Im sad again..

A year ago she came out into the world
Through my pain she took her first breaths
I remember you cried
That same night
Everything hurt
Just breathing was exhausting
I pleaded with you just to tidy the room
I asked for that so maybe my mind wouldnt feel so cluttered
But of course you didnt think that deep
You argued and watched me clean while i bled and my legs shook
I cried.

Here i am a year later
Wrapping presents
Alone
You're outside too busy self indulging to even consider being apart of this
I dont know why i ever thought things would change....
Im getting really sad again.