Title          : Phyll-O-Phobia
Poet          : Phyll Spoken Arts
Genre       : Life/Love/Hurt/Fear
P/SwNO. : 301
Year          : 2018

( Content;- after getting hurt once and then the same hurt happens to you again,but with another person whom we thought would never break our heart again,we often tend to take caution and acquire this fear of getting too attached to anyone.)


PHYLL-O-PHOBIA - By Phyll


I would really love...
Love to take the risk,
Of the thing that crushed me.
Not once nor twice;
But uncountable time.

But I fear...

I fear,
That one day,
You won't be there anymore.
Neither will your comfort be there,
Probably you will have gone o...
Off to do something;
Valuable with your life.

Or

That you got sick and tired,
Of the sickly and "real" US.

I fear,
That I won't be ab...
Able to handle the Phyllin...
Feeling of letting you go.

Watching you walk out,
After the journey;
Of having to know you.  

BTW Phyyyylllll...

What will happen;
To the memories that shared?

I fear,  
That one day,  
You might forget me.

I fear,
That I might be made to do the wo...
The worst i have ever done;
Which is to get over you Phyll!

Imagine me,
Leaving without knowing;
That memories fade in time.
Then we start to fade,
And the US we were,
Now starts to pass.

I fear,
That I might love yo...
Love you too much Phyll!

That I'll not want to let you go,
Even when the time for US to part ways comes,
That particular time;
For you to let me go.

You'll release me;
Off in the air like a balloon,
Which you'll never need back.

That's why;
I fear,
Getting so attached.
Not only with you Phyll,
But anyone who dares mention the name Love into my ears.

Though i know,
That the feeling is mutual.
Dare you not remind me,
Cause...


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Title         : ENJOY YOUR LI(-F)E
Poet         : Phyll
Genre      : Life/Love/deception
Year         : 2018
P/SwNo. : 302

( Content;- everyone wantsto be happy with another person who will be a soulmate,but we often fall for the wrong people before we finally meet our real mates. And that's how we learn to appreciate and care for what's genuine to us.)


ENJOY YOUR LI(-F)E - By Phyll

I'm sitting here,
And you're all that's on my mind.
why...
Can't you just be gone already?
I'm sick and tired,
Of your presence.
Why do you always creep over me? Even while i sleep

Why...
Can't i get you out of my head?
I tend to think about other g...
Other goals and things,
But i always seem to get back;
To you.

Why do you have to still love me?

Couldn't you just let me go?
Especially now,
That i am just your friend.
With all the lies you've fed my ears,
That's the least i want to be now;
Your friend!

So,
Just get over me already.
It's strange,
How i see the real person now.
And for a fact,
I don't long to see you...
Half as much now.

This has been hard for me,
To see and accept.
But i think i am alright,
And if I'm not now I'll be later.

All i wish for now is;
Just leave me alone.
Go away live your life
and...
Enjoy your li(-f)e

I don't need you anymore!
My heart has just realized,
What my mind knew all along;
I don't need you.

So,

Enjoy your li(-f)e


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*(C)2018.

Name     : Dating Today
Poet        : Phyll
Genre     : Love/sacrificing
                    /communication/
                    understanding
                    Compromising
Year         : 2018
P/SwNo. : 305

( Content;- so lately everyone hase been complain about their partner doing AbCd and it's like we are almost giving up on them but have you ever reconsidered looking back to where you official originated from? Haha...  Enjoy)

DATING TODAY
As authored By Phyll

Dating Today,
Its all about who cares most but shows it less,
Its all about confusing each others minds;
Using simple media such as what'sapp,
facebook and telegram,
Its all about feeling pain because the other party didnt reply to my text quick,
Didn't send a friend request
Or
Didn't  like a simple pic i uploaded,
Its all about really wanting to speak to someone but delaying a reply for more days so as u wouldnt be seen as the easy one...

Haha

Oh my!

Dating today,
It's all about;
'I am afraid to send the first text because this will make me seem weak,'
Its all about;
'Yeah i'll hang out with you,

But!

I cant let go of my phone.'

It's all about;
'I can't date a person who tags me in all their pics',
Just because they want to make you a part of their life,
Its all about really liking someone, But
Not making the first move!
Jus because that makes u uncool.

Yes

You may...

Call me old fashion,
But I like the early dating,
The ones our folks used to have,
The ones in which papers flew,
Cause phones didnt exist in convos,
And if at all they existed,
They were put aside.

Because...

There was nothing more important in a relationship,
Than communication!

After all phones were only for the rich or rather phones were treasures of those days if i may put it so.

The kind of relationship which lasted,
For more than 100 years.
Made jaws drop!

Haha...

Imagine

From:

'I love you'

To:

'I have you'

Still wondering as to how a relationship can last that long!

If i was asked today;

Phyll,
Which couple do you like most?

I would look back,
And say;
My grandparent's relationship at the most!

I know you're about to ask me;

But Phyll,
Why them?


I'll answer even before you ask.

This is because;
At the rate they were when i first met them as a grown up,
That is to say;

They are defeating the world of dating today!

Challenge;
How many times do you think your grandparents did quarrel before having their first born?
Yet they defeated that an still made a lee way for you to exist in this universe...

My friend

We are all UPGRADED SPERMS!

Sue me if you want
So long as i feed you the truth,
And
NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH

So

When you fight,
Just see that as a flight.
Hold on tight,
Then let the future be bright.
For that's your Right!

Title          : SHE'S BEAUTY
                        TO MY EYES
Poet          : Phyll
Genre       : Love/hurt/decision
P/Sw no. : 293
Year          : 2018


SHE'S BEAUTY TO MY EYES
      As Authored By Phyll


Babe,
I searched for meaning of love in your teary eyes,
I looked for peace in your laughter,
Dug for pleasure in your centre,
Your words burned flames of passion in my innocent soul,

As your tender nails did my back,
But they didn't reach deep enough,
I didn't know what i exactly needed from you.
But with you,
And besides you,
I Phyll felt closer to getting it.

After a long loving season,
Things began to change,
From lasting to Lusting.
I never cared cause all i saw was you babe.

Now I've lost all touch,
My a million calls unrecieved,
Plans unfulfiled,
Messages unreplied to,
Blue ticks decorating my app...
Really babe!
Do you really have to be this way?

I Phyll i feel incomplete,
With my eyes wet,
Tears threatening to spill,
I Phyll for ages had longed for US,
But not i feel It's a pass.

Once my heart which was full,
Now it's considered wreaked.
Just cause you left without saying goodbye.

For once lady,
Please allow me...
Allow me to question you and your crocodile tears.
Do you think of me as devil who lacks mercy?
Do you see me so cruel and unforgiving?
Do you think I'd run you over for what you did to my heart?

If only you knew...
The love!
How much i loved you,
You'd be right here with me.
If only you knew...
The power!
Tge power i did put wgen i found you torn apart with a heart crushed into powder you'd do me right.
If only you knew...
The strength!
The amount of streng i did invest in US even when everyone else was against US succeeding and having a brighter future ahead with two lovely kids you'd appreciate my efforts.

If only you knew the impact...
That you have over me!
I'd run to you even if you betrayed me a million times.
I'd melt in your arms even without an apology coming from you.

Not for your beauty,
Buuuu...
I said but,
Because it's you;
The real you,
The inner you.


Not only do i Phyll feel my body,
But i feel my soul too fell in love with you.
If only you could come back..
To mend my broken beyond repair heart;
That is.


But its too late for that!
You an sob all you want?
Remember the famous saying;
What you do to others...
Haha ...

So sorry lady.

One promise I've made to Phyll;
my love,
I mean LOVE .
Yes the same one,
The true love i had for you,
It will never come back to you.

I'Ve left you behind,
Just like i do to my shade.
Not cause i hate it nor you,
But cause you're of no value.
I deserve real in my reality,
Just as i love in my love life.

You were beauty to my
Eyes,
But not anymore.
So
Bye,

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*(C)2018.

Title        : Beauty Within Beauty
Poet        : Phyll
Genre     : Love/Beauty/flaws
Year        : 2018
P/Swno. : 260


BEAUTY WITHIN BEAUTY
    As Authored By Phyll


Love,
You stand so bold,
And so sleek.
You have this Beaut...
Beautiful,
Rich,
dark,
And chocolate complexion.

Your smooth,
Chocolate skin...
So smooth.
So soft.
So silky.
So sweet...
So sweet like a piece of candy.

When I try and speak,
My words get so mashed up.
I end up not saying anything!
You give me this sense of urge...
Urgency to be the best...
The best person I can be.

You have this beauty about you,
That i can't go a day without.
I have this chronic disease,
The doctor called it ATAY;
Always Thinking About You!

Even though you are already mine,
You have this beauty about you...
You make me feel warm and safe.
Your beauty is mor...
More than just beauty!
Your beauty is a thing I call;
.B..L..A..C..K. .B..E..A..U..T..Y.

Never fall;
For anyone else!
They'll just hurt you in the end.
Trust me cause for them,
As easy as it was to get you
It'll be even easier to replace you.

Believe me when i tell you;
Your BLACK  BEAUTY,
Is not your ideal beauty.
Your beauty,
Is the way you carry yourself;
In this high esteemed way.
That I don't care,
About what you say or do wrong.
Cause to me,
It's what your beauty entails.

The way you make words sound;
So smooth and so good.
You give me this sense;
Sense of protection and comfort.
Whenever we hug,
To me the world is just for two;
Just me and you!

When we make eye contact,
And our eyes lock;
I can feel what you feel,
You feel what I feel?
But I can't say how I feel,
With my words.
We can't say a thing,
This connection is wordless...
I just can't explain,
I just don't know why.

I want to get to know you,
More than I know myself.
Despite the fact that I'm a gent,
You make me feel beautifu...

I felt a certain way for you,
Ever since I first met you...
I don't doubt you feel the same,
Ever since I first saw you.
Just never had the courage to say anything,
But i am now your beholder.

Your BLACK BEAUTY,
Portrays it all.
That's why,
I not only like you,
But i love everything about you!
Feel Special my
.B..L..A..C..K. .B..E..A..U..T..Y.


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COPYRIGHT BY PHYLL
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(C)2018.

MYSTERIOUS WOMAN.Vol 1
The Encounter vol.1- By Phyll

(two campus students meet for the first time.the male is so active and social.he tends to keep the conversation spiced by fluttering the lady.the lady is also fun to have around since she's not only beautiful but also classy.)

Phyll; "You're super cute. What's your name?"

Her; *Laughs "Oh thank you. It's Shivanny."

Phyll; "Have you had this affect on everyone today or just me?"

Her; Laughs "Just you."

Phyll; "I don't believe you. I think you get dressed up every day to see how many random strangers you can meet. You're that random stranger meeter I heard about on the news. The one that keeps stopping all the guys at MMU from getting to their classes."

Her; Laughs again "Oh my god, who are you?"

Phyll; "I'm Phyll, good to meet you."

(we shake hands)

Phyll; "So, how do you like attending school here?"

Her; "It's cool. The people here are nice."(let's assume she doesn't ask me a question back)

Phyll; "It seems cool but I'm actually not a student here. Don't tell anybody (whispering). I'm just visiting from that other school across town. You ever been?"

Her; "Oh Strath? Yeah, I like it."

Phyll; "You seem cool. We should hang out sometime." Pulling out my phone "What's your number?"

Her; "Not that quick boy.Meet me at the parking later.My number is KQA 001S.

Phyll;"meaning?"

Her; "c'mon charming!"

Phyll;(staring with the 'i don't know look)

Her; "Kenyan Queens Association 001 Shivanny. Find that machine in the parking"(as she walks away)

...Boy-child left speechless...

To be continued...

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(C)2018

Title          : My Life With
                     Monster Pain
Poet          : Phyll
Genre       : Life/Pain/sorrow
Year          : 2018
P/SwNO. : 116

( Content; this piece is based on my own true story and applies to our day to day life experiences.Anyone who reads this might find it weird and some actions i did to be stupid but i had no choice.Life is full of pain and when we find ourselves in this situation tend to shy off from our on demons instead of facing them.Personally pain pushed me to the walls twice i attempted to commit suicide with no success but just added more pain on myself.That's when i realised that,no matter how difficult life is and how much pain you endure DON'T give in to those crazy ideas that run through your mind but instead get positive and helpful idea.)

MY LIFE WITH MONSTER PAIN-By Phyll

Life is full of unexpected things,
Luckily,
you can be friends with your enemies;

Unfortunately,
your own life turn to be your enemies.

See,
life is full of surprises.

Funny it may seems, and at the same time,
It will hurt you truly with a monster called Pain.

In my life I have lost big opportunities,not once nor twice but uncountable times.

I had even forgotten how to smile,
how to see a bit further, beyond this misery.

I had also forgotten how to be happy,
how to trust anyone, give them power over me.

I had even forgotten how to be me,
I buried everything deep inside, just to hide it from others.


You taught me how to smile again,
to laugh without reason, to cry from the joy.

Dear Pain,
Thank you for revealing my error again,
showing that path of tears lie in sorrow, not in joy.

Thank you for taking it all away,
making me to hide myself again, to trust no one.

Thank you for telling I am nothing,
pointing my place, to be an outcast in life by my own choice.

And now
I'm making love
Not with a fake human being
But with a brand new razor blade.

Love me,
my razor blade.

Peel my skin,
make me scream.

Sink so deep,
make me weep.

Cut my flesh,
make me bleed.

Take my life,
set me free.

Conversing to myself like a mad man,
Not even 'like' but i had gone insane.

With nice little twist,
I slit my wrist...

Not waiting for life to ****,
rather my own blood I spill.

It's my own choice, I have no fears,
only pain, in eyes some unshed tears.

On the floor, blood making stains,
slowly releasing me from my pains.

****** stains, stains like in my soul,
caused by all the pain, this life Is so full foul...

Vision finally fading away, soon it's all done,
staring darkness, oh so black, soon it's all gone.

Soon I'm released, free from this pain,
suffering and life, it was all just in vain.

Thought,how funny blood makes difference between life and death,
farewell life, so painful, so useless, gonna take my last breath;I told myself.

The pain i felt left many queries unanswered but rather more questions continued acquired.

Why should I listen to my heart,
When It brings nothing but pain.
Why should I fall apart,
When Everytime is the same.

Why should I follow a fake a dream
knowing it will bring nothing but more scream
Why should I ... ?
When I ...

Do you feel me ???

Why should I wait all day?
I feel but I cannot speak it out,
Why do I feel this week weak?

You Moster Do you really feel me?

Why should I go through this agony?
Why can't I just follow my destiny?
Why can't I just let of life?
Maybe because ...
Maybe ... Maybe.

Dear Pain,I do feel You,
But have you ever felt me?

No doubt that;

The pain is in me,
The pain will not leave me.
The pain is all i feel in me,
It's now apart of me.

I just want to;

Cut out my heart,
Cut out my emotions.
Cut out you monster pain!

Only in darkness do i find peace,
Only in darkness can i escape.
Only if this darkness could stay,
But unluckily it wouldn't obey.

I just want to;

Cut out my heart,
Cut out my emotions.
Cut out you monster pain!

But this only added more pain,
I guess they were right;
When they said 'No Pain No Gain'.
The pain i felt made me gain more scars,lesson and experiences never to be forgotten in my entire life.

No doubt that,
Life is full of unexpected things,

Luckily,
you can be friends with your enemies;

Unfortunately,
your own life turns to be your enemies.

See,
life is full of surprises.

Funny it may seems, and at the same time,
It will hurt you truly with monster Pain.

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COPYRIGHT BY PHYLL
*(C)2018.