I am not the perfect fighter you’ve been looking for,
Someone who can proudly and heroically protect you,
Someone who can be your everything to the point that you don’t need to find a new.
I am not a good and well-known hero, it’s true..
But let me tell you this,
The reason between your missing piece and my losing peace,
Let me help you, remembering the past behind the scenes.
When we were just a kid,
You are small and fragile innocently girl in my sight,
I am the one who protect you from any harm and danger,
I am the one who always fights for you, when your mother begins to bad mouthing you, somewhere,
The only one you used to be your shoulder to cry on,
The only one who stays as your best friend, forever.
I am your almost superhero man, that time, but the story always twist the chapter,
You begin to meet some people who supposed to be the supporting character,
You completely befriended them and all of you spent every time, every chapter, through the pages of stories, just them together.
You are now forgotten me,
You have now erased me from our story we wrote from the very first scenery.
I am no longer be the name who played as your, superhero man,
I can no longer be with you because you chose someone who’ll do my part.
You no longer need my rule.
Today, in the present, I am only an extra character in your story.
You already have your main and have a new special person written in your heart,
It will be selfish of me, if I’ll insist on entering your life
I won’t break your beautiful and almost perfect plot with better setting
I will be okay to be vanished by the end of the day.
So please, be happy, always make sure you’ll be okay if I am nowhere to be seen,
Don’t worry about me, I may not be a fairy-god-mother or brother,
But you knows, I always do granting your wishes for it to come true,
And at this moment, I will now grant your wish,
I will no longer be the best of all your friends.
I admit, it is the most heartbreaking part,
I always hoping if this could change your mind,
Tears slowly fell and my soul started to depart.
For all these words couldn’t pass through your heart
And even though I am shouting from the silence, you are not willing to hear me inside.
I really can’t force you to keep me, you set my shadow aside..
I have no choice but to move backward and begin to march away from you,
I will be fading at the presence of the darks and my memories will join from the ashes of the time.
I always do love you, my one and only, childhood best friend.
But my love can’t fill your big heart, I can’t occupied those emptiness,
Still, I am not enough.
That is why you wished to me to step out and go ways from your story tale,
You may not said these wishes, but your eyes telling me it is,
I’m sorry, sorry if I failed to be your whole, I can’t match in your missing piece and my heart lost its peace ...
- Free Verse Poetry