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Dec 2021 · 384
November the 9th
NikMazza Dec 2021
October is gone, November begins
Forgive me doc. for I have sinned
I lost all my colors while chasing a dream
Longing to be but dust in the wind

A smile in the dark, a drop of paint at sight
I might not been strong, yet I never ceased to try
Take my hand while you gaze into my eyes
But don't stare for long, the oxytocin is making me high

Everytime you laugh it brightens the room
I hope you never know what your wit and charm can do
November the 9th its just me and you
Lets dance till sunrise under the light of the moon

Comfortably in love, a leap of faith, my great stride
I used to be lost and my end was nigh
You opened the door and taught me the beauty of life
Now all I wanna do is live to be by your side
Apr 2020 · 165
Covid
NikMazza Apr 2020
Take a look at these walls and answer me this
Are they closing in or is it just me?
I'm a good boy, I stay at home and in line
Days turns into weeks while I'm losing my mind

The world is shrinking, collapsing within
Wake, work, eat and repeat, the loop I'm trapped in

Tangled in this slumber, biding my time
How can I seize the day without you by my side?
Give me a flower or a sword to fill me with drive
I'm in need of meaning, a reason to be alive

Unwilling to cook, heal or take care of myself
When all you need is hope, what good is a car, money or wealth?

I was born to be free, unchained from want and need
Yet here I am, missing your smile and the way you look at me
I thank the screens for the view they share
Call me a friend or a soul who cares

Alone in this room, Adam without Eve
I look at the mirror and watch myself bleed

It's me and myself, the battle resumes
Dig dig dig, one or two tombs
Fed one, fed the other, can't bring them to peace
My mind is at war, I'm now on my knees...
Get me out of here!
Jul 2019 · 179
Snowflake
NikMazza Jul 2019
Noices and voices scrambled far and near
Broken is wheel that my soul cant heal

Unworthy is the gifted, wounded is my pride
Wouldnt I be better off if my dreams simply died

Cancel the show, turn off the lights
Lets get over with and cease all the fights

My shadow in the corner, a silhouette in the hall
If I am winter, she is the snow
This is a poem i did in memory of the day i met my girlfriend.
I was very depressed, medicated and was having suicidal thoughts.
Some friends came home per my request to help me get out of that dark place and we went dancing.
I saw her dancing, smiling and having fun. I wont say it was love at first sight, but i can say that she is the best part of me.
Oct 2018 · 194
Cyclothymia
NikMazza Oct 2018
A stranger adrift, shattered
pieces sinking, flaws and virtues alike
i try my best not to get into trouble, but i
i've got a war in my mind

i watch the clouds darken as the sun goes down
knowledge brightens the night

all dressed up with no where to go
lets hitch this winged ship and roam for a while
escape the plunging waves of these troublesome seas
leave the daily nuances behind

perpetually defiled
i accept who i am

— The End —