I didn't want to get to that point
Where I wake up and realize
I didn't become content
I became silent

It takes a spider
About a day to make its web.
So then,
How long did it take you,
To construct your web of lies?

In the frosty fields of night
They thought they hid their sins

Buried
Low beneath the ice
Buried deep below the snow

In the waking silence
I found my breath

My lungs ripped and pulled —
gasp — after gasp —
Pleading only to choke

Dirt!
Solid, filling, heavy
Killing

Filling my chest by lung
Crushing my hope in pressure

My hands work frantic
as buckets, rakes, and hatchets
Beseeching the Earth to open

A prayer seems lost
in this desolate darkness
of endless soil

As fear and panic subside
acceptance and frostbite
cascade over me like an endless sea

One last sigh-
I relinquish all to the Mother
Whose frozen embrace will keep me still

Maybe sins are better left buried

I should stop worrying
About where I am in life
Relative to everyone else

I forget that I alone
Am floating at the center
Of my universe

It's not fair
That you moved on
And be came everything i knew you could
In spite of me

Your new girl looks like me
But my new man
Looks nothing like
the sad reflection
of my past

You gotta jump in
Both feet first
Because if one foot is behind the other
A part of you is stuck in the past