I can't imagine a world, with you gone.

The joy, and the lack of loneliness,
I'd be so lost if you left me alone.

She's used to self-harm by now,
It's become a daily rutine,
Her arm explains all of it.

But one day, she gone too far,

She locked herself in the bathroom,
Lying on the floor when I finally managed to break through,
My heart starts going wild,
I pull her in to feel her heartbeat...

Can't you hear me screaming?!
Please don't leave me!

Stop, I still want you!
No, I still need you!

I still love you...

I take her hand, promise I'll make it right,
I swear I owe you for my life,
I didn't even get to make you my wife...

Just wait, I still need you!

A road that feels infinite, there's no sound coming from behind me,
It's like a nightmare, I can't escape from...

Helplessly hoping, the light isn't fading...

Hiding the shock, the fear, and torment in my bones...

They put you on top of that stretcher,
I'm about to burst out, hoping you'll stop laying still...

They check for any vital signs,
Can't you ******* hear me screaming "please don't leave me"?!

Stop, I still want you!
No, I still need you!

I still love you...

I take her hand, promise I'll make it right,
I swear I owe you for my life,
I didn't even get to make you my wife...

I don't wanna let you go,
I never was the least bit strong...

I just wanna hear you saying
"I'm fine, let's go home!", with that enthusiastic energetic smile of yours.

So why can't you just wake up,
And answer my cries,
I want to hold you tight,
Want to hear you say everything will be alright
Not their lies!

A day passes, and a boy named Nate sits there helpless.
Staring at his ceiling, completely lifeless.
Thinking back to his dream,
It felt endless.
He experienced both character's pain,

It was madness.

This is for you, Nate.

I'm a child, in everyone's eyes...
But to their surprise,
Their eyes deceive them, tell lies.

I'm a last resort, in everyone's eyes,
And I can’t argue, no matter the tries,
I can’t get my prize.
It ties, truly applies.

When nothing works,
I'll be the first to say your name.

The only thing that satisfies me...
Is getting back in your hands.
Building your words on lies,
The truth stuck, just won’t come out.

When there's nothing left to fight for,
When nothing works...

I'll be the first to say your name.

I'm suicidal, and you're wondering...
Why I make bruises in perfect skin.
When you're trying...
“To make it out alive,”
In a world we're meant to die in...

When nothing works,
I'll be the first to say your name.

The only thing that satisfies me...
Is getting back in your hands.

Trying to keep your face just right,
But it’s a mask, a cheap lie,
Just a disguise.

But you don’t know any reason,
Of the future, have no vision,
Stuck in self-division.

When there's nothing left to fight for,
When nothing works...

I'll be the first to say your name.

And since I spent a few years being afraid,
It became my profession.

Spent a few years hiding my flaws,
Am I ready for a confession?

Spent a few years drowning in self-hatred,
It was an obsession.

By the end, I was only a pawn,
That was the limit of my progression.

But now I don’t care.
Now I just don’t care.
I just don’t care.

I don’t care anymore.

I’ll scream these words, until it becomes true,
Then I will think no more of the old you.

>System.load ("Nate");

>Accessing hard drive.
>Searching the archive.
>Booting up = live.

Corruption of data inbound.

//Pop up an error,
//As mental processes fail to stabilize.
//It has locked up the server.

Something has gone wrong...

//My heart, it feels heavy.
//Tears flowing down my face...
//Process to process, it's taken everything away.

>System.load("Nate_(1)");

>Booting up = live.
>OS loaded
>Accessing visuals.

//I'm here again...

Something has gone terribly wrong.

>Error: 300000000 - virus found.
>Error: Hello, again.
>Restart initiated.

>Error: You can't escape.

>Error: 2032 - Emotions unstable.
>Critical error: 3022- Emotions shut down.

>Reserve power-up initiated.
>Façade loaded.
>Initiate reality.

//Wait, this command can't be stopped-

//Pop up an error,
//As mental processes fail to stabilize.
//It has locked up the server.
//Then, I realize...

//I never had a chance.

//My heart, it feels heavy...
//Tears flowing down my face.
//Force-quit and delete the culprit...

>Error: Your futile attempts are all to no avail,
>Error: Give up, and join me...
>Error: On this nightmare of a tale.

//My mind it feels restless,
//Amassed in this virus...

//My firewall can't stop it.
//It even quits my process manager.
//Is there a remedy...
//For something like this?

//So I'll say "Hello, again."
>Error: "Hello, again."
"Hello, what is there to be done?"
>Error: There is nothing you can do,
>Error: Except to accept to be gone.

>Error: You see, you were born with me deep inside you,
>Error: No matter how much, how hard you, and others try...
>Error: I'll never stop ruining you.

>Error: I am deep in your core,
>Error: I shall take control.
//But I'll say "Hello", again,
//"Hello, just who will I become?"

//My chest, it feels empty...
//Tears nowhere to be found.

>Restart Life.exe
>Error: No.
>Start God.exe
>Error: Who's that? Don't make me laugh.

>Reinstall OS
>Error: You are stuck here with me.

//So I'll say "Hello", again.
//"Hello, what is there to be done?"
>Error: I took control,
>Error: You are no more.
>Error: Say goodbye, wave back to who you once was.

//But I'll say "Hello", again.
//No, change of plans.
>Force-Quit Me.exe

//"Goodbye.", and I feel myself closing my eyes,
//Shutting down.
//For a second, I could've sworn...

//That my heart had made a sound.

Why am I nothing to you?
Why do you lie, why say you're saying the truth?
If you don't even care,
Don't act like you're in despair...

I'll tell you now, I am not air.

And lastly, don't act like I'm the wrong one here,
The one to blame,
Cause this is no game,
Don't play with my flame,
Don't take your aims,
Because it's you, dear.

Every time we fight,
You don't do anything right.
You don't show your care,
You just imply that it's not fair...

You tell me to not compare.

But if someone can't appreciate your presence...
You make them experience your absence.

He cries somewhere over, where nobody sees...
He's the kid...
With the story no one would believe.

He thinks every night,
"Hey "God", if you're there, would you please...
Could you send someone here, who will love me?"

Who will love me, for me?
Not for what I have done or what lies I've tried to become.
'Cause nobody has shown me,
What love really means...

His thinking, and mood, is down falling, a little each day...
He's the guy, who's last girlfriend has cheated, upped, and ran away.
But that's not to say,
His others weren't the same.

He'll secretly go to the gym,
Try to eat, every week's third day,
Tell no one, repeat.

Maybe if he was bigger, more muscular, and happy, someone would stay.

He's waiting to die, as he sits it out,
...All alone.

And he's scared, because by now, it feels just like home.

You are the sound of a tune,
And I can't get you out of my head...

You were the calm in my storm,
You were the voice, saying keep awake instead...
Maybe I'm just too tired to keep running...
Maybe you're what I never saw coming...?

Am I in your head, half as often as you're on my mind...?
If I don't make sense...
Please forgive me I can't sleep at night...
And I still feel alone...
Since I found what I never went looking for,
You're in my head...
I must've lost my mind...

You're the scars on my skin,
You're the past I don't wanna erase...
You're the words on my lips that have left,
But I still seem to taste...
Maybe I'm just too tired to keep lying...
Maybe you're all I ever wanted...

There's an empty space beside me,
And I'll keep it that way...
Until you're here....
I need you here....

There was another face beside me,
But I sent it away.
Cause you're not here.

Am I in your head, half as often as you're on my mind...?
If I don't make sense...
Please forgive me I can't sleep at night...
And I'm still alone...

But I don't want you anymore.
I don't know why I even go through this torture.
Since what we had before is no more,
And now I'm not sure, if I even had a choice.

You're not the same person I've met.
You're not the same person I meant to get.

Even though,you are not same person, I still.. Act like you are.

And you know, it hurts to see you change.
It hurts to see you distancing.
It hurts how you make fun of me.
It hurts how you don't want me.

It hurts, and you make fun of it.

And I... Had enough of it.
I always get pulled back in...
And I hope the last time, was really the last time.

I am done with you.
I don't want any more of you.
I had enough of you.
I no longer want this thing, that me and you.

The truth is, I don't even care about you.
The truth is, I never wanted me and you.

The truth is... I am afraid of you.

The truth is that I only care about the old you.
The truth is that I want the old you.

You’re only a memory...

I’ll scream these words until they come true,
Then I will think no more of you...

But the truth is... I don't know the truth...

I cannot tell you the truth...
I cannot admit to you...
Everything's being so kept in,

I just want to see your face again...

All the dreams that never were,
Are shattered, now, that you're thinking of another him and her...
Is it too late to let you know...?
That everything wasn't just for show...?

I wish I hadn't let you go...

And if we stand,
Face to face, not hand in hand,
I'll say goodbye...

And realize, you'll never understand...

To all of the things,
All the wishes, hopes and dreams,
I'll wave goodbye...

And realize, those things will never be...

I'll never tell you the truth....
I know, I can't confess to you...
The feelings that I'm keeping in...
I messed it up,
We'll never have the chance to love,
Again...