Nisha: Poems

179 · Dec 2021

Nisha Dec 2021

Constantly repeating myself
Having the same conversations over again
Listening to every word they say
Knowing they won't be listening to me
Talking to walls
Wishing for someone to hear me
Waiting to be acknowledged
Hoping to finally speak to people again
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When talking to my family it never feels like a real conversation. Talking to them is like talking to a wall.

176 · Jan 2022

What is Love?

Nisha Jan 2022

What is Love?

I can't define it
Nor have I seen a good example of it
It can be mistaken for lust
Which I have done many times before
This word or feeling called 'love'
Is foreign to me
It is scientifically irrational
A feeling that many have told me that I'm incapable of feeling
I envy those who are in love
It's something I truly desire
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Who can define love
What does love feel like
When is one ready to love
Where does love come from
Why is it hard to find
and How does one love

175 · Oct 2021

Cold Space

Nisha Oct 2021

Cold Space

The cold surrounds me

Sleeping alone in the cold without warmth by my side

The cold surrounds me

The space to my right, cold and empty

The cold surrounds me

Moving closer to the space on my right and leaving another cold gap to my left

The cold surrounds me

Thinking about the warmth that could one day fill that space

The warmth smothers me

Those thoughts fade away as I'm reminded of the cold that awaits me

The cold surrounds me

My heart being just as cold, guarded with walls knowing that warmth will never have me

The cold surrounds me again

Alone I remained and always been, as I shuddered in the cold

The cold forever surrounds me

I yearned for warmth but could never attain it for I was meant to be alone

I surrendered to the cold

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This piece contains my true feelings for winter. Winter is my favorite season. Although, I'm happy, pain always seems to follow behind. Embrace your pain and don't ignore it. -Nisha

174 · Oct 2021

Working with a Purpose

Nisha Oct 2021

Working with a Purpose

Feet hurting but it will all be worth it
Telling white lies because I refuse to forfeit
Not ashamed of what I've done, we're all imperfect
Saving up cash for my family so they can be sorted
I hope this rhyme will be easy for you to interpret
Started being selfish because I deserve it
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Short and simple :]

170 · May 2022

Adulthood

Nisha May 2022

Adulthood

Getting closer to no where
Trying to hang on
Can't feel my feet
Working till I can't no more
Two jobs on my back
More bills on my shoulders
Feeding my family
Hate being sober
Chest feeling heavy
Adulthood taking over
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164 · Oct 2021

Acceptance

Nisha Oct 2021

Acceptance

I dream of shallow waters and dancing lights surrounded by the moonlight
It's gleaming light reminds me that I'm not alone
Walking through the darkness hand and hand with hope
I see faith looking down upon me from the stars
With an unbiased eye they look at my scars
Accepting me for who I am and the world I am from
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I also wrote this poem in July when I was healing. Throughout the process of coming to terms with my emotions. I still kept writing even though I was having a hard time.

163 · Jun 2022

Self Sabotage

Nisha Jun 2022

Self Sabotage

I can guarantee I've met the one fated for me
I ruined my chance and set him free
Now and then it crosses my mind
That someone was meant for me
Another chance I get, and I've done it again
Pushing away the ones whose love was given to me
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159 · Mar 2022

Your My Routine

Nisha Mar 2022

Your My Routine

Talking to someone every night sometimes until the sky turned blue or even almost every day it's like a routine, devoting all your time to only that one person but when it all stops.
It's like being homesick or feeling abandoned. It's a weird feeling to have towards a person but it's what your use to. Getting anxious every time they leave or even desperate sometimes. When they return it's like being whole again or finding the missing piece to your puzzle
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149 · Nov 2021

Goodbye Bestfriend

Nisha Nov 2021

Goodbye Bestfriend

I feel you fading away
Your presence drifting further away from me
Leaving a void behind where you used to be
Reminiscing about all of our time together
Wondering how we've strayed from one another
Losing hope that we could ever get back the time we lost
Never saying the words that I really wanted to tell you
I felt you fade away
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My bestfriend and I haven't spoken in so long but I knew that are time was over. We were growing older and growing apart.

146 · Dec 2021

Choking

Nisha Dec 2021

Choking

Waking up coughing
Not breathing
Throat closing
Choking as I gasped for air
Here I am again...
Another restless night
Not being able to breathe
Just thankful that I'm still here
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I hope one day that it doesn't happen again.

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