How do I learn from the darkness
That never unvailes
How do I raise my head
When Im already a shadow
How do I pick up the pieces
Hanging from the gallows
The mind stands still
And the water is
Forever too shallow
To dive.

When my heart beats different
Is when I fear the world never listened
Sometimes it's not enough to accept
That there will always be something missing
Sometimes I wonder
If I loved you for a reason
And if you ever feel the same.

I think of her dying
I don't see myself surviving
The strongest soul is not of a lion's
It's the one that is tired
From loving others
It's not fair but it's what's on our horizon
Have you seen the sun?
I haven't opened my eyes in a while...

My daily routine consists of me
Hiding and telling lies
It's hard to ignore what I've held inside
It's hard to go outside
The world spins
And I'm spinning
Hoping for new beginnings
But still holding on to the past
The memories
Are all I have
And that's not enough
Anymore.

I still do check
If you've written something
I'm happy you do.

I used to check
If you had written
A poem
Almost everyday
Now I expect
That you are smitten
alone
And far away
I used to let
The clovers and crimson
Postpone
My decay
But now that I've slept
On nails of riddance
I'm not home
Anywhere I stay.

I remember
The little things the most
How it felt
When you were close
And how it was when you were far
I always wanted to be there
I never wanted to be apart.