Michael Ryan

Michael Ryan Jan 2013

I can't help it
but wonder if all these animals are baiting my death
I don't know these cuties, they look innocent enough
sure that they are herbivores
no fangs, no claws, no ****** sacrifices
plain, smooth, and easy on the eyes
all their lumps and bumps
my heart starts to throb
I can't create such a beauty
nor dismiss those kind eyes
interact and build an idea of what species it is
what are you doing in the jungle to not come this way
see you some other day, I guess
we'll find out when I force you to come out and play
to leave the safest cave
accept
because you can't help it

Waiting for Monday to come. (She said she was busy Saturday, Sunday, but maybe Monday) Hey Blind Date #2?{Not so blind anymore} I ended up saying I didn't want to go out again.

Michael Ryan Jan 2013

My oh My

Never afraid to leave
because I know you'll always be here
sad to think that you'll never leave
happy to know I will rely on you
***** to know that I will abuse you
glad to know that I will try my best because of you
my oh my
You've given up nothing, because you gave it all to me
I'm carrying on a torch and without, I'm not much
so thank you for giving me so much of your life
thank you for giving me meaning
thanks so much
my oh my
I can never give as much as you did
nor will I try, evil may I be
instead I will live, happily, to bring a better tomorrow
granting you the greatest pleasure of life
to see your torch move and explore the world unseen
my oh my
you were always afraid for me to leave
always know that I will be there
don't be sad that I will leave
be happy that I rely on you for my strength
know that sometimes my decisions will hurt you
let those decisions remind you, that I will try to make the best

This is for my family once I leave for college, again, I will be leaving this as a surprise for them.

Michael Ryan Jan 2013

Time is your Opponent--The Clock your Savior

Time is my opponent.
It's the greatest villain that resides in this life
Things to do, none
Escaping this fate is greater than none
Time lets me explore the wounds in this flesh
Every ticking moment I explore the pain within
The most dangerous thing it does is keep on going
Things to give comfort, none
Binding the layers of life to a steadily dying grandfather clock
Eventually the mouse can no longer run
Can't go up or down
Sitting ideally by to watch the hands freeze in motion
Things to find, some
Someone to wind this clock

The clock can save you by letting you know to keep going on.

Michael Ryan Jan 2013

Blind Date

I went and saw you Saturday
Never seen your facade before
Time went by fast, we were cute
Both a little fearful of our new acquaintance
Not knowing what to say or do
We shared our beliefs and our food
Things weren't perfect, but the points were in the right place
Yours went up, mine crashed down, ending up even
Meeting once doesn't take much, no expectations
The second time is when you risk it all
The danger comes out to play
Is a stranger worth a second coming
Especially when they're almost out the door

This is one of my hobbies Lena. (To the rest of people who knows if I got the nerve to show or not.) After thinking about it I didn't like her personality that much.

Michael Ryan Jan 2013

Bodies of the Past--Smother your existance

Everything is nothing more than the moment
you can't live it
can't go back
can't leave it
they are not emotions
they are not the most important
Never too sure if that ever happened
always knowing my friend it did
it was nothing special
but it meant the world
hard to tell whats important other than oneself
when digging to the past you're building to the future
just remember my friend
the past you dig up will bury the world around you
when you are ready fill the holes
since you can't look to the future without looking back

I just want something to do so I wrote these poems. Still got nothing.

Michael Ryan Jan 2013

Physically beaten Emotionally the same.

He strugglin .
Always had heart problems, from just being a kid.
Physically ill.
This thing beat for two, repeating each echo.
Growin over sized to fit the world.
This thing beating itself for it's compensation .
Telling one's self it's going strong, while the doctors say he don't got long.
Everything else keeps on, physically torn apart.
But that's not the worse, emotionally his heart just gone wrong.
Getin check-ups to see the pain he knows he can't.
Find some wound they've never seen since childhood
It's a funny thing that the illness fits exactly as he is
A heart yearning for another to beat right next to him

The Heart keeps pumping. The man?

Michael Ryan Jan 2013

I Otherwise Underestimate everything, NOT again.

I can't wreck this boat
I can't crash it into the depths once more
I gotta clean it up
I gotta clear the skies and wasp this deck
Otherwise these sails will forever fall
Otherwise the murky waters will creep aboard
Underestimate the strength of a breeze from the past
Underestimate these old boards, but they can float
everything can fall off it'll come back to the surface
everything can't go back together
NOT this time, no repeats, this boat is no Delorean
NOT in the past everything is right now
again no thanks my friend
again this boat has life preservers hope you can find them

I don't know how this really goes I kinda read this one like a rap.