They say actions speak louder than words but you’ve taught me otherwise
Your actions say you love me by brining me flowers, opening the car door, and taking me on romantic date
Behind closed doors though all I hear is how I’m not pretty enough or I’m too fat
So what should I believe your actions or your words?

Every day I don’t wake up beside you it gets harder to breathe.
I feel my lungs gasping for air yet it seems I’ve forgotten how to breathe.
I long for the day when I finally learn how to breathe again.

I saw the color of your eyes
The color I longed to see
But when you walked away
All I could see was your blurry figure
For the tears in my eyes had consumed me

I get lost in the depth of your eyes
They’re a beautiful sea that longs to be explored
And I can’t wait for the day I can explore every inch of your beautiful sea

I’ll never meet you, hold you, kiss you, or watch you grow up
I decided I just wasn’t ready to handle those things

At first I felt no guilt, no remorse, no sadness; I felt nothing

And now this cloud of rain follows me everywhere I go. And I see you in my eyes, and in his eyes. And I can’t help but wonder if I made the right decision by ending it all.

You lit a fire in my heart
One that burned brighter than the sun
When you left me the fire died
Leaving nothing but embers for someone else to start

Everyday I try to forget you
I try to forget our long conversations, the way you smelled, your contagious laugh, and the way you scrunched your nose
But what’s worse of all is trying to forget you when you were never mine to begin with

7th grade English class was when we first met
Slowly we became friends and after awhile best friends
You were there for me when I had my first crush and then my first heartbreak
One day you disappeared without a word
And I just hope one day you can find your way back home

Every night before we closed our eyes the last  words that would leave our lips were I love you . Now silence fills the empty room leaving me to wonder when I love you turned into goodbye

Do you remember the way we said goodbye?
I walked toward you and you kissed me
I told you goodbye and you said that goodbye is not forever
My head knew it was but my heart never learned

Only half of a percent of my life was spent with you.
And yet I’m reminded of you everyday.
When I hear our first slow dance song I remember the way it felt to be close to you.
When I hear someone say your name I hope that you’ll be right behind me telling me you miss me.
And even though you spent such little time in my life I can’t help but miss you.
Because that half of a percent was the greatest time in my life

When I’m sober I love you.
I see a future with you.
I think of all the great times we’ve had together and how I couldn’t stomach losing you forever


When I’m high I hate you.
I see our future come crumbling down right before my eyes.
I think of all the fights we’ve had and how much better I would be without you.

I remember you getting out the wooden board. It meant I could finally get the fix I had been craving for so long. Line after line I fell more in love with you and decided we should take this back to your place. That night was full passion and heat; it was a high I never thought was possible.

Today I looked into your eyes like I do every morning
Like I have for the last two years
Except this morning was different
For the first time I saw nothing

This is it.
It’s the relationship I’ve always dreamed of having, the one you see in romantic comedies. The one you always hope to find but are never sure you actually will. You make me laugh uncontrollably, let me know I’m loved, and accept my goofiness.
But most importantly you’ve made me believe in love again.

Today we would have been together for 5 years.
But 3 months ago you confessed to me you never loved me.
You told me I was your consolation prize.
Your heart belonged to a girl you loved since the day your eyes locked when I first introduced you.
And now I’m picking up the pieces of my broken heart, and trying to learn how to love again

One week. That’s how long I’ve know you. Every time I’m with you I feel myself falling more and more for you. And even though I’ve only known you for one week; I knew since the day I met you I could love you.

Today for the first time I finally realized something. All these years I’ve been lying to myself. Pretending to be happy and madly in love. And I don’t know what’s worse me pretending or nobody noticing

Laughter and a crackling fire filled the air. None of us caring about what lay ahead. For while we would soon embark on our journeys we would always remember that night.

You tell me how men should treat me like you treat mom, but we both know Mom deserves better.
Remember the times she layed awake crying, knowing you were holding someone else the way you used to hold her?
So when I let a man treat me less than my worth how can you be mad?
After all I’m following your example

You came into my life at just the right time
You made me feel loved and wanted
But when you got dressed I could see it in your eyes
I was just another number to go and tell your friends about

when I stumbled into your arms I wasn’t looking for love
I told myself it was just dream
And now here we are saying our vows
In the blink of an eye I found my one in a million

Looking into your eyes is like looking outside after it rains
There’s a certain peace after a rainstorm
And I feel that every time I look at you
You are the peace to my rainstorm

I remember your breath on my neck
I remember your hand on my thigh
I remember waking up sore
I remember my clothes being scattered around the floor
But worst of all I remember the look in your eyes as I asked you to stop

Do you remember our first time, well my first time, and your millionth time?
I remember how scared I was and how you calmed me down. I thought this is it. I made the right decision by giving it up to you.
Do you remember walking out the door and never looking back? I remember feeling lost and broken.
I gave you something I could never give anyone else. I gave you a piece of me that I’ll never get back.

It was a Friday afternoon on a bright sunny day. You laughed at my stupid joke and made one of your own. Then you asked for my number. I hesitated because cute boys like you never ask for my number, but I gave it to you anyway. And everyday since then I’ve been falling more and more in love with you.

2,370
That’s how many days it’s been since I uttered my last word to you. And yet even after all these days I still think of you. I think how even though I’m with him you will always have a piece of my heart. You will always be my one true love

You never got a chance to come into this world
Your dad and I would’ve loved to have met you
But we knew that we weren’t ready
We knew that we couldn’t provide you the life we wanted to give you
But I promise you we will mourn the loss for the rest of our lives and you will always hold a special place in our heart
Mom and dad will always love you and I know we’ll meet again one day

Everyday I waited
I waited to feel your touch
I waited to wake up next to you
I waited for one more kiss
I waited until my time was up