Waste not the precious years of life,
With which each mortal man has been endowed.
For the green leaves of youth turn brown,
And God takes back the life that He allowed.

I'm lonely.
I'm alone.
I'm selfish
and cold.
I'm wrong,
and you're right
so lets fight.
lets fight
to the death.
to MY death
to my last dying breath
I'd still love you
but it's true,
it won't do.
it won't do.
what I've done
to myself
has been done
to you too.
Now I'm lonely
and alone.
When we talk
on the phone
your so selfish
and cold,
our new love
growing old.
and I'm dying to feel
what is already dead.
was it something i said?
was it something i said?
acceptance.
defeat.
I'm alone
and I'm beat.
give it up, love
give it up
or give it all to me
please?
can't you see?
I am dying
on my knees.
I am crying
on my knees.
OK, ill give it up.
I am lying on my knees
and hoping you'll complete
ME

I'm half way from the ledge i jumped off
and half way from the shore.
Wading water in the middle,
back and forth. back and forth.
a little less close, a little more.
I'm in the middle of having no idea what I'm doing
and being so sure.
clinging to something I don't understand
because it feels so wrong, but it feels so pure.
Its a lonely place out in the water
when your drowning
and getting tired.
It grows too hard to stay afloat
without the strength that is required.
Now I'm inching toward the ocean floor
with nothing left to be desired
and I realize ... I was done for from the jump.

Where are you now?
When i sleep with the lights on every night.
When i cant close my eyes, so i stare
into anywhere, everywhere
that seems dark.

Where are you lying?
When i lay in the arms of another man.
When it feels so wrong, yet here I am.
You're no where, but every where
that seems dark.

Where is your love?
When I'm lost with a needle inside my vein.
That's so insane. I go insane. I'm so insane.
that seems dark.

Here i am
so in love with how you'll never understand,
never hold my hand
and its my fault because I never had a plan.
Just kept this love
close to my heart
despite the fact we've grown apart.
that seems dark.
that seems dark.
that seems dark.

Where is your head?
When you're realizing that I'm so dedicated.
When you're saying you care to be there & you swear.
Don't you dare. Don't you ******* dare....
that seems dark.

Where do we stand?
When time away is passing by slower than ever.
When the end of 15 years in prison starts to feel like never.
& nothing's fair - till we get there.
that seems dark.

Where does it end?
When love is drowning me so deep under my pain.
That's so insane. I go insane. I'm so insane.
that seems dark.

here i am
so i love with you you'll never understand.
never hold my hand.
and its my fault because I never had a plan.
just kept this love
close to my heart
despite the fact we've grown apart.
that seems dark.
its so dark.
so dark.

I am consistently questioning everything that is me.
I find my self back at square one
more often than not.
so small.
so hopeless.
wandering aimlessly
up, then down, then up again.
what am I missing?
I have to shake this insanity
and stay in the very moment
where i reveal my faith.

I'm always telling who I am
about who I was
and to be her again.

She was happy
on the inside.
The sickness in her mind
was even deeper.

Wasn't real yet, till I fed it.
now, too late to change
- it tells me so.
It tells me I'm a keeper

here in my sickness
and I wonder still
oh, why can't I be her again?

I am what I am.

... But You ...

are everything.