I cut my tongue
to bleed out the words
you've been dying to hear
but even in these final moments
of curt existence
you're still not satisfied

She has bad idea
Written all over her smile

I cant wait
To kiss it off

Of course I love you
But love is not as consuming
As pleasure.
I need that pleasure
To continue to love.
And if I cant get it from you
I'll just have to take it form him.
Nothing will please me more
Than him rolling in my innocence
And tearing my flesh apart.
All while knowing
You're none the wiser

I'm willing to risk it all
For a man
Not willing to risk anything
For me

Loosing weight
but not the right way
Hey,
sometimes that's how it needs to be done
Of course its not fun
and I'm coming undone
under the stress of starvation
and working the day shift
I cant stop because I need money
from paycheck to paycheck
I pay my bills and
you know it kills
when I'm forced to watch
the crisp green fall into the pockets
of those who are just gonna stock it
I'm trying not to waste
but so much of me is gone
my pants have long since abandoned my waist

And I'm just starting to think
****
maybe within just this black ink
Is all I dwindle down to

So in this one last plea
hear my decree
don't let me die like this
Just remember me

Before my heart claims you
And my head regrets it in the morning

This is a game.
I wouldn't lie to you,
it really is.
But don't think
for one ******* second
that I didn't come here to win.