I just want some calm.
But my body won't allow it.
The strain of this life
threatens to pull me apart
like a worn piece of paper.

All I can do
is take a deep breath
and pray
I can keep things together
just a little longer.

Is anyone out there listening?

Or do I have no companions
save the very demons that are consuming me?

Blood trickles down my hand
as I linger at the mouth of the monster.

I scratch,
I claw,
I fight defiantly.

But it is no use.

The fires of this life
are about to burn me away for good.
There is no escape.

Future's end. Nothing awaits me.
Except a dark circle in an empty chasm.

My body weakens.
The totality of it all
becoming ever more apparent.

Tears drip down my cheek
as I fade away.

This is not what I wanted.
But perhaps
it is what I deserved.

Finally,
In one swift, eternal motion
I am pulled down into the abyss.

And erased by the bleakness
that lies there.

There is a drug that
rips through my veins
and thrashes my body around
with reckless abandon.

There is a chemical
it electrifies my skin,
makes my heart race,
and ravages my body.

There is a substance,
that ripples through my hair,
dilates my eyes,
and makes my mind dance.

There is a concoction,
that blurs everything around me,
and locks in my spirit
to the whims of my flesh.

It is You.

I am healthy.
(I am hurting...)

I am strong.
(I am suffering...)

I am confident.
(I am insecure...)

I am fearless.
(I am frightened...)

I am powerful.
(I am meek...)

I am invincible.
(I am broken...)

I am joyful.
(I am human...)

There I wait by moonlit night
thinking of what I’ve not done right.
By the beach side near the crashing waves,
a mess of chaos, wind and rage.

The torment in the nearby sea
may as well just be the soul of me.
Lightning dances on the horizon line,
As we pay the price for natures crime.

Not far for me the city speaks
in a voice so soft, so calm, so sweet.
By the waters wracked by fear
I know it’s close but I barely hear.

Just a scant few miles away,
The concrete colossus guards the bay.
And then there’s me feet in the sand
trying, begging to understand.

The universe, a complex cosmic dance,
Then when might I just get my chance?
If this world’s a stage and I’m a player,
What lurks within the darkest layer?

But there’s no answer in this place,
Just an empty void of space.
Perhaps someday I’ll find my sleep,
In the madness of the oceans deep.

I just want to hug you
And never let go.
To tell you everything
That I think you should know.

I just want to hold you,
each and every day.
As my fears and my stress,
slowly melt away.

I want to keep you safe,
And secure and protected.
I want you to know
That you’re loved and respected.

I love the warmth of your smile,
the open joy of your laugh.
You’ve stolen my heart,
and I don’t want it back.

One day you’ll be grown,
and I’ll be past my prime.
but I’ll still be watching,
through the shadows of time.

I know that change
Is life’s only constant.
And you won’t stay this small,
No matter how much I want it.

On the journey life takes us,
We’ll change and we’ll grow,
But I’ll still want to hug you
And never let go.