I need you to know that
When you leave
I won't cry for you
I won't be heart broken
I'll simply say
Goodbye in the hopes
that maybe one day it will
lead to a long awaited
Hello

I now know what its like
To be so confused that you can't function correctly

T̶h̶e̶ ̶m̶o̶r̶e̶ ̶I̶ ̶t̶h̶i̶n̶k̶ ̶o̶f̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶m̶o̶r̶e̶ ̶c̶o̶n̶f̶u̶s̶e̶d̶ ̶I̶ ̶g̶e̶t̶ ̶I̶ ̶w̶a̶n̶t̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶w̶r̶i̶t̶e̶ ̶a̶b̶o̶u̶t̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶I̶ ̶w̶a̶n̶t̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶s̶c̶r̶e̶a̶m̶ ̶a̶b̶o̶u̶t̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶I̶ ̶w̶a̶n̶t̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶d̶o̶ ̶s̶o̶ ̶m̶a̶n̶y̶ ̶t̶h̶i̶n̶g̶s̶ ̶t̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶I̶ ̶k̶n̶o̶w̶ ̶I̶ ̶c̶a̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶w̶o̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶d̶o̶ ̶s̶o̶m̶e̶ ̶h̶o̶w̶ ̶I̶'̶v̶e̶ ̶f̶i̶g̶u̶r̶e̶d̶ ̶o̶u̶t̶ ̶t̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶I love you but I don't and I can't

T̶h̶e̶s̶e̶ ̶a̶r̶e̶ ̶w̶o̶r̶d̶s̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶o̶f̶t̶e̶n̶ ̶u̶s̶e̶ ̶b̶u̶t̶ ̶I̶ ̶d̶o̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶b̶e̶l̶i̶e̶v̶e̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶.̶ ̶Y̶o̶u̶ ̶k̶n̶o̶w̶ ̶h̶o̶w̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶f̶e̶e̶l̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶r̶ ̶j̶u̶s̶t̶ ̶s̶c̶a̶r̶e̶d̶ ̶t̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶i̶t̶ ̶w̶i̶l̶l̶ ̶a̶l̶l̶ ̶f̶a̶l̶l̶ ̶a̶p̶a̶r̶t̶ ̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶t̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶g̶e̶t̶ ̶h̶u̶r̶t̶ ̶a̶g̶a̶i̶n̶.̶ ̶I̶ ̶d̶o̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶b̶l̶a̶m̶e̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶b̶r̶o̶k̶e̶n̶ ̶h̶e̶a̶r̶t̶s̶ ̶a̶r̶e̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶f̶i̶x̶ ̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶Yours is still broken

I̶ ̶w̶i̶s̶h̶ ̶t̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶I̶ ̶c̶o̶u̶l̶d̶ ̶f̶i̶x̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶,̶ ̶b̶u̶t̶ ̶w̶e̶ ̶b̶o̶t̶h̶ ̶k̶n̶o̶w̶ ̶t̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶n̶e̶v̶e̶r̶ ̶l̶e̶t̶ ̶m̶e̶ ̶c̶l̶o̶s̶e̶ ̶e̶n̶o̶u̶g̶h̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶h̶e̶a̶l̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶r̶ ̶h̶e̶a̶r̶t̶.̶ ̶I̶'̶v̶e̶ ̶s̶e̶e̶n̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶r̶ ̶s̶o̶u̶l̶ ̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶I̶ ̶d̶i̶d̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶r̶u̶n̶ ̶a̶w̶a̶y̶ ̶b̶u̶t̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶'̶r̶e̶ s̶t̶i̶l̶l̶ ̶s̶c̶a̶r̶e̶d̶ ̶t̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶m̶a̶y̶b̶e̶ ̶I̶ ̶o̶r̶ ̶s̶o̶m̶e̶o̶n̶e̶ ̶e̶l̶s̶e̶ ̶w̶i̶l̶l̶ ̶o̶n̶e̶ ̶d̶a̶y̶.̶ ̶Not every one you love will run away

,̶ ̶I̶ ̶h̶o̶p̶e̶ ̶t̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶o̶n̶e̶ ̶d̶a̶y̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶b̶e̶ ̶a̶b̶l̶e̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶s̶e̶e̶ ̶t̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶w̶h̶e̶n̶ ̶s̶o̶m̶e̶o̶n̶e̶ ̶r̶e̶a̶l̶l̶y̶ ̶l̶o̶v̶e̶s̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶y̶ ̶w̶i̶l̶l̶ ̶n̶e̶v̶e̶r̶ ̶l̶e̶a̶v̶e̶

Something happened today
I felt something
My heart started
Beating again
Your words restarted
A heart that had
Fallen cold and motionless

You healed
A little part
Of me today
Some how you fixed just
A small fraction of
What you had broken

You don't just
Break hearts darling
Sometimes you fix them

So maybe now
You can hate
Yourself a little less

Snow is falling outside
Its cold and beautiful
It reminds me of better times
When love wasn't complicated
And hearts weren't so fragile

My love is like ****** snow
Untouched and refreshing
Thinking of you gives
Me horrible ideas
Ideas about love and
Other mushy things
But recently thinking of you
Gives me a sharp lingering
Pain in my chest.