I'm feeling Medusa
holier than Moses
The gatekeeper shows me
An eleventh hour ceremony
They're all wearing Rosemary beads
Oh God, it's almost time for the next beheading!
The onlookers consist of arsenic carnivores
They keep opening up my cellar doors
Too late.. You let the dragon loose
Boy has he got news for you
Romeo and Juliet, haven't found the perfect punishment
While Mother Teresa lost her way to Jesus
There went Mcbeth riding the elevator again
Gabriel the angel is chasing Judas's kiss of death
Now isn't that just a little too ludicrous?
Now I'm gathering Julius's book of Genesis
As the gypsy in me, singing the gospel of nickodemus
Trying to get away with the ****** of my scarlet letter
As Medusa carries her anxiety
Wearing those **** Rosemary beads
And it's still not the right consistently
Well, at least me have some memories
i am feeling like Medusa
Am I holier than Moses?
She says she sick sick sick of it
Sick of all the *******

I wrote in his book
they've all gone wild
the cabin lies in salem
there is witchcraft floating there
go at once spirits drift
somewhat bewildered
the afflicted girls
Abby conjured spells by the fire
I never see the devil
he creeps around my window
I hear him while I sleep
strange dreams
a thousand voices
cried spirits! spirits!
and the accused were hung
evil set free
its breathes it breathes

There is this subtle pushing a slight twinge
A shallow tapping underneath the surface of my skin
a slow nudging now and then
It's uncomfortable this knowing and not knowing
I'm stuck ****** and **** out of luck
Tick-tock tick tock the ******* hands on the stupid clock have completely stopped
This is what becomes of this girl
In the same time zone not able to grow grow grow
The cracks start to show up on her worn thin walls
The drips start leaking and the water starts to fall

Lovely binding winding words
release their strength of scheming curse
weaving and twisting through gruesome trails
writhing indecent upon grit and nails
is this the bed I've slaved for sleep?
Or where my sadness go to weep?
this transformed new, epiphany of mine
Has worked it's way thru this soul of mine
I douse the bed with gasoline and light the match and watch it gleam!
The beautiful flames catch my eyes
I walk away to my new life

Well I'm taking off my skin i'm tearing through the thick of it
Shedding like a snake I want to be this, next week
Yes I know smoking is bad for my health but the surgeon general doesn't follow me around anymore
I see the silly boys standing Around bullshiting
Talking tough and hitting on the pretty girls
I take my Marlboro cigarette
Slowly bring it to my lips
And walk right past them with a slight smirk
Leaving them guessing is my favorite perk
The call me unruly and the Marlboro queen
All these rules just not my scene
The little angel that you are picking up on
Spouts ditty words swears and gambles
My pack of reds and lipstick cherry red
A true original unlike the others
Won’t follow the crowd or take orders
I’m bored today think I’ll start a revolution
Or just go to church for absolution

Her sinister smiling soul
hungry dripping severed ache
bites and tears consumes my flesh
then tenderly nips , meets my breast
wicked
crooked
down leaning spine
creeps over and under weaving twine
upon its ever icy ache
cautious
frozen
freezing place
a tender kiss stops cold and stiff
remains a mid air inhuman glitch
I love the way you harshly move
jutting your words to match your mood
her taste still striking at my tongue
creeps crooked soft lit spun

I pull together the parts of me
Hidden and safe from those who may see
I find some glue and pretend I knew
That shy shattered little girl of my youth
I put myself back together
like a broken china doll
a million shards of porcelain surround me as I fall
I gather up increments of myself
there is life in these tiny pieces
And if you look close enough the glimmer of a soul will spark
I repaint her tiny eyes
so that they remain open, aware and wide
The cracks remain like tiny veins
Their little voice is what remains
Whisper in my porcelain ear
Steel yourself from past flaws
Know that you are a beautiful china doll
Do not let the evil prevail
Release yourself from their jail
The derelict are ignorant and stale
Return to your former state
Before their hurtful words of hate

A twirling thought made its way
Onto the surface of the day
these strange days, seem to slide
Flowing in and out of my fragile mind
The gap above slowed it's tune
Rising stars and falling moons
My tornado is coming soon

And the feeling is my Mood
Just another selfish Jude
Sarcastic mess is my fault
Just the way I harshly talk
I feel a tornado on my skin
The winds have come now I burden
It's digging deep and digging in
Burrowing its claws, deep and the most distant
Coming Crawling Creeping Closer
And so my tornado hits
breaches all parallels
Tingy pitch on my guitar
Lash out, scream lyrics. talk tough
A failed attempt my sweet loser
My tornado took me over

I tried to **** it
But if came back to life
I tried to choke it
But it refused to die
I took my car and ran it over
But it just gave  me a smile
I tried to drown it
But it kept on breathing
I left it dying
But it went back to being
I pushed it in front of a moving train
But no luck as of yet, it still remains
One time I locked it in a room that had no door
But it managed to escape and punish me some more
I left it in the middle of nowhere
But it refused to get lost
I pushed it down a flight of stairs
But that only ****** it off
I poured gasoline on it and lit a match
But it refused to burn and proceeded to laugh
I tired to convince it, it doesn't exist
It refused to believe me, then cruely hissed
I tried to bury it deep underground
But it dug a way out thru a hole it found
I tried to shoot it in the chest
But of course it was wearing a bulletproof vest
My list of premeditated plans of the destruction of "it"
Has not gone well, in fact the opposite!

I haven't found the way to heaven
And I don't know who my friends are
So I peeled away my victims
Just to see them all unravel
I think it's time I start my engine
And kick up some dust and gravel
Just where did all those f@$kers go?
Maybe down to Mexico...
Maybe  a visit to these "friends" of mine
I'll pay them back for their so called time
I'll take a gun and some amunitition
Just in case they fail to listen
Of course poison is another way
To **** them all and walk away
I'll buy them all a round of drinks
Even wish them happy things
I will smile and wave as they go down
Then drive away to another town....

Little four star CD *****
Jesus been divorced before
She's a jewel cave solar day
In the middle of a tidle wave
She's glaring at the antichrist
He's using faded pick up lines
She's just another drama queen
Trying to steal another scene
Is it your New Orleans drunken feeling?
Is it crawling up the ***** ceiling?
Are you small in her opinion?
Did she already make her decision?
She will leave you broken hearted
You won't even know she departed
Took off while you were asleep
She was never yours to keep
You wake up in your cheap motel
Headache, hungover, alone as hell
No money, no car, no credit cards
Just pain and hurt and some deep scars

Sad eyed virgins screaming their silence
to glaring Christs calming the violence
devils awaiting their new arrivals
innocent angels motionless on pedestals
untouched mortals awaiting their birth
to a new day
a new world
with unforgiven earth

Scratching tearing at my flesh
Her way of saying "Hi" I guess
Strangers! Voices! Imposters! ! Pests!
Impeding my person
Unwelcome guests!
Locks, Chains, Concrete Walls, Barbwire
Will not stop them from her mission
Maybe I should set them on  fire?
Or would that hinder my current condition?
She is always lurking
Stalking my every thought
Holding them hostage
Turning them against me!
Like a ONE woman army
Can anything stop her?
Is there a pill to make her go away?
I have tried so many and yet here "she" stays.

Lightning struck her darkened soul
So the story now unfolds
Can I come out of my cage she says
To the voice up there in thread
I swear you are beautiful and mean
But I love the way you look at me
I hold your anger and kiss your rage
You lock me in this pretty cage
A tiny ray of sun casts thin
Come closer and I'll let you in
I dare not blink or cringe my eye
So not to miss a ounce of light
And in this place I have been so long
A soft voice sings a beautiful lonely song
I dream of past sun lit days
Then wake up in his black space

Dragged along my broken shore
Swallowed by their waves once more
Undressed, sedated, restrained to a bed
"We want to help you" they calmly said

Crimes against my soul I cried!
There is no pill to ease this mind
I stare unaware drugged confused
My fractured mind had come unglued
Broken shattered was the wall
That held back my White Squall

And while it came crashing in
In pieces, shards all worn thin
I couldn't see my tide was high
Ready to break at a moments time

Years and years of wear and tear
A cracked formed and could not bare
One more assault against my soul
It all caved in, I lost control

Light beams scatter through the air
A thousand stars react when you stare
Diamonds shatter amoung your glance
The tallest mountains never stood a chance
The sun shines brighter just for you
The moon himself gives you a better view
A note sounds sweeter as it flows
In and out of sound it goes
Waves bow down and change their tide
The trees sway in rhythm as you walk by...
Do you even know your own weight?
Your worth more than gold and so I wait...

She struts undaunted through lashes of light
Knowingly aware of her laden flight
Reluctantly edging upon treacherous ground
Carefully choosing her vision around
Ever forward with power and skill
Fearing no fear with untainted will
Emacualte eyesight to guide and lead
Toned and buff like an outlawed breed
Like something carved from marble stone
Her mind is set
She rides alone
Silently charging, she battles endless
Completing  her journey of anger and madness
Armored with the pain of her dying tribe
A warrior on a mission to set things right