?
To continue living hour little lady bug life
Sep 2017 · 177
Hey Brain
Pitch Hiker Sep 2017
Hey brain
Can you tell my heart
That I'm so proud of it
Can you tell it thank you
That I'm amazed by everything it can do
I'm alive because of what it can do
Thank it for beating always
Thank it for pumping blood through my body constantly
Thank you for the love you fill yourself with
When I feel cold and hate scratching at my skin
Hey can you tell it to take it easy
That it doesn't need to race every time
My nerves go up
Let it know that it doesn't need to love
So much
That it's ok to love a lot but not too much
Save some for itself
Let it know I'm thankful it hasn't given up
On me yet
Thank you for the ability to recognize
My heart
Sep 2017 · 132
Real Coach
Pitch Hiker Sep 2017
I've got big ideas
I've got elaborate plans
I've got determination
For an entire team
I've got things to work on
I've got skills to improve
I've got passion that ignited years ago
Has never gone out and burns brighter
Everyday
I've got game smarts
I've got strategy
I've got fire
Maximum desire
And you take your hose
And contain all that I have
You deprive the team
Of the development they could have
You deprive me of leadership
You deprive yourself of a chance
To become soccer smart
Your not real soccer coaches
There's a difference between
Soccer coaches and school soccer coaches
Soccer coaches know the sport
They live and breath the sport
It's just your second job
All you care about is the win
Your selfish and unkind
I hope you learn what it's like to
Be a real coach one day
But your chances are slim
And it's very unlikely
Sep 2017 · 127
Not Who You See
Pitch Hiker Sep 2017
I am not who you see
Or you would describe me
As passionate
Or limit breaking
I am not who you see
Apparently
Im undeserving
Or embarrassing
So why am I on your team
I am not who you see
Or you would notice my drive
I am not who you see
Or you would feel the intensity
I carry with me like a backpack
But when I put on my red jacket
You will be seeing me
When I put on my red jacket
You will awe at my passion
You will watch me break limits
Over and over again till the limits are
Unbreakable
When I put on my red jacket
You will see Im more than deserving
That by underestimating me you are only
Embarrassing yourself
Want to know why Im playing for your team
Because I love what I do
I love it to the point where I let arrogance speak at me
And scuffle past me
When I put on my red jacket
You will notice my drive for the game
You will feel my intensity to its full capacity
Because that red jacket is a symbol
Of what I can accomplish
Its a symbol that someone sees my ability as
Progressive
That jacket will tell you that I have learned a lot
It will show you that I belong to a greater team
Who you could never compare to
Sorry that thats not who you see
Aug 2017 · 141
Journal Entry 1
Pitch Hiker Aug 2017
Jeez I'm a sad story
Not really
But maybe
One of many
Maybe similar to others
But you haven't seen
A story like mine
(End of journal entry)
Aug 2017 · 175
Sun In The Circles
Pitch Hiker Aug 2017
Like a machine I draw circles
On my ceiling
Pretending each one is a sun
Suns of different ages and sizes
Suns that help to show me the light
They are my way of letting the light in
Because all there is behind my
Curtains is a walk
A blank empty
Teasing wall
That speaks of my desires
To break out from the dark
The dark best described
By trying to climb up a steep
Mountain of loose sand
Every step you fall further
Down till you've hit the quick sand
That drown the hopeful hikers
Drowning out their sound full dreams
And kills their fighting chance
Have you ever looked for the sun
In drawn circles on your ceiling?
Aug 2017 · 126
You Don't Live In My Memory
Pitch Hiker Aug 2017
Sorry
I don't remember you
Faces leave my memory
Just as they leave my sight
Sorry
I don't think I know you
I probably did but the past only
Counts as that
If I knew you I don't know you
Sorry
I don't archive conversation well
So I didn't know we already covered
Those topics
Hey I'm gonna go
I don't know you
Or what your talking about
And I won't remember this
So bye stranger in the past
Sorry that that's all you will be
Aug 2017 · 574
Putty Made From Heart
Pitch Hiker Aug 2017
I am no longer the fixer of problems
Just as I used to be
Im no longer searching for lost souls to bring
Into the found
No longer am I looking for broken
People to love back to whole hearts
I don't have enough of my heart left for that
Like masking tape
I used my heart as a bandage for other broken
Hearts that needed the repair more than I
Because I can handle living a broken life
But no longer can I hold peoples hearts together
With the glue I have made
From mashing my heart to putty
I don't have enough of me to keep freely giving away
To the wrong people
Ive made my cuts
And built my limits
I thought my supply was endless
Turns out Ive been running on empty
Aug 2017 · 280
Grey Eyes
Pitch Hiker Aug 2017
Today my eyes faded grey
They kept looking for a glimpse
Of dream
I had to remind them that
Dreams they have left
They will not return for a while
My eyes only got lighter
Till I had to close them
For I could see nothing
They blinded themselves
If they could not see
Some semblance of future
For me
They wanted no part in my present
So they went grey
My blue eyes
Fogged
Like the blue sky on a cloudy day
How do you know
That the sky is still blue
Aug 2017 · 204
Verrill
Pitch Hiker Aug 2017
Hey
You look good
Your glasses make you look like some kid
Trying to be a nerd
I've never met before
It wasn't until you smiled at me
That I knew it was you
I couldn't believe it was you
I mean you write me all the time
And we can text now
But to see you
I didn't think I would
They weren't  going to let us in
We drove for 6 hours to see you
Only to be told it wasn't possible
A fence between us
I realized how important it was to see you
Only after they told me I couldn't
That's when I realized how much
I love and still need you
When I was told seeing you was not
An option
A hug never felt so good in such a sad
Place
Aug 2017 · 151
Sleeping Sharp Edges
Pitch Hiker Aug 2017
Sitting in my room
It's kinda hard not to notice the words
On the walls
Surrounding your every glance
Singing around your head
Though they are there
I cant bring myself to read many of them
I started the journalism of the things
Inside of me that stabbed through my
Skin tearing apart my body
Just to get out
I know how I felt
In those times when I never thought
That they would fully leave me
That I'd be stuck with these
Sharp ridged edges inside me
For as long as eternity
I just can't look back at them
Like opening the door to the darkness
That  awaits just outside
Except that my violent shadows
Aren't on the outside trying to get in
They exist on the inside
Nesting and occasionally festering
I dare not wake them
So I turn off my light
So I risk not accidentally reading
Covering my window so sunlight
Won't betray me
I sit in dark silence
Singing my sharp edges to rest
I cannot welcome them
To breakfast in bed
I will not let myself feel that way
Ever again
Jul 2017 · 659
Simplicity
Pitch Hiker Jul 2017
Simplicity
Sounds so easy
Every sun set falls through me
As if I'm the night
I can't be touched
Simplicity
So out of the ordinary
Something most people aren't used to
Simplicity
Acting like a puzzle
Suddenly becoming complex
Simplicity
Sounds so easy
When the rest of the world agrees
Simplicity so simple
Until it meets
Complexity
Jul 2017 · 109
Maintain My Crazy
Pitch Hiker Jul 2017
Could you ever read the signs
Do you know how to read my eyes
Not left to right

Invalid answer

Do you know how to read my lips
Without me mouthing out pain
Did you ever feel the paranoia I exhaled

If I gave you a magnifying glass
Could you understand the gibberish
Covering my body
Or care enough to tell me
That there's gibberish covering my body
Would you be respectful enough to
Leave me
I don't need an explanation
I need no excuses
If you can't understand me
If you can't ask what you wonder
Then leave me to myself
Because I am learning as I go
I need no distractions
You may call it mean
And too solitary
But that's me
That's how I maintain my crazy
Jul 2017 · 119
Regretting
Pitch Hiker Jul 2017
Today...
Today
I dream with a thoughtful smile
Was so great
These people did so much for me
These people were so amazing
I should have really thanked them
Walking into my apartment
My smile turns to a regretful mesh
Teeth bearing down
Today was the last day I will see
Those people
I won't see my teammates for
Another week
I didn't thank them right
They accepted me
I turned away when I had
Something to say
Hundreds of words stabbed my brain
All at once
Embarrassed reads my face
Thanks you says my eyes
Starting the shower I just sit and let
The cold water drown my regret
Let it blend my tears
Hugging my knees I find no
Comfort in knowing all my regrets
Jul 2017 · 170
Fishing For My Monsters
Pitch Hiker Jul 2017
Remember
When I was so sad
I couldn't be alone
It was late
And you had to leave
My part of our home
You live up stairs
2 floors
But you said you would
Stay
On the fifth floor in the stair way
We sat
You casted your fishing line
Down my throat trying to catch the
Hungry monsters eating at my heart
One by one they bit
Some took longer than others
Some stayed and camouflaged
So you wouldn't know they were
Still there
A pile of flippery mess
Slips down your throat
Your hook ******
You got sad secrets out of me
Just to indanger your own heart
My monsters are scared of you
Every time I think your name they
Are willing to stop eating at my heart
Ending up on the third floor
Laying on the floor my head on your chest
You told me it was okay
I felt it I felt the words you were saying
The instant you said them
And our monsters fled us
Your the peace I've needed
In a chaotic way
Jul 2017 · 160
Feel
Pitch Hiker Jul 2017
The rain it's falling like all my hopeless
Attempts  to be happy
Each drop is a dissembled dream
By the time it splashes n the ground
I've been trying to take in as many as I can
Thinking that catching them
On my tongue
Will save the ones I can catch
Though my attempts are true
Third journeys are still felt leaving me
Each drop rolling down my face
Crashing on to my skin
Like cold glass
So many so fast their gone
None last
They remind me that it's good to feel
That negligence comes from ignorance
And that there's no way to be happy
If I let my sense of feel go
Jul 2017 · 145
The Team We Once Were
Pitch Hiker Jul 2017
Scrolling has never been
Something I do
Blanking out is also new
I've always been aware
Always making good use of my time
Now I've lost myself
Losing my sense of wonder
Has left my hands holding on
To nothing but sand
Every grain pouring through my fingures
My goals are just figures
In the distance that's accelerates
Away from me and my main stream
Dream
My determination
Passion will and I were once
A dream team
Covered the most ground in the least
Amount of time
We left our opponents in the dust
But at the end of every game
No matter what went down
Shook hands with them
Our pride left on the field
Our palms connect as a thank you
For the challenge
That was a great thing to be
But my members left me
One by one till it was just me
And passion
Jul 2017 · 207
Where Did You Have To Be
Pitch Hiker Jul 2017
I remember you
I remember when we would sneak
Out my window in the middle of the night
Just to walk
So we could talk
Laying in the hay field free of worry
Under the stars telling of our sad story
But now your  gone
I still remember you on my bedroom floor
But you never said goodbye
So why do I still think of you
The kind of person I would see in the hall
And hug before answering a call
I guess you've moved on
Changed for the "better" if you will
I wish you just told me
You had other places to be
Jul 2017 · 148
On Top Of It
Pitch Hiker Jul 2017
Though we have never stood
On the highest point on earth
I feel like we've climbed to the top
And back down again
More times than I can count
We find these places
That we want to keep to ourselves
But have the need to share the experience
I never needed company till now
Emptiness burrows through my
Flesh and bones
In and out of my veins
Till I bleed out in hundreds of
Different places
Loniness catches my gazes
And fills my eyes with sights
That burn through to my mind
Leaving an imprint that takes up my Memory card
But I still remember
Smiling faces in slow motion laughing
Never remembering why
We are laughing in the first place
But it's ok as long as I remember your
Face it's ok
You will be missed
Jul 2017 · 371
Good Days
Pitch Hiker Jul 2017
Days like this are good days
No reason to be bad days
Just slow days
But in good ways
I have different feelings on good days
Not in bad ways
But just good enough for good ways
Not always
But most days
I like having a lot to do most days
I hate having nothing somedays
I miss being busy all days
I like having somewhere to be always
Since loneliness finds its ways
And likes to find weak days
Jul 2017 · 194
Your Shores
Pitch Hiker Jul 2017
I keep looking at the words
On my walls
But I can't read them
Not in the sentences they are formed
I can't come to terms with my history
I keep thinking about
What they all meant at one time
My journal from the ceiling
To the floor from the window to door
Wall to wall
Why did I write this all
Names of people I hope to never forget
Lyrics from songs I felt could tell you
Who I am
Poems and things
Well they can't tell you who you are
That can't be described
Because who you are changes
Like a shore line after every high tide
Some people will like your shore
No matter what your low tide
Reveals
Some times it takes more time to
Find person who
Excepts the outcome of your storms
Because they will be able to collect the
Pretty things
Like your shells, sea glass, and rocks
And will hold on to them and show you
All the beautifull things you uncover
Just wait you will know when they come
When the do
They'll see your earth as an adventure
The X on the map that lead them to
You and alternate map they get to explore
Jul 2017 · 408
Defender Boy
Pitch Hiker Jul 2017
I noticed you first
When I stepped on the court
You broke your toe but
Thought you could try
That was the first time I met you
You with the kind eyes
Never looked long or close enough
To feel the color
I forgot to learn your name
I hoped you'd be at the practice in two days
I didn't play to see boys
I played to get better, stronger, smarter
I didn't see you for awhile
Stopped thinking about your gripping
Smile
Till outdoor practice started and you came
More often
You were a defender
Who stood up and played keeper
Defender boy
You would be a keeper
If I had the nerve and you the interest
You called me by my name
Respect made the game
On the field it was ok when I heard you yell
Half time in Mass
You told me fire
An inspiration I didn't play out
But confidence is what you gave me
That was everything
You got used to me
So did some of the other boys
You talking to me
Made practice so much easier
Thank you
Hope to see you next year
Defender boy
Jul 2017 · 238
KM Up Stairs
Pitch Hiker Jul 2017
He broke my ukulele string
I said oh what a silly thing
He is a silly thing
I don't love him
But I love him
We are practically the same spirit
Only we chose different covers
He left to Chicago for the summer
He's like my own brother
In my head I say how dare he
But in my eyes I said he needs it
Im not use to good company
So he means everything to me
Not like in a lovey dovey way
In a sister needs her brother kinda way
Sitting alone was more than just sitting
Alone when he was right up stairs
He understood me
And I understood him
Will he be the same?
I really hope so
Jul 2017 · 161
Hand Held Heart
Pitch Hiker Jul 2017
There's pieces of me
Lost just about everywhere
I go
And in everyone
I meet
They might not know it
But I'm there
My room is full of broken glass
From all the times I brought home
Broken hearts that were poured into
My hands like lava
Burning through
But they were only decoys
People only wanted attention
They kept their feelings aside
And now this is where I reside
Because  amongst all these
Broken heart pieces
Lay mine
My decoy hearts all used up
All emotion forced into my single
Real heart
Which imploded
Since the things I felt weren't
Visible enough to make an explosion
They were growing
But just like the stars
They couldn't handle the mass
And  collapsed
And that was that
The end of my hand held heart
Jul 2017 · 168
Encouraged My Fears
Pitch Hiker Jul 2017
Do I really rest in his heart
he speaks the words that I do
But does he just want something out of me
Can I not please him without being physical
Or is that to little
Is he like every other guy
Or is he different
I cry to the stars that he wants me for my heart
But I have learned that not much comes from hope
He doesn’t believe in it either
Or at least thats what he told me
I see love in his eyes
And I feel the pain in mine
Falling down my face
He knows Im scared
And wants to do what ever he can
To rid me of that fear.
But nothing works
His methods make my fears worse
His hands make me feel secure
Until he becomes inpatient
And I cry and he leaves
He wanted to "fix" me
But I think Im to far broken
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