OneCorn

OneCorn Feb 2014

trust

you say you care
you act like I should trust you
everyone else does
everyone else loves you
why would anyone not
and I want to
I really do...
but I can't forget
and I just can't forgive
you watched me get torn apart
and yes I made some mistakes
maybe I should've kept my mouth shut
but I didn't and I'm sorry
but the way you sat by
letting them slowly **** me with words
lies that you watched them string together
and I even asked you for help
just to tell them the truth
and you outrightly denied me
and I know you apologized
but you apologized because you felt you had to
not because you understood
if you could just understand how awful it feels
to be alone
people torturing you with lies they know nothing about
and feeling like it's all your fault
and theres nothing you can do
because no one is in your corner
no one cared about me enough to even try and help
because you've never been hurt like that
and you just don't understand why it affects me so much
but thats why it affects me... because you don't
and how can I trust you when you say you care
how can you possibly care about me
when you've caused me so much pain
and I want to believe you've changed
but you just don't get it
and I know it makes sense
and maybe I should be over it
forgive and forget
but I can't
and until you understand why
I'm not sure I ever can
and it kills me
because I really want to trust you
but I just can't

OneCorn Jan 2014

Fatal Flaw

I don't understand
and I'm trying but nothing ever seems clear
mainly I want to know Why?
why I care so much for those who don't seem to reciprocate

or not in the way I supposedly deserve
and my rose colored glasses
that seem permanently glued on
only hinder me in the process

when I only get glimpses of reality
it's a fog I'm living in
I know you're wrong
yet I still care for you and can't stop
and it's my fatal flaw
and I'm living my own tragic romance
for I can't seem to stop
caring no matter how deep the wound cuts
I never seem to get scars
I remember them but its so hard not to give second chances
than third...fourth...fifth..sixth
and who doesn't deserve a seventh chance
it's a lucky number right
and people grow and change
and it's always a new day
and my inability to enter the realm of reality
is slowly crippling me
how much more can my heart be stabbed
by the ones who've stabbed it time and time again
and it screams in agony for me to change my ways
but I just don't know how to

OneCorn Dec 2013

Heart

Mysterious and misleading
Hard to follow and impossible to trust
We build walls to protect them
Yet they still fall apart
and we wonder
why?

OneCorn Dec 2013

foreign

The words cemented in my throat
That I want to scream at you nearly everyday
Everything I've always wanted to say

But I can’t because…
It's like trying to walk with nowhere to stand
Knowing you don't understand

You act like I’m from some other planet
That my words don’t translate through
Like everything I say isn't a concept to you

Yet your a part of it too
and I just can’t explain anymore
these wounds are growing too sore

so I try to shut up
speak less and less
because I can’t bear another word that you can’t seem to process

and you’d think I’d learn
Just act like we have no problems… as long as they only affect me
you know… all the ones you pretend not to see

pretend my heart isn't dying
and I don’t care
but this just isn't fair

I’m tired of pretending
And I don’t know how much longer I can. I’m not this strong
To keep standing here acting like you’re not doing anything wrong

And you act like it’s a game
And I just don’t feel I could ever win
I’m sorry but I’m done in

And I just want to speak my mind
Without your manipulative ways
Telling me I’m wrong no matter what I say

So here it is
You refused to even try to understand
And I can’t keep trying to withstand

OneCorn Oct 2013

It's not my fault

shut up
before I shut it for you

stop acting like I'm weak
just cause I don't dress like a *****

I know your mad
you blame me for it all

well news flash your not his type
and that's not my fault

don't call me out with crap
you don't know anything about

don't act tough cause your hair is blue and your clothes are black
cause I don't care what you drink or smoke and especially not who you do

you think you can scare me
well maybe you should step back

cause I'm not your everyday good girl
I can fight and I wouldn't be here if I couldn't take a punch

I don't care about your issues
cause I've got my own that would blow yours out the water

so don't poke me with your bony little finger
cause I may just snap it off

don't act like you know everything
when you ain't even know my name

and yes my friends will fight for me
because I do the same for them

so go with your little sad self and face it
he doesn't like you

don't hate me cause he likes me
don't go around convincing people I'm crazy

because I can walk away
taking him with me

so deal, me and him are inseparable
you and him are nothing

and that's not my fault
stop pretending like it is

I met him first
we have history

we love each other in a way you don't understand
and you never will

so accept it your just passing by
so bye *****

I won't miss you
and that is your fault

OneCorn Oct 2013

perfect

You’re like some new kind of perfection
And I can’t stop from thinking about you
And it’s driving me insane

Because I can’t
But I want too
It’s just impossible

Yet I think about you
And my heart is a puddle
And I want to know if you feel the same

But I can’t
Because I like you too much
To hurt you

OneCorn Sep 2013

A walk in New York City

I see a million faces
All going a million miles an hour
With a million things to do

I hear a million conversations
With a million different voices
And a million words to say

I see a man with a million dollar watch
Yet twenty dollars and twenty minutes later
I see he has five million more

I look up to see a million signs
Millions of flashing colors and words
With a million eyes just passing them by

I see a million I heart NYC shirts
And a million cameras pointed in every direction
All flashing five million times

New York City must be amazing
I mean not many cities can say
They’re a city of millionaires

writing assignment i kinda ******* up so i thought it should go to some use