Humbled by your grace
I am amazed at all you do for me
Stumbled in a daze
Upon your gaze
And into clarity
I fall to your embrace
Find solace in your ways
It might sound a little crazy
But believe me when I say
That you mean the world to me
My sweet and beautiful Trinity

My heart beats effervescently
When I feel you next to me
My mind begins to wander
Whenever you’re away
I hate to say goodbye
Because I’m desperate to stay
It hurts to let you go
Because you are a part of me

When I feel the darkness creeping over
You are the light that guides my way
When I feel the pain of being sober
You let me know that it’s okay
And when I feel the weight lift off my shoulders
You are the only one to blame
Because I know my pain is over
When I stumble upon your gaze

Substitution,
There is no resolution
To the thoughts inside my head

Evolution,
But there is no revolution,
And it's hard for me to accept

That sometimes we feel pain
To make it go away

And to learn from our mistakes
And to move on to better days

Self reflection,
Has been my one connection,
But that was until I met you

Resurrected,
From the dead, I am indebted
You have shown me something new

Changing direction,
Because I'm feeling a connection
So much stronger, so more true

I follow you,
You are the light that guides my way
Because the light that lives inside of me
Is trapped behind a cage

But I know not to be afraid,
For I am safe inside your gaze

And I will give my light away,
So it can shine on better days,

New solution,
That will lead me to conclusion
I will shine more brightly for you

That is what I'll do

I’ve got
A lot
Of bad inside of me
So much sometimes,
It's hard to breathe
I know inside I'm
Suffocating,
But in my heart,
Anticipating
And waiting
To feel her gaze on me
Because in that moment
I will be free
From the misery
And finally be..

I hate living this way
Standing on display
For all the world to see
The flaws that make up me

A year and a half is all it takes
For a loving soul to throw me away
Our time together felt so small
Did you even care at all?

It hurt to see you so glad
After all the wonderful times we had
You found another one better than me
And you didn't think that I could see

But this year and a half
Was so important to me
I felt so useful
I felt so complete

You took me in,
I don't know why
But you became my friend
When everyone else just passed me by

You would lay on me
So comfortably
And watch tv
Until you fell asleep

Coming home from a stressful day
And looking at me with such relief
It was almost as if we were made for each other
But now it is clear, you were made for another

At least from what I can see,
Stuck here on the street

I am standing here on display,
Like before you took me away
Only then I was new
And now I am used

Who would ever want me?

Cars keep passing by,
Judging me by what they see
Just another piece of trash
I guess that's what I am

Dirt has covered my eyes,
It's hard for me to see
I really don't want to die,
But I wish I wasn't me

I hear a muffled noise
It's coming in more clearly
And then I hear a voice,
Could this truly be?

"You are coming home with me"

Now I'm glad she threw me out
I'm treated so much better now
Once was lost, but now I've found
I am more than just a couch

She is your
Picture of perfection
In every measurable way

She loves you,
There's no question
She tells you every day

She tastes your
Deep obsession with
Her lips upon your face

She sees your
Every feature and
She sees more than just mistakes

She looks at you
In such a way that
Words cannot explain . . .

Behind your foggy eyes,
There's no disguise to
Shield your insecurity

Beyond those words
That fall so short
You simply say,
"I love you, Trinity."

She is your one exception
Because she knows
Your state of mind

She is your own reflection
Because you see her
Every time

You look into the mirror,
Searching for security

In your tortured mind
There is no fear

Because your thoughts
Emit a melody

In your well-worn heart,
You hear her

And reflecting back
You see

A picture of perfection
Looking back in your direction

Shattered glass,
Scatters the floor now
Stained red by the
Things it once held
Closest inside it

Fallen so fast,
Can't understand how
Overcome by
The urge to delve
Further inside and

The pain only lasts
Til the heart hits the ground
All that's left is the mind
Always tortures itself
But the love still resides in

The shattered glass

"Please"
She pleas,
From a distance
Behind me

"Please!"
She screams,
Although, all
That I see

Are memories
Of somebody
That I used
To believe

Please,
I plea..
Just leave
Me be

Please!
I scream, but
There is no one
Behind me

Dedicated,
To the solemn thoughts
That give me solace
I am

Isolated,
From the world outside
This sick strange darkness
Has me

Inebriated,
Stumbling over
My good intentions
To be

Vindicated,
My conscience kills me
Fallen into false pretense
And I am

A clouded mind

Drops of rain against the window pane
Sink into each wooden grain
Thoughts come flooding into my brain
Close behind come waves of pain

Crashing all around me
All I can see is rain
I want this pain to go away

"Two a day"
The doctors say
"Take two a day,
and the pain
will go away"

And two a day
Is what I take
To numb the pain

But still remains
The pain inside
My brain

Send your condolences,
I'm falling
Please don't forget
I'm calling
Out the name in which
I'm falling for
Is you

I am just a foolish fisherman
Fishing for the fish for me
Of all the fish in this blue sea
Only one is right for me

I wake at dusk
And cast til dawn
I catch a few
And throw them back
They're not the one for me

Day by day I try
But all to no avail
This lonely heart can only think
Maybe there is no fish for me

Day by day I waste away
When a fish approaches me
Casts its line, and reels me in
This fish has captured me

I am just a foolish fisherman
But my heart is filled with glee
Today I've learned a lesson
I, too, am a fish inside the sea

All the things left behind
All these crumpled memories
They still remain in mynd
I am lost inside of me

Glimpse inside of mynd
And you will find
Stubborn thoughts
With no beginning

I am lost inside of me, you see
Searching for my identity
My map is torn and I've broken the key
But still I search for me

Glimpse inside of mynd
And you will see
Broken pieces in search of




Me

To be or not to be,
That is the question
That captivates my thoughts,
And haunts my dreams
To be or not to be,
This is the question
That haunts me

To be or not to be
That truly is the question
Gets lost inside
The troubled mind
And brings the heart
To question

Is pain a part of living?
Or is death life's great deception?
Is joy found in the journey?
Or is it a distant destination?

To be or not to be,
Is still the question
That haunts me
Until the day I lay
My soul to sleep
I'll draw my final breath and say,
To be or not to be

***, drugs, money & music
it sounds like the dream
but it's just an excuse
and I wanna be clean
and I've tried to refuse
but it keeps calling me
and I'm afraid that I'll lose
all the good things in me
if I give in and use
but I'm in desperate need
Of a f*cking excuse

So one more time
I'll quit it tomorrow,
I just need one more night
to gather my thoughts
and leave my troubles behind

I don't pretend to be a fool
And I don't try to be cool
I just try to live a normal life
and turn my back to the cruel, cruel
world that I'm living in
full of temptations
good things come and go
but I have one thing that stays and it's
the only thing I trust because it
carries me away from this
cruel, cruel world that I'm living in

I gaze up at the stars,
Start filling with confliction
Parts of me are lost in space,
Just beyond my furthest reach

All that remains of me, it seems
Are twisted memories

The broken pieces left to die
As fragments in the sky