Im sorry I was scared and too much of a child. I wasn’t ready for you and I regret that with all of my being, I’m sorry I chose my life over yours, You deserved a better mommy. I regret my decision, If I can go back in time I would have chosen differently, I would choose you over me 12152018x times. If you were here, I know I’d be the most proud I would keep all your art I would go to all your school functions I would wrap my arms around you and never let you go, Im sorry I didnt keep you Im sorry I’m still too young You see, mommy did loved you With every part of her heart, But Mommy knew that we were better off apart Because Mommy couldn't give you the life that you deserved.
There isn't a single day Where I don’t wish that I could reach up And grab you back down to earth, Place you safely back in my tummy, And show you how much you're worth. I choose to let you fly away, Fly away with the angels. As look down on me from up above understand my decision, baby, wasn't done through a lack of love.
Know that momma loves you Know that you're my one One day when we meet I know it wont be sweet I’ll have questions to answer And forgiveness to beg for But when we meet I hope I can be the mommy you deserve.
I have become as .....h o l l o w .......as the bottles I drink ...............numb .......as my cold fingers e m p t y ..................as the inbox in my phone .....disoriented .............as how this poem is written
how much more naiveté do i have to go be, in order to realize? because I know im hurting yet I dont know how to explain the pain