Hey life.
I've been missed up
Hey life
Society ****** me up
Hey life
What are the norms?
Hey people
Where are your standards years ago?
Hey people
You are not holy angels
Shut the **** up
Hey religion
Stop mixing up with the tradition
Hey self
Stand on your own
Hey self
Seek what you desire
Hey self
I'm sorry I killed you so many times
Hey I'm born again
Hey I'm born again
Hey I'm born again
I died to live
I died to see
I'm relic

I'm a sailor in the ocean of dreams wishing for mine to be true
in the middle of no where but waves of sorrow
I threw my anchor to the endless road below but it failed to catch the ground
my boat shattered the waves froze in a moment of hopelessness a bleeding heart for faith I met the cure of it all
The mermaid of the ocean the savior of the anchor and the love of my life
She told me that the ocean is cursed and I can wish for anything but her
I told her I will ink her own my soul an anchor like the one she saved because my love for her is deeper than the ground of waves
it's never enough for me to love her it's only enough when I'm drowned and locked like a shell of pearl
She screamed of sadness
Sail away sailor sail away it's not meant to be
The ocean will turn to red and a nightmare will be awake

Forgive me for not falling in love once
Forgive me for not keeping a promise
Forgive me for using you for my own defense
Forgive me for selling you to my own pleasure
Forgive me for all the broken hearts
Forgive me for my manipulation
Forgive me for pricing you
Forgive me my words
Forgive me my letters
I fear joy when it to the extreme
I fear wings when they flutter
I fear the lose of control
I fear the fade of desire
You are the slave of my mind
And I'm a slave of yours

Shall I write again?
or just dance with my cactus friend?
I'm far away of being lost..
I'm just following the rhythm of Piano Man
Oh La La Di Dee Da Dum
trying to put some sense in my words
trying to sing a song that rhyme
but I'm far away of being lost..
and I got no ***** to burn my throat
and I got no cigarette to burn my lungs
and I got no love to burn my logic
and I got no hope to fill that little beating ***** inside of me
Catching the train of life with the melody of old songs
Catching the train of life with open curtains
But I'm still locked inside the head of mine
and I got no escape  
Only if I could swallow the freedom of my own mind
Only if I could dust away the blurry vision of mine
Only if I could touch the smile deep inside
I will be away to feel again

I met a stranger tonight
She was wearing a hat
She looked at me and asked
If she could take the bracelet on my wrist
She told me it will look prettier on her wrist
I agreed
Then she gave me a bracelet of hers
To remember her she said
She asked if she could kiss my hand
An hour later she was lying on a couch
She told me she took three pills and smoked four joints
I asked her if she's escaping life
I heard silence and saw wide open eyes
I know nothing but her name
Her name was like mine
The Indian definition of soul
And the Hebrew meaning of a female ruler
She closed her eyes
A black eyeliner painted wings on her lids
I smiled.
She felt it and opened her eyes
I smiled again.
Her tired lips stretched to a lazy smile
She said I'm weird and I act like her
I told her we should be friends
She asked if I'm escaping life too
Yes that's what I do
She closed her eyes to dream of an empty life
And I went to bed to write the night

Twenty one years have passed and I still can't figure it out
I used to wake up with a fresh smile to understand the world that I'm living
But I ended up waking up with the smell of death
I failed you my young soul to understand the world
I failed to be there
I failed to be what I should be
I failed to know
But what scares me the most is that I no longer care to know.. I no longer seek answers..
I smell of death
I smell of death
I ache.
I ache.
To die.
Sun down
I can't figure it out
I ache every night to burn the skin
I close my eyes to feel it
I see blood I smell guilt
I crave death I crave pain
I wake up with scars and messed up thoughts
And then I'm empty
And then I'm numb
And then I'm dry
I breathe dust
I taste dirt
I'm restless
I'm aimless
Thirsty to suffer

She and I
We have weird desires
I like to choke
She likes to bite
I like to bleed
She likes to hit
I crave pain
She seeks my freedom
I'm lost
She's there
To a journey full of sick adventures
I ask for death
She serve it in a golden plate
We do no good for each other
But we ended together