I'm sitting there
In deep pain
Seeing everyone else
Smiling and laughing
But I'm being neglected
People start to forget about me
And then they start to leave
Neglecting me
So much pain
I can't breathe,
My heart hurts....
Why does it feel this way?
Won't somebody please...
Stay with me?...
Devour me so that I don't have to feel this agony anymore

Tell me...
Is my worrying about you worth it?
Do you care for me as well?
I worry every day...
Scared as hell.
Worried you don't care about me the same way
Please pay attention to me
Show me I don't have to worry

"You stole my heart...
Can't I have it back...?
You villain
Return it now!...
Before I break"
I plead to you
But yet you don't hear me
As I am crawling towards you
My blood is staining the floor
My heart is beating in your hand
I whimper and moan in pain
Reaching my hand out towards you
"You are not the rightful owner of it.
Why do you wish to keep it?"
I lay there
Tears pooling around my face
My breath breaking off in pants
My vision growing darker
Until my breath slowly stops
As my heart stops as well

Those words you sling
The way you speak
The way you initiate conversation
It is so ugly
What is wrong with you?
Thinking you have the right
To say such things of others
Why can't you just die
And sweep away your filth from the earth
While you're at it

These demons...
They just won't shut up!
No one else but me
I am the only one who can hear them
Can't somebody just help me
PLEASE!
Stop this...
Before I finally lose it
They won't leave
No matter how much I beg them to
This hurts so much
I'm scratching and clawing at myself
Screaming and yelling
Hoping for someone to reach into this dark abyss of mine
And rescue me from them
WHY AREN'T THEY QUIET!!!

Is this a dream or is it real life?
To see that beautiful rainbow
Filled with so many color variations.
And to see the unicorn drinking from the lake
But then blood is dripping from the sky
Raining down
Covering everything in red...
As I am surrounded
By dead bodies
A tragedy
To see all the ones I love
In that pile of dead bodies
Due to my own stupidity
I know now that this is not a dream
It is in fact a nightmare
Rage fills my chest
As angry tears roll down my cheeks
The memories of all the pain I caused them
Causing me pain in return
I laugh sadly at the thought to believe
That I had enough endurance to deal with this
I hope to get over this
To get over my past
That my friends in the future
Will bring me some peace
Showing me in due time
That my survival was worth it

She stands there being ignored by everyone
Not understanding
"What did I do???"
Why was everyone ignoring her
She had stood there for them
Had been their sword
Their shield
Their confidant
So why was it
When she needed help the most
Everyone ignored her?