I can't laugh
All the time
I can't smile
All the time
I can't stretch my lips
All the time
Aall the time...

I can't see you
All the time
I can't care you
All the time
I can't pay attention
All the time

I can't show
All the time
I can't mingle
All the time
I can't be social
All the time
Because
I can't be this
Every time

I have a place
Within in my mind
On my face
In my attitude
A high altitude
That can't be reached
By you

Its so high
Its so dry
Its so shy and
Hi fi
You will never know
You will never understand
So please leave me alone.

J want to go
Where someone will say hai
Someone will say bye
Someone show a smile
Someone show a wave
Someone ask "you want help?"
Someone ask "you OK?"
But just that its enough
Just that, and not anymore...

Please don't love me
Please don't care me
I can neither give you back
Nor can I hold that much
Please just leave me alone.

I cant act anymore
I cant be in crowd anymore
Please leave me
To find a space of my own.

Every profile is scrolled
Every status is viewed
Every pic is saved
Every second is shed
Yet I dream
Yet I dream
For something
Which will never be mine.
Yet I dream
Yet I dream
Which has only been in my dream.
They say it is hope
They say it is nonsense
I too tried to believe
Every word they said
But oh deep
Still it haunts
Still it chases
Uncontrollably
Still it haunts
Still it chases
Unfeasibly.
Why! Oh why!
I know we have crossed
It several times
Like the count of seconds
That have passed
I know we will cross it
Normally and mysteriously
Like always
But its haunting
Its chasing
Oh deep please leave me.

I know how it is
I don't know why it is
It came my way
When I never expected
It brightened my way
When I never cared it
Brightening
Brightened
Bright it became
And when I stretched
To reach out for it
It just became a mist
Hallucination!
Imagination?
Questioned it a lot
I felt bad
I felt wounded
I felt scorned
Detached
Isolated
Left out
But oh deep inside
A little spark sparkled
Just saying softly
Slowly
Quietly
Like a repeat
"It atleast
Made you think different
It atleast for a second
Brought a hope.
Don't deny the ignorance
It is helping you
Out of worst reality
Which you are passing through"
That's true.

My hands
My knees
My eyes
My sense
But
It is not alone
Sense of sensibility
That of We and Me
Grew harder and harder
When glow of selfishness
Broken up out
Shallows and Valleys
Tops and downs
Love to ignorance
Everything is in us
Only within us

I am alone
We are alone
So simple to know
We need you.

Somewhere in the deep unseen tides
I lost my thoughts within
Towards the end of set of light
Some dew drops snowed onto my palm
Sitting on the shore
With eyes stretched out to ocean
Thoughts again rolled in
Words were breeze
Motions are in freeze
Left alone
Me and ocean
The tides gathered lot of craps
Things were taken to the shore
By the tides that are from long
I knew not how hard it was
Dark clouds moved
Without spilling drops
And light enrolled their stand
With a deep shadow of light
Pouring on my shoulders....
Deep breathe
Pain in my throat was severe
Eyes was clear
Mind was calm
But....
I don't know!

There is love after solitude
There is solitude after love
There is strength in simple
There is weakness in complex
Vice versa in old path
Same verse in preset path.