felt like i lived
and died
for your love
and acceptance
always suffocating
gasping for your words
racked up so many wounds
when you were holding me
since then i wish i could say
that things have changed
oh how they haven't
still waiting for the day
i hear you even softly mutter
that i'm enough

broken roses
and busted dreams
nothing ends well
or so it seems
the emptiness will consume
and clarity will
find you soon

I tried to
show me
Why I
loathe me
I sit in
the dark
Cause I can't
stand me
Doesn't matter if
I say
I'm sorry
to myself
There's no
forgiving me
I know that
the thing
That disgusts me
is me

lose everything
still pay a price
do anything for love
still consumed by hate
take all roads to freedom
still imprisoned in myself

i used to
complain and whine
about how poorly
life was going
how the world
had been so unkind
it is now clear to me
i cannot be the victim
while trying to be the victor

Peeling the mask away
Chipping at this facade
Jumping from the tight rope act
Finding the person I thought was lost
Pleading for the time to be right

softly
Slooooowly
SLIPping
I feel as if
I've been here
Far too long
I feel as if
You just don't
Want to see

And now
I start
To

Fall