Greenie

Greenie Jan 2015

and I know that at this moment I am like the flapping
/for sale/ signs in the wind but on the inside I feel so
safe, not hot not cold but this soupy
mix that only reinvigorates when that biting wind
reminds me of future engagements.

Greenie Jan 2015

mulling over futures

on days when this house is not a home i
pull my body out the doors and into the
earth's  chilly fragrance. and if the sky is
bold  i   light  my  heart  with  the  stars'
possibility  and  i  hope  and  i hope that
one day maybe i will be who i want and
i  will  look in the mirror in the morning
and say to myself yes, this  is  who i am,
who i lived for all those days  when  my
fingers    felt    sick  and people said my
smile didn't  match  my eyes. maybe i'll
find  someone to  explode  with,  maybe
i'll     share     my    freedom    with    my
ancestors    maybe    i   will  but  i  hope.

Greenie Jan 2015

short wish lists

i used to want to be the hero

now I just wish to be saved

from myself, like some helpless

princess in a tower

Greenie Jan 2015

sleepy

I
being that I am
alive as best I can
look forward to the days
full of humming thrall and the
nights in which I may rest in peace.

Greenie Jan 2015

paying rent for wisdom

in          the
midst of all
this    numb
wandering
i   begin   to
see       with
clarity
the
sunrise
neighboring
the      duller
stars  i   may
have     once
prayed    on.

Greenie Jan 2015

: an enthusiast or an evil spirit

im
warm
and its cold and
i don't even want to
think on the way your stealthily
soft breath felt near my ear i want you out
out, out, please get out of my head i cant seem to get
these hallucinations of you from behind my eyes and it makes
me feel so weak and i hate weakness, hate it, hate it, you make me
weak you
fiend.

Greenie Jan 2015

new years

sometimes the
stars seem to clink
like glass and then fall
out of place and drop and drop
until maybe I guess they land in some
farmers field in Armenia or Laos and then
perhaps a young boy will go out to play and find
a feat that will take away his boyish charm
but oh those boyish fantasies will
soar