Let it rain red
Let it rain red
It's empty to be filled with noise
It's empty but i'm hardly admitting it
It's empty and it cannot be replaced
It's empty like a numb hole of pain
It's just empty for me to be lighter
It's empty so I could reach the sky
It's empty for a lesson to be learned
It's empty it's ******* empty
Let it rain red
Let it rain red
To melt my skin
To tear it apart
Knees on the floor
Begging for it to rain
Once it's here once it's gone
It's empty
Let it rain to awake me
I can't get out of this dream
Like an elastic transparent wall
Oh i've missed a lot and I will miss more
It's too late to tell the stories that I wanted to tell
It's too late to solve the reasons of the puzzle
It's too late to realize that i've been needing it
I am the healer I am the cure but once it's here noise fill it, sadistic noise of laughs
It's empty.

I'm running away until it catches me
The mental germs of denial that I needed to face
A memory that I can't hold onto anymore
My trash is full tonight and yet I threw nothing
The smell of germs reminds me of sorrow
I left to feel a muscle on my face smiling
I left and I never shed a tear
But tonight I'm letting it fade
A time-lapse of each beat I felt
I feel it again and then its gone forever
I know I know that I'm turning into someone new
I know that I fear myself when Im alone
But now Im laying down remembering it all for it to be gone
Farewell the toxic fairytale
We shall never meet again

***** smell in the hallways
The midnight light sinking in
Wheels of a chair rolling
Tired body unable to weep
Metal cuff on a tiny leg
The loud sound of screaming
Trunk of a jeep closing
Tired lungs unable to breath
Warm shoulder on the bed
The sugar coated lies
A heart feeling safe
Tired head of all of this
Dark shadows of clouds
The shinny pet is abandoned
Reality is awakening
Hungry for an anesthesia

She heard a man saying to be a human is to feel
To reach extremes of emotions is to live
She shed a tear
Her lungs are knocking to breath
It's toxic deep inside
She's choked
She's only messy thoughts
She's shaking a leg
Breath, I know you, you are anxious hiding inside a smile
She's choked
She can't be awake
She can't be sober
She's choking
Until she sallow a pill
two
three
Until she stops craving death

The perfume smell
I'm drawn
Each one
And each smell
Each smile
And each slim finger
I'm drawn to them
Each one with a kingdom
Each one is a queen
Each one with a story
Each one is a beautiful soul
I beat for them
Soberness is painful
To be awake
To think
They are my drug
Until I'm numb
I reach the sky
Then I fall for one's wings to fly
They are an inspiration
They are a memory
They are a lesson
They are a pleasure

We lay on my bed
We kiss
I only hear her breath
I wrote poetry on her skin
We talk
About shows and books
About life and love
I called her the comfortable pillow
I called her the after rain smell
I got lost inside my mind and walked away
And now
I miss our two months of infatuation