i hate the fact that I remind you of her
i hate the fact that when you say that
sometimes it means your thinking of her when your with me
i don’t think you ever got over her
not fully
and that breaks me
because I can’t be with half of someone
i want the whole you
and you can’t give me that if she still has a part of you

i think the trouble is we are all
so invested in finding the person
that makes them feel like they are
the only person in the world
when the truth is, everyone’s replaceable.

I'm learning to fall
In love with the twilight
Spending a lifetime trying to
Fantasize
A lifetime of seeing the world
Through another’s eyes
I'm just doing my best
Going under but I'm holding my breath
But I'm looking up
Up at the bright side
At the bright side of the moon

You fell in love with them
the way they touched you
without using their hands
but in the end we’re all fighting
a world where “I miss you”
doesn’t mean I’m coming back
And “I love you” doesn’t mean
“I’ll stay”.

wide awake in the night,
our memories are the only light,
pain in my veins,
how did it all go up in flames?

i look to the moon and stare,
glorious misery fills the air.
i wanted another chance,
but you said this was our last dance.

if i let you inside,
i could no longer hide,
i’m scared of what you’ll find,
if you wandered through my mind

i live in fear
fear of resentment
fear of abandonment
fear of myself.
im afraid I won’t amount to anything
that my life will be a waste
im afraid i won’t truly live
that i will be just another cookie cutter
replica of the  blonde hair,
blue eyed girl next door
i can’t live like that
because that’s not living
thats existing