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Pea Jul 2014
(i.)

the frail kid
singing sand
brand new friend
leaving already
developing meaning
the word lonely
a killer pool
tattoed arm
naked as ***** baby
insecurity never felt
that pure
fishes and sisters
the kindergarten
now collapsed playground
right milktip, left milktip
how could you miss
the ones you do
not even
remember?
the hell keeps
leveling up
Pea Jul 2014
ii.

Why should I change?
Last night's scent
is all I need to mend.
Pea Jul 2014
Jesus, I be lifted higher
Higher, higher
Be lifted higher
Even though we are not the same
Different ways
And we walk on different path
Different road
I just copied that from somewhere
But it matches
With the notes
And be as one
Holding each other's hand in gratitude
Jesus, my arm is not that long
My mind is not that strong
I still have a picture of you on my phone
At night I delete it
The morning after I find you again
It is the lost children's song, it has no end
I can't hear you when I practice on bath
I can't feel you when the water fills me up
Magdalene would not come
It is Natalia
It is Natalia
Now you know who you are
Pictures of daisies on the front page
The blond, long hair
Ensnare my neck, my legs, even the chest
Heart not beating, it is quiet
Is it a candle or a sun? It just burns
The dark is casted away
But you say, dim the light because it helps
How could I not be your migraine?
Different gem pierced on your heart forever
Not really forever, just feels like it
The wounds never be healed
Seven lied that I would make a good healer
These hands are full of barb wire
Colored red of the blood or is it just corroded-
I dare not touch, I dare not move
It would hurt,
it would hurt not you, don't you think I care
Like the sword it is two edged
I need to sharpen my teeth for
the most I could do is biting my thigh
I am a baby trapped in the physique of an adolescent
I don't know I must praise you
And that it's you who is being lifted higher
My ****** friend says
There are a dozen or
two; At two I remember you
Still waiting at that cafe?
It is not me whom you are waiting for
I shouldn't have waited for seventeen years to come
It could have been a coincidence
It could have been real
It could
Not
Be possible and cannot ever be
We do not have the bridge
Ran out of concrete
It reminds me of Tanabata
The kind of one sided Tanabata
Today when I see the stars
I would cry
Pea Jul 2014
A *** of chrysanthemum tea
And a roll of toilet paper
The sheer long black skirt
As if God is hanging around my waist
The black, waving, my ocean depth sweetness God
I will not confuse you, no more
Jesus was dead, Jesus is dead
You will not die, never
But i am going to ruin it by saying
at least not now

No one could **** you
Not even yourself
I am your tombstone
No one would ever find me
The dull little mermaid's knife
You know she chose to come back home
She is now all over the world
One drop of tear in one great ocean
You are one big fish in my cute aquarium soul
Do not worry, do not fear
for you are with me
You are safe and this afternoon we will have tea with Friedrich
The nails the cross the skull of Golgota
I promised to not confuse you with him, no more

Another country's flag printed on your boxer
Your silky silk skin
Your cold touch
The freshness of your tears you gulp every bath
The lampshade color calm as your rose blood
Sticks and stones, you break them with your bones

Will you ever forget me?
I found you on particles
I found you playing the guitar
on the song they say is Satan's
The wood panels
The cursed tabernacle glowing red light
Cemeteries to cemeteries
your dimming jeté
Butterfly gestured hand
You fly, but can you float instead?
Vanilla ice cream and false cherries
The no smoking sign is laughing
You will not die

You may open your cage and set yourself free
Unfortunately aquarium has no key
It has no key
It has no key
Break it and they will find me
They will find me
Your tombstone, me
You are never free
You are never free
And hail the pleasure of writing nonsenses
Pea Jul 2014
When i wake up i will die
I will die sitting as you are sleeping on my lap
And you will not wake up and cry for my warmth is infinite
You think i am not dead
You think i am not dead

When i was a kid i thought i wouldn't want to marry
Though marrying doesn't mean having children
Maybe i thought i wouldn't want to have ***
It's just terrifying to think that i could just accidentaly have a kid
Children are scary
How they scream and laugh and cry and run
How those eyes stare, so brave, mysteriously intimidating
I am afraid
I won't ever have a child, i thought

But then i found that
it is so calming
To think of Assia and Shura
Together
Following Sylvia
Following Sylvia
I would like to have a child too
A daughter would be perfect
Or a son or an intersex, it doesn't matter
I just need her
I need my Sylvia
I need to follow Sylvia
I will follow her and will not leave her
She is not Jesus and i don't need to leave her and she will not ever leave me
We, Sylvia and i, will be one
This one infinite warmth
This one infinite warmth
Pea Jul 2014
iii.

boiling bath
frosty shower
scorching head
frigid heart
Pea Jul 2014
White bed sheet
Strangely picked wallpapers
White eyes, white eyes
Die
Army and explosives
Molotov never did taste this sweet
Yellow lights, beware of God
Pray for us sinners? No ---
Let Mary Jane sing
the sonnet alone
Let Marionette
see your death
Believe her, believe her
No Jesus would be
Stop praying the Rosary, stop it
Don't you want to puke when you hear
Hail Mary? Führer! Führ---
You live like Cleopatra
whose tongue was a cobra
whose eyes were the black swans
on the lake where you first
drown
yourself. Are you Narcissus?
I am an echo
An echo not Echo
The smell of rain won't ever
Won't ever
Won't ever
Won't ever

Peeled toad's skin
Like an apple's
The Cs are not enough; Never ---
Crescent moon
Cat's sad eye, another blind
I miss you
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