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66 · Aug 2020
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Nomadic poet Aug 2020
A million times
  I wish you would have let me

Let me live blissfully
Within the ignorance
Of the walls ive built

You came with a vendetta
**** was a set up

Again
You ever asked yourself
Why doesnt she have friends?
66 · Jul 2020
I promise
Nomadic poet Jul 2020
When that weights gone
I promise you'll fly
64 · Jul 2020
Patience
Nomadic poet Jul 2020
..Even in the deepest darkness
                          ...
              With just the right amount of patience..
                        ....Your eyes will soon adjust
Patience is required. Yes it hurts. Yes it *****. But let it be and one day you will wake up and you'll just go about your day until it hits you that it doesnt hurt anymore. Then..its time to truly be free.
64 · Jul 2020
He will but you wont
Nomadic poet Jul 2020
He will send for you
Once he realizes
And yes
It will feel good
It will make you want to fix it
But sometimes things are better left broken.
You wont be that same girl anymore
You wont want to scream to be heard anymore
You want peace.
Not on the outside
But within.
64 · Apr 2020
Years
Nomadic poet Apr 2020
Its hard to let go
Its hard to walk away
After all these years
All this pain
Love
Confusion
After all of it
I still have to walk away
All because
You never prioritised me
All these years
I was truly yours
But you were never mine
6 years and 1 kid later and i still end up alone
64 · Aug 2020
Do that
Nomadic poet Aug 2020
Feel guilty
Be sad
Im doing that

Why isnt it passing
Why cant i want to get out of bed
Why dont i feel worthy of anything

We all die alone right

Maybe we can scream at the moon
        Together tonight?

Maybe we feel the same..
But we speak different
                   Languages?
64 · Jul 2020
Clocks
Nomadic poet Jul 2020
Its 7:20

My minds been a nonstop ticking clock

Counting down the seconds
To the minutes
To the hours

Oh how i long for that connection
We held so tightly

We strangled it
64 · May 2020
But..
Nomadic poet May 2020
He molested me
But
Your words broke me
61 · Jul 2020
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61 · Jun 2021
My wish
Nomadic poet Jun 2021
In this life
I simply wish
Upon every dying star;

To always stay within the classification
Of those
Who strive
,Maybe even thrive,

To forever take my gentle time
To sniff the flowers;
Wild, self grown; any flower grown

Even supposing our noses at blocked
60 · Jul 2020
I leave the fan on
Nomadic poet Jul 2020
Now?
Well, now...
I keep your pillows set the way you had them.
I havent turned the fan off
In small hope you wont get too hot out there
I just hope one day you can see
...
I only wanted you to be free with me
60 · Jul 2020
Please
Nomadic poet Jul 2020
When screaming and bleeding
Turn to
Seeing and fleeing
Please remember to let these feelings go
58 · Jul 2020
Shh..
Nomadic poet Jul 2020
This silence
Resembles
Violence
58 · Jun 2020
Again
Nomadic poet Jun 2020
Im getting sad again
56 · Aug 2020
Man
Nomadic poet Aug 2020
Man
Let
          The
                     Dead
                                   Man
                                                Lay
55 · Jun 2020
Happy mother
Nomadic poet Jun 2020
Arent mothers suppose to rejoice
Arent we suppose to love our life

Because i can tell you now
I dont feel love in my home.
I dont feel love in my heart.
Im cold.
I look at her and i hate myself
For not being good enough
For not doing enough
For not loving myself enough to be a happy mother.
I hate that men get to choose when to participate and when to leave.
But us mothers.
We got a duty and a responsibility.
Not a light one either
Im scared.
Im alone.
But i will not let her go without
With a heavy heart and heavy limbs
Ill keep moving forward for her to know that loving yourself is the way to greet this world with arms open wide.
Im sorry im a sad mom. Im sorry i didnt make a good life prior to creating you. Im young but babygirl im giving you all i have. Just you and i baby.
54 · Jul 2020
You're beautiful
Nomadic poet Jul 2020
During these times,
Please remember,
You're beautiful all on your own.
54 · Jul 2020
No longer about you
Nomadic poet Jul 2020
I never set out to hurt you
I was only doing the best i could for my mental
You couldn't stand that though
You never seemed to like me when i like me
Only whenever you see the weak in me
Do you seem to show interest
This is no longer about you
This is my story and you are no longer welcome on my pages.
This is my journey.
And mine alone.
54 · Jul 2020
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Nomadic poet Jul 2020
You're in my head
My body's numb
Your dead
Im feeling mental and dumb
53 · Aug 2020
Like that
Nomadic poet Aug 2020
I just wanna feel at home
That its safe feeling
Like i dont wanna keep wondering
I cant keep up with this
I dont know how to deal with all this
I wish i knew how
If i could it right
Do it perfect
Id give anything
But **** doesnt workout Like That
53 · Apr 2020
Me
Nomadic poet Apr 2020
Me
Thoughts are muffled
By the cries in my throat
I try to explain
Words don't come so easy
It hurts
My heart and mind are so intertwined
My 1 minute write
53 · May 2020
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Nomadic poet May 2020
A year ago she came out into the world
Through my pain she took her first breaths
I remember you cried
That same night
Everything hurt
Just breathing was exhausting
I pleaded with you just to tidy the room
I asked for that so maybe my mind wouldnt feel so cluttered
But of course you didnt think that deep
You argued and watched me clean while i bled and my legs shook
I cried.

Here i am a year later
Wrapping presents
Alone
You're outside too busy self indulging to even consider being apart of this
I dont know why i ever thought things would change....
Im getting really sad again.
51 · Jul 2020
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Nomadic poet Jul 2020
I did something different
Not many agree
But either way
Its my own
Right?
51 · Jul 2020
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Nomadic poet Jul 2020
These things i do
Is how i survive the world they put me in
49 · Apr 2020
Hide
Nomadic poet Apr 2020
I dont want the world to see me
Im sure they would never understand
48 · Jun 2020
Hate
Nomadic poet Jun 2020
How are you suppose to love yourself
When you cannot even stand who you are

I hate every inch of who ive grown to be
I hate the sound of my heavy feet
The cracks my voice makes due to insecurity i hold

Ive never known a gentle touch to my heart
Yet i yearn for it
For a feeling ive never had
I wish so badly to posses such a love
48 · Jun 2020
Thats just fine.
Nomadic poet Jun 2020
The people with the biggest hearts can come off so heartless.
The people with the wildest souls can come off to be a bit too much.
There will always be someone who you will be the bad guy too.
And thats just fine.
Self care and self love is the only way to find your self.
Until that you will have no heart to give away.
So whenever they call me heartless
I cannot say they are wrong..
How can i have one whenever it was taken and now im lost in the world without it
Making every possible leap of faith i can just to maybe have it back in my hands.
Yes i am heartless
But ive never meet someone with a heart as big as mine.
Sometimes doing for yourself will put you in the middle of a chaotic situation. Just stay focused and remember you are not wrong for taking your love back and giving it back to yourself. If you do not love yourself then you do not carry love to give away. You cannot put two dead batteries in a remote and expect it to change the channel.
48 · Jul 2020
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Nomadic poet Jul 2020
Its all in the name of emptiness
48 · Jun 2020
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Nomadic poet Jun 2020
Understanding is not always comfortable

...

This world is not nice
47 · Jun 2020
Infecting
Nomadic poet Jun 2020
To soothe the pain
Yet ignore the wound
Leaves room for infection
Do not be forced to amputate your love
Stitch yourself up
45 · Jun 2020
Keep moving
Nomadic poet Jun 2020
Thoughts grow heavy
But you're supposed to keep moving
No matter how muddy your feet get
No matter how tired your heart is
You just keep pushing
Until you find yourself
Lost
No more thoughts
Just that heavy heart and sad feeling
45 · Jul 2020
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Nomadic poet Jul 2020
Help them see
It doesnt have to end
With a damaging goodbye
Help him see
Hes everything
Even without me
45 · Jun 2020
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Nomadic poet Jun 2020
Isolation can be lethal
44 · Mar 2020
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Nomadic poet Mar 2020
Dont hesitate.
44 · Jun 2020
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Nomadic poet Jun 2020
Im sad again..
43 · Jul 2020
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Nomadic poet Jul 2020
You'll always be someones bad guy
But
That doesn't mean you are a bad guy
43 · Jul 2020
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Nomadic poet Jul 2020
It only hurts when i try to sleep
43 · Jun 2020
Wrong again.
Nomadic poet Jun 2020
Anger takes over.
I never gained any closure.

How can i be alright..
Just continue to fight?

I felt myself break.
All while he continued to take.

His own pleasure more important than a childs mental stability.
I thought the worst had been done whenever they abandoned us three...but here i am..
Proven wrong again.

I cant seem to comprehend what the end goal ever was. Ive given up on trying to mend.

The wounds you left are far to deep.
A childs innocence is no ones game.

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