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Nomadic poet May 2021
I don't think I'm winning anymore
I don't think I'm doing good anymore
I think I think too much
But not enough
The weight grows
Every day
If I was to say I want it to end
That I don't wanna do it anymore
That I never wanted it
That I need ******* help

Would any of you really understand
Nomadic poet May 2021
Aren't locusts found in the swamps

"Playing in the storm drain"

Ian out the gutters
I'm taking my loss

What in the **** is all this ****

I put myself out on the line here
Finding you not just dying
But gone

I don't ******* get it
   Why
What the fucj
Nomadic poet Jun 2020
Im sad again..
Nomadic poet Jul 2020
I did something different
Not many agree
But either way
Its my own
Right?
Nomadic poet May 2021
Why didn't I see
A womanizer is what you are
Beautiful words
From your split tounged mouth
Naive is me
For considering they may be true
Nomadic poet Oct 2021
Oh yes
Hes such a yellow fella
Nomadic poet Sep 2021
Its my mindstate
Which decides my life's fate
Most
Nomadic poet Jul 2021
A life without scars

Is only a night without stars
Nomadic poet Jul 2021
**** always being "poetically vaulable"
Who the **** says i cant just come to ramble

Im proud
My mind was able to see myself
When no one else wants too

You gotta be mean
Comment about the rhyme scheme
1,1,1
Then go on with a slick diss
Attempting to play judge of anothers
"Pooetical value"


Im out here losing my ******* mind
Pretending its all fine
Never learned where to draw the line
Maybe im stuck, a mental confine

One you could never survive

Refer i am absolute poetry in motion
My words do not always have to hold poetic value to whatever ******* elite ******* poetic ******* value decider reading my writes

I am allowed to write whatever speaks to this soul
Not yours
Your mental box and idea of true poetry is whats laughable
Its one thing to be a critic and another to be an arrogant *******.
You really arent that cool
Nomadic poet Jul 2021
You're face still holds the memories
But your skin no longer holds the feelings
Nomadic poet Jun 2021
Temporary

As everything is
  Hell always has been

A **** ton of
Would haves
could haves  
      
          Sell outs
Has been



Hell, I say
Who gives a **** what we are anymore
I'll stay raisin my bottles until my liver gives out
Nomadic poet Jun 2021
How vile
We could have been amazing
Looking at that unshaven
Needing a manscape
Innocent face
All my mind can play is that day
Me sitting on the tail end of his truck
You with that red mustang
And the undeniable fire that raged
Once our lips met
We could have been great
If only life would have let us
Nomadic poet May 2021
Maybe i just have wrong thoughts
My mind hasn't been right for a while
Many demons I've fought
This journey to find my smile
Never ending trails
All these memories just sitting; filed


I remember the moment I was defiled

Corruption brought in a new found *****
And I'm just begging
Shut the ******* door
Nomadic poet May 2021
I'm spiraling
Oh darling

Why can't you see
I gave you all of me

Written in stone
So concrete
You have left me deceased
Nomadic poet May 2021
The world doesn't get to decide my mental state
Nomadic poet Jul 2022
Its worth the sight

Please weather the fight
Nomadic poet Jul 2022
I wish you saw me
As he do
A long suffering
Your doings
Nomadic poet Jul 2020
You'll always be someones bad guy
But
That doesn't mean you are a bad guy
Nomadic poet Jul 2020
These things i do
Is how i survive the world they put me in
Nomadic poet Feb 2022
Your projections
Show me your direction

Im not like you
I no longer hate myself so much that dragging someone else is something i do
Which sadly is unlike you

I do pray you heal
Nomadic poet Aug 2020
A million times
  I wish you would have let me

Let me live blissfully
Within the ignorance
Of the walls ive built

You came with a vendetta
**** was a set up

Again
You ever asked yourself
Why doesnt she have friends?
Nomadic poet Jul 2021
You deserve more than what they gave you
You deserve more than what you think you deserve
Nomadic poet Jul 2020
You're in my head
My body's numb
Your dead
Im feeling mental and dumb
Nomadic poet Jul 2020
Its all in the name of emptiness
Nomadic poet Jun 2021
I love being blinded by these bright flowers
Nomadic poet Jul 2020
It only hurts when i try to sleep
Nomadic poet Mar 2021
I give more than i receive
Nomadic poet Jun 2020
Isolation can be lethal
Nomadic poet Jun 2020
Understanding is not always comfortable

...

This world is not nice
Nomadic poet Apr 2021
Wow I'm a *******
Nomadic poet May 2020
A year ago she came out into the world
Through my pain she took her first breaths
I remember you cried
That same night
Everything hurt
Just breathing was exhausting
I pleaded with you just to tidy the room
I asked for that so maybe my mind wouldnt feel so cluttered
But of course you didnt think that deep
You argued and watched me clean while i bled and my legs shook
I cried.

Here i am a year later
Wrapping presents
Alone
You're outside too busy self indulging to even consider being apart of this
I dont know why i ever thought things would change....
Im getting really sad again.
Nomadic poet Jul 2021
It's times like this that have taught me
Such an important lesson
...
How to share my warmth with myself.
How to hold me when no one else will.
This will not end me nor will I let it win me.


Our only true meaning is to learn to whole heartedly love ourseleves.
Nomadic poet Jul 2020
When will you see
You're beautiful
And beautifully seen
Nomadic poet Mar 2021
The wisteria are back
~•~•~
They are my soul
I love when they bloom again
Nomadic poet Jun 2020
Anger takes over.
I never gained any closure.

How can i be alright..
Just continue to fight?

I felt myself break.
All while he continued to take.

His own pleasure more important than a childs mental stability.
I thought the worst had been done whenever they abandoned us three...but here i am..
Proven wrong again.

I cant seem to comprehend what the end goal ever was. Ive given up on trying to mend.

The wounds you left are far to deep.
A childs innocence is no ones game.
Nomadic poet Apr 2020
Its hard to let go
Its hard to walk away
After all these years
All this pain
Love
Confusion
After all of it
I still have to walk away
All because
You never prioritised me
All these years
I was truly yours
But you were never mine
6 years and 1 kid later and i still end up alone
Nomadic poet Jul 2020
During these times,
Please remember,
You're beautiful all on your own.
Nomadic poet Mar 2021
Please share your love with yourself.

You probably need it the most.

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