I want to love you
Will all of my being
So why do you insist
On making it so **** hard?

The hardest part is
Even after all this time
The torture and tears
Heartbreak and sorrow
I still love you
And there's still nothing I can do
To make you love me

If I drink enough
Maybe I'll find you
At the bottom of this ******* bottle

Being in such a tropical place
I see the beauty everywhere
Your laughing eyes in the flowers
That gleaming smile tucked away in rays of sun light
And you destructive personality in the heat killing my skin
Just as you did my heart

There are better things to cry about
But somehow it's always you

I stare at these blank pages
Wanting to spill my soul
Knowing **** well
That's there's nothing left to empty

You played so much with smoke and mirrors
I didn't even notice the smoke coming from the fire you set under me

She has your face
This much is true
But with her soul
She wears it better than you

You'd drown me in an instant
Just to take the air from my lungs
Because it was the only thing left
Willing to say your name

I smiled while you laughed at me
Even when I knew you weren't making jokes

Be my muse
Even when you're no longer my passion

My body loved you
Like my heart never could

I was so close to finding happiness in you
Then I realized happiness isn't a person

I wish you would have stolen my liver
So this next bottle would **** me

Like a tree I gave you life
As a human you cut me down
I had more value to you dead

And she was the darkness
made of all things horrid
grown in the sickest of places

And out of her mouth crawled a snake
born of lies and disease
hatched from rancor and despair

And once caught in her path
there was no way out
I was trapped with myself forever

A new comer steps into the ring
He needs not sweat
The strength form his stance can carry this fight
With the burning confidence of a hundred suns
He will prevail over the others
New to the circuit
But all ready at the top
He's a curious creature
Not like the others
He looks and listens and waits
He is patient and calm
Swift and steady
Each victory ding of the bell
More pieces of my heart go to his title

Even the earth wept
Birds took shelter
And the sky took revenge
The addition of this soul
Was too much for all
Even today it rains
Honoring the tragedy
Which still walks the soil

Misery and pain
Are nothing more
Than the remnants
Of expired love

As you rip out my throat
so I know you did it with passion

The rush will send my heart fluttering
and the rubies will pour down my hands

Death which comes from grace
is more like a dance
than a battle
So I will no longer fight you

I am so madly in love with you
Are you enjoying the show?
Watching as the madness destroys me

My beautiful body
Tainted by a wicked mind

The emptiness of nothingness
Cannot be fathomed
Until the moment you become
Used up
And worthless

I listen to those sad songs
In anticipation for when
you make my heart recite them from memory

He isn't your prince
When he stands
on the wrong side
Of the dungeon bars

I can feel it building up inside me
Like a raging storm the waves abuse my heart
I can feel the floods behind my eyes
Wanting to add to the chaos
But in all this madness
The only thing I know how to do is smile
Trying to make the light shine through the cracks

The ******* the other side of the glass looks back
Seeing into her own eyes
Touching the cold space in between the images
Which one was real?

Her heart raced as the cracks chased each other
It's all falling apart
Stepping back trying to keep an image clear
She's losing it

Pieces shatter and slide around the surface
Don't touch- they're sharp
The once clear picture now scrambled at her feet
The shards will make her bleed

Science says that we are mostly water
If that were true then I should be able to melt away
To slip though all of the little cracks
And drift in a direction from it all

But here I still sit
Wishing that if I was not water
That I could be invisible
Even science has no evidence of that ever happening

I'm constantly backed into the corner of society
Friendless and not all there
Riddled with the things that make psychologists giggle
Just someone else's side project

I never thought you'd break my heart
I always figured I would
Be the one to hurt you
Considering my past and history

Maybe that's why I made excuses
Mainly for you
And tried to ignore it all
Because I was supposed to be the villain

The sunset looks so much more
Brutal
Without you

I would do so many bad things
For that one good girl

The morning sun
Kissed my skin
And told me it was okay
To miss you

How sweet is the sirens call
as she sits and waits
Her gaze is beatiful
and dangerous
Her melody so intoxicating
and deadly

Beware the beauty in the shadows
For it's nothing more than filth in the light

The troubles of being the plague
Come with only finding love
From lepers
Who can only be cured in death

Dont speak
It'll keep you from chocking on the wrong words

I got so high last night
That I actually thought
You were a good idea.

He's the kind of simple
The kind to fall in love with all at once
Slow at first
Reaching closer to the apex
From there it's all at once
A snowball
Humor yourself and call it dominos
But I couldn't
It's not a chain reaction between several pieces
It's a mix of his gentle smile
Or the words which bleed his emotion
These simple reasons make me fall
Only me
Because it's only
All for me

Now that you're gone
I just want to be sober
-for the first time in a long time
You had me so ****** up
Time seemed to warp
-and now
I just want to experience life
For all it should have been

I want my coffee white as the snow
And bitter as the man I thought I loved

I've had you playing in my head
Playing on repeat for days
Like every other catchy song before you
I wish I was able to leave you in the past

"What are you looking at, when you get lost in my eyes?"
He had no response so I began again
"In yours I see the storm,
I can see all the ways you hate yourself
And all the ways you rip and pull apart
All of your insecurities
But I also see the calm, and I feel the warmth
Coming from the sand under my feet
As I wait on the beach, in the eye of the storm.
Even through the chaos, in your eyes, I feel comfort and calm"
Then the storm came
and I kissed every drop off his cheeks

I dropped it and let him drift off
in my arms
He thought he got off free, but
I know when his eyes are closed
is when he's vulnerable and honest
And I asked again, with clouds over his mind
And his answer:
"Home"
The faintest mumble of a sleeping hero
Stopped my heart
"Your eyes bring me home"

You won't see me again under this moon
You won't even be
Seeing your own bed tonight,
will you?

My mind races at night
Because I know you're running
   -around with her

Being persecuted for a crime you didn't commit
What a laugh
What a joke

Left alone for all the scores you did settle
Yet only be touched for one
Not done by your own hands

i wear my heart on these pages
spread out like the ashes of my love
the phases of hurt spelled out in black
the moments of bliss dressed in white

Hearing this song makes me think of you, ya know
I can still see your smiling face
Holding on so tightly to that beautiful guitar
I wished for nothing more than to be held
As gracefully as you caressed it
If I had stings, I knew you would be the one to play me
Unleashing all my beautiful sounds
You were going to make my soul sing colors

But now its finished
The solo has ended, so like all artists of your talent
You smashed the lovely curves into the harsh ground beneath you
I still play these cords in my shattered heart
I harden my lungs as I belt the words
And push the air stained with your passion out of my lungs
This song that kills me still, which plays in your healing voice
Will be the poison teaching me to survive

I have written you so many beautiful poems
It's a shame you never had the capacity to enjoy them

Post. Post. Post.
Your whole life through
Whoa, you don't mean that...
Do you?

Scroll. Scroll. Scroll.
Until your fingers bleed.
Press the reply button...
Do the deed

You tell me what to be
Then become angry with what I Am
With who you made Me

Your mouth spews harsh criticism
Your words set fire to the originality
You make dark from the light

Don't blame how I Am on Me
Blame it on You
After all, it's all your fault