I'm learning to fall
In love with the twilight
Spending a lifetime trying to
Fantasize
A lifetime of seeing the world
Through another’s eyes
I'm just doing my best
Going under but I'm holding my breath
But I'm looking up
Up at the bright side
At the bright side of the moon

You fell in love with them
the way they touched you
without using their hands
but in the end we’re all fighting
a world where “I miss you”
doesn’t mean I’m coming back
And “I love you” doesn’t mean
“I’ll stay”.

wide awake in the night,
our memories are the only light,
pain in my veins,
how did it all go up in flames?

i look to the moon and stare,
glorious misery fills the air.
i wanted another chance,
but you said this was our last dance.

if i let you inside,
i could no longer hide,
i’m scared of what you’ll find,
if you wandered through my mind

i live in fear
fear of resentment
fear of abandonment
fear of myself.
im afraid I won’t amount to anything
that my life will be a waste
im afraid i won’t truly live
that i will be just another cookie cutter
replica of the  blonde hair,
blue eyed girl next door
i can’t live like that
because that’s not living
thats existing

you don’t understand
when i say
i don’t want to lose you
i mean it
not only because i love you
but because i can’t afford to
lose anyone else

“We are poets.
  We don’t cry,
  We bleed on paper”