Standing at the top.
I wonder if I'll fall.
really.
I want to fall.
to be,
broken.
I want the world to stop.
really.
I want to be seen.
to be,
wanted.
I want a friend to listen.
really.
I want a lover.
to be,
loved.
In the end.
I.
walk away.
really.
I just stop typing.
to.
maybe die.

We have walls that you can’t see and we bleed to keep them up

Some of these walls hold our pain back while others hold it in

My wall is a wall that you don’t even think about, obviously

I’ve been told too many times how I’m awesome and funny

Well where are you guys when I need a laugh and a friend

Where are these people that are my “friends”

I guess I have a wall that puts you all away

That makes me standalone even though I give you my soul

I tell you all what’s on the inside, but I still do not see what makes you

I do what I can, I’m involved in many things, but am left in darkness

A personality one of it’s own, one of strength, power,

Will, tranquility, but is left alone to Wallow

Defeat


The color of black n white just like a tuxedo, deceiving. telling others that your fine

something that you pick that looks delicious, but is rotten to the core

the smell of your own burning home. Leaving you with only smoke and holes

a village line up shot and killed. Never had a chance like your hopes and dreams

like asking a girl to prom and hearing the words that you don't want spoke

being infected by some never known disease, making you lose all hope


Defeat

I remember the night that you couldn't move

my brother and I remember the pain we felt

as we both called for an ambulance that lived right next door

remembered every dreadful second they are as 30 minutes click on by

as we wondered if you'd die

we drowned in tears as we were left alone

The ground around you turns to ashes and light that was is no more

The flicker of light within has been snuffed out you tremble to no end

The pain fills the cracks and once again you are whole

That would be the irony you are not whole cracks filled with pain

Is like gluing glass back together it’s never as strong as it once was

You are in pieces that have been etched to fit, but not by your hands

The person you are was made by fools, ones of merely surgical mask and tools

You have become a pack mule to bend and break to the use of others

You’ve lost your voice an identity of yours hidden with a mussel

Wondering if you were ever to be who you wanted or if you were always their toy

A toy smashed into the ground thrown high up to hit the ground, or tooken to see what’s inside you

The insides back then had flesh, bones, organs, the blood of life

Now I am porcelain, empty on the inside and an identity easily broken to never find itself

I am like a shelf the shelf that holds all things dear to you

you do not see me much since you hide me underneath the things you "love"

You don't even think of me even though I hold your world up

I hold the pressure of your world, but I do not change for it

and when you see me bare you will cover me up again.

A heart that beats true, but it's only for you

A sky is gray, but you light up the day

A heart was kept in a chest, but they feel like it has gone out west

The sky is stagnant, and they fall for you like a magnet

A heart is in the dark, because you left a deadly mark

Like thunder and  lighting, you are just something

The heart is fluorine while you act like chlorine

You soak up the tears "oh, why" and when you come all you say is bye

My heart beats true, but it's NOT only for you