This water
Has a strange way
Of making me want to die

No, no.
Not suicide
I don't want to die
I very much want to live
I love those around me
But

The water
That **** water
It calls to me in peace
Offering it at the bottom
Of the murky water

Everything you've ever wanted
It says
Just swim deep enough to find it
It sings
And I want to.

I want to plunge to the bottom
And find all that I think I deserve
Cold bitterness overpowering my lungs
And the peace and joy
I was always offered all along

And I'm still falling
I'm still in love

I wish I could say I'm in love
But right now I'm not so sure
Not even about myself

I'm only perfect
When the lights are off
And so are my clothes

I can hear them laughing
While drinking
And I resent them for it

Because I
Am only good at drinking alone

Here I am
Naked in this bed
Alone
Feeling empty
Or is it the bed...
Who is empty
I don't know.
I stopped thinking
Too much about anything
After the clock on the wall
Began laughing at me.
I mean,
What time is it even?
How many hours have passed
Since you left?

You can only torment a soul for so long
Before it rejects you as its master.