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16h · 21
Flight
OnLithium 16h
Starting over
Is a lot like
Getting on plane
To go somewhere new
You have to rid of
Everything heavy
The baggage that
Has brought you down
You have to remember the person
In the old photo
Of your passport
You need to learn to accept
That what you know is gone
And you can drag yourself
Into visiting the past
Only to find that
Nobody else will be there waiting
2d · 31
Smoke Signal
my anger
no longer fuels the fire
that set my life ablaze
no longer controls
the effort i give life
no longer am i a house
drowning in flames
i am akin to a stick of incense
with my smoke descending
ever so gently
just to prove that i still burn
just not to the same degrees
2d · 31
Tendrils
Intertwined
Like two plants
That shouldn't
But as long
As the gardener
Doesn't care
I'll hold you
Till we both
Turn to rot
3d · 41
down n twist
i know
the meds
keep me
steady
but then
when things
become very
choppy
one med
turns to two
two to three
and i start to
lose all of me
4d · 33
passage
if life is warfare
then i am merely
a carrier pigeon
trying to not get
blown out of the sky
5d · 666
bidirectional
Crucified
by my own hands
Polarized
by my own choices
Settled
by self medication
Debated
by self evaluation
5d · 22
Predestination
Fate beckons you onwards
Not caring what you have
Nor who you are
What you leave behind
Nor what you become
In due time
You will be a whisper
Amongst those forgotten
Begging the next person onwards
5d · 37
the nod
felt like i lived
and died
for your love
and acceptance
always suffocating
gasping for your words
racked up so many wounds
when you were holding me
since then i wish i could say
that things have changed
oh how they haven't
still waiting for the day
i hear you even softly mutter
that i'm enough
7d · 29
-44⁰
broken roses
and busted dreams
nothing ends well
or so it seems
the emptiness will consume
and clarity will
find you soon
Aug 7 · 48
puke
OnLithium Aug 7
I tried to
show me
Why I
loathe me
I sit in
the dark
Cause I can't
stand me
Doesn't matter if
I say
I'm sorry
to myself
There's no
forgiving me
I know that
the thing
That disgusts me
is me
Aug 7 · 89
two face canvas
OnLithium Aug 7
lose everything
still pay a price
do anything for love
still consumed by hate
take all roads to freedom
still imprisoned in myself
Aug 5 · 32
not gone yet
OnLithium Aug 5
i used to
complain and whine
about how poorly
life was going
how the world
had been so unkind
it is now clear to me
i cannot be the victim
while trying to be the victor
Aug 5 · 30
El mascarado
OnLithium Aug 5
Peeling the mask away
Chipping at this facade
Jumping from the tight rope act
Finding the person I thought was lost
Pleading for the time to be right
Aug 4 · 69
valley
OnLithium Aug 4
softly
Slooooowly
SLIPping
I feel as if
I've been here
Far too long
I feel as if
You just don't
Want to see

And now
I start
To

Fall
Aug 4 · 48
thirsty
OnLithium Aug 4
you only realize
how bad you needed something
when it finally shows up
like when you've been thirsty
drinking from toxic puddles
managing with just that
until real water arrives
and then you understand
you never had what you needed
now that you do
although it seems foreign
you cannot get enough of it
Aug 2 · 117
(my) parallel
OnLithium Aug 2
in this lifetime
i am yours
in another lifetime
someone else's
i am aware
of the others
if only faintly
and i hate to speak
for the others
but this one with you
by far the best
Aug 1 · 58
Jaundiced
OnLithium Aug 1
I curse my apathy
It will be the death of me
Want to hide in the darkest cave
Where no one will dare to save
Clearly lacking in all possible departments
My heart just one of many empty compartments
Jul 31 · 3.9k
quiet tea party
OnLithium Jul 31
most aim to be calm
not let the world
affect every aspect of life
its not a bad plan
i just prefer to be
a little more like tea
steeping in silence
Jul 30 · 45
Distraction
OnLithium Jul 30
You make it difficult
To write about loss
And tragedy
And heartbreak
And all the other things
I start writing something
You just smiling
Just looking in my direction
Is enough to wash it away
You ask what I'm writing
I answer honestly
And say nothing
Because what I was going to
Isn't as beautiful and joyous
As you
Jul 29 · 46
1212
OnLithium Jul 29
The feeling is fleeting
And what's collapsing the ceiling
The moments I've lost
And the friends that I've tossed
Love that won't last
And memories of the past
The waves keep on breaking
And the world keeps on taking
I'd play a pitiful little song
And the notes would be dead wrong
Jul 29 · 59
shrug
OnLithium Jul 29
At that point in life
I don't have a will
But I do have suicide notes
For each person I love
Close enough.
Jul 29 · 44
Dang
OnLithium Jul 29
You say things
I don't understand
Tell me I'm free to go
But still under your hand
You do things
I question and you lie
Tell me I'm free to go
Only way I'll be free is if I die
Jul 28 · 56
figures
OnLithium Jul 28
Lay my cards on the table
Only to see yours are better
Stretch my bloodied hands out
Only to see yours are clean
Hide in the cemetery
Only to see you
Jul 28 · 109
「」
OnLithium Jul 28
To suffer after pain
Is to simply experience
Pain in suffering
I constantly bring myself
To think about everything.

What hurts me
has hurt me
will hurt me
Jul 28 · 43
Proclivity
OnLithium Jul 28
Hold me
With the gentleness
You would give
A flickering candle

Touch me
As tenderly as you can
As if you are operating
On an open wound

Kiss me
As hurriedly as you wish
As if we aren't going to get
One more singular moment
Jul 26 · 31
to and fro
OnLithium Jul 26
My day
Before I get time
With you
Is anticipation
And the night
After you are gone
Is recollection
Jul 26 · 67
Simple Epistle
OnLithium Jul 26
To Whom It May Concern,

The person writing you now
Is a person never seen
And never heard before
They have put so much work
And so much time
Into being better just in case
You ever bump into them
They have focused on the traits
The habits and impurities
That those before you hated
They have built themselves
In the image they were provided
With tools found lying about
They aren't finished by any means
But they hope you accept them
And won't destroy their work.

Best Regards,
The Person
Jul 26 · 29
down ya go
OnLithium Jul 26
when it comes
there's that
feeling
and now everything
begins to
slip
when it passes
there's no
feeling
and now everything
continues to
slip
Jul 25 · 102
y.m.e
OnLithium Jul 25
Wanting to drown in your love
And float in your dreams
Wanting to die in your arms
And live in your thoughts
Wanting to get lost in your eyes
And be found in your heart
Wanting to be helpless to your touch
And thrive in your grasp
Jul 25 · 60
Ф (F)
OnLithium Jul 25
I has't been
F'rgotten in Flowers
Drossy in Pardon
And Fearful of Fate
I has't nay events
I consid'r F'rtuitous
Many I consid'r Fruitless
And few to none Fulfilling
Jul 23 · 36
Final Hurrah
OnLithium Jul 23
Where will you be
When the party ends
Metaphorically I ask
Will you be covered
In golden glitter
Or passed out in the front yard
Like a drunken ***
Will you be safe at home
Cause your friends cared
Or jumping over fences
Cause they gave up on you
Will you be the one upstairs
With someone you shouldn't
Or praying to something for help
When you thought you wouldn't
The party always ends
Jul 23 · 36
Self Observation
OnLithium Jul 23
I looked at myself
And truly took myself apart
I found that I love
To get into mischief
I like making mistakes
One really shouldn't
I love to have **** ups
So I don't feel like
Such a big one.
Jul 21 · 45
lovesick
OnLithium Jul 21
I understand why people
Call it lovesick
It can be meant in the way of
You're toxic to my system
And make me ill
Or it can be meant in the way of
When you stare at me
I sweat
And when you are gone
I fret
When you touch me
I shiver
And when you are gone
I wither
Personally?
I love being lovesick.
Jul 21 · 36
love waits
OnLithium Jul 21
Oh the tempus
I wasted
By not making
Thee mineth
Thee w're thence
Lingering
We knoweth each oth'r
So well
Lets not wasteth
Aught m're
Jul 15 · 40
Đ (Alternate)
OnLithium Jul 15
Divination
Sought out
By Dreamers
Sinners who
Held out
Desperation
Controls those
Who Don't
Wanna Die
Without somewhere
To belong
Pleading for
Deliverance
Enticing Dogma
You Don't
Believe in
Jul 15 · 40
esto o aquello
OnLithium Jul 15
Guilty pleasures
Rooted in
Traumatic treasures

You can either
Turn off the lights
Or we can sit
And both go to therapy
Jul 15 · 41
Blind Eye
OnLithium Jul 15
I go from
3 days of a slumber
To pleasures and rage
Hating me but lusting for you
Times of hopelessness
Thoughts of suicide
To gripping a wheel
Doing over 140
Self wallowing
Hiding in darkness
To feeling immortal
Impulsive purchases
And everytime this flip happens
I feel half of me turn and
Look the other way
Jul 13 · 59
@U
OnLithium Jul 13
@U
I couldn't have asked
Or prayed to the gods
For anything better
You watched me fight
And claw my way
Through so much
You know I'm not perfect
After all of that
You still decided
To choose me
Jul 12 · 35
Depth Diving?
OnLithium Jul 12
...                                          gashed deeply
in the quietest of ways
                         when i should have been
shrieking in torment
                         but with the swells
of both oceans and wounds
                         comes mitigation
...                                                and repose
Jul 12 · 103
818
OnLithium Jul 12
818
To feign ignorance
That the world
Just operates how
It does
When the signs
Are clearly there
For some
Its coincidence
For others
Its fate
For me
Its numbers
Such as 818
818 is one of my favorite numbers with my one of my favorite meanings.
Jul 12 · 73
Disguised Benevolence
OnLithium Jul 12
For those who have stuck around
I should be grateful
Yet often I've been wounded
By those who are close and dear
Their intentions virtuous
And their results malicious
All comes back to
If familiarity mattered
Water wouldn't boil a fish
Jul 10 · 34
Ë
OnLithium Jul 10
Ë
You are my
Everything
And that may
Seem bold
But what's really bold
Is how you stormed
Into my life
Even though
You were always there
Eagerly waiting
And now
I can't and don't
Want to leave your
Embrace
Jul 9 · 59
×
OnLithium Jul 9
×
I wake
In the same pain
I sought to
Escape

I revel
In the same addictions
I sought to
Disown
Jul 8 · 84
Mixed Signals
OnLithium Jul 8
Stay
But don't leave
Mine
But not yours
Forever
But not always
Jul 8 · 211
Filth
OnLithium Jul 8
This feeling
In the gut
The butterflies
Turn to termites
What made you
Stir inside
Is now eating
You alive
And now you are left
Rotting
Jul 5 · 52
Apparatus
OnLithium Jul 5
Been underwater
For so ****
Long
Didn't think
Anybody would
Care
Then from
Nowhere you
Appear
In your hands
A second
Chance
Jul 4 · 62
Beso
OnLithium Jul 4
Hold me close
Hold me tight
Kiss me once more
To say goodnight

I am here for now
I won't always be
So kiss me once more
Cause you love me
Jul 3 · 52
For You
OnLithium Jul 3
Contemplate suicide
Yet worry about death
The man I was
Died a long time ago
The man I am
Will die soon
And the man I'll become
Will die eventually
This may sound depressing
But when you realize
I'm becoming somebody
I never thought I would be
Just for her
And to eventually lay to rest
With her
You realize it's the most beautiful
Love story ever told.
Jul 3 · 339
Đ
OnLithium Jul 3
Đ
You can consider me
Your favorite
Disciple
I would follow you
Until my
Death

With that said
Take my hand and I will
Dedicate
Myself to you
And even when I turn to
Dust
You will find me
Waiting
Jun 30 · 159
Peace
OnLithium Jun 30
You laying
In the cabin's window seat
Reading one of my
Favorite books
The sun
Reflecting off your hair
We are existing
Together
At peace with life
Concerned with nothing
And for right now
As much as I
Want to continue to describe this
I want more to get lost
In this moment
Forever.
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