I remember the day I met you
your smile,
Your laugh,
your personality.

I feel for you,
I was blinded by love that I didn't realize,
I was wrong.

I never wanted to fall for you,
never wanted to be hurt by you.

I was blinded when you said I was the only one, I thought you were right.

But no
I was wrong,
I was just someone you played with just like the rest of them.

I admire from afar
Yet you never notice me
I pray someday you do

I want to confess my feelings
But you might not care
I hope someday I can

You are my crush
But instead of confessing to you
I crush my feelings

So everything I see you
I can't bring my self to confess to you

He was a boy I fell for,
I loved him,
But he didn't know.

He was always clueless and I loved that,
But I wasn't the only one,
There was more.

Other girls who loved him the same way I did,
I told a friend my feelings,
I thought she will support me.

I was wrong,
She loved him as well.

I told him how I feel for him,
But he didn't feel the same.

He loved her
not me,
I spent days feelings guilty for liking someone who doesn't belong to me.

I blamed myself for everything
And it was all because I liked a boy.

When I first met you I fell in love
I didn't know who you were,
neither did I care

We spent a lot of time together
and feel harder for you,
Every time our eyes locked

At first it was cliche to think we would last,
I was stupid I know
but you can't blame me for being delusional.

"what's wrong with you?"
Was all you said

"We were best friends"
Was what you said when you found out

"You always do this"
Was what you said when you heard

"Your nobody to me anymore"
Was what you said when he told you

All this happened because we liked the same boy

I turned him down because of you,
But you didn't want to believe

Our friendship ruined because,
We liked the same boy

It's the first snow of winter today
for the first time this year,
it felt like something was missing.

The snow was calm and steady,
soft and melty.

It was delicate with every touch,
every touch of snow I felt reminded me of tears
tears that brought me back to reality.

I was really missing something,
no not something.

I was missing someone,
I was missing you.

The flowers in the flower vase
Red and withered
On the table where I stand.

The flowers that have been there since the day you left
A year ago
On the same table you placed them.

Every Time the date turns 14
Of February it hits
reality hits.

You left me,
and left those flowers there as an apology.

Now everytime its valentines I remember the day you left my life,
leaving me alone with the memories of you when you loved me.

I hate to think I was the one for you
I can't bring myself to accept it,
I denied it.

I look at pictures we once took together
The presents you once gave me,
It's all in the same place you left them
I can't get rid of them,
not now not never.

I see you smiling with a girl that isn't me,
Its stupid I know
but how can you move on so fast?

I know it's pathetic
You never loved me and I will never understand
Your game.

A game where you come out satisfied and I come out hurt
I don't deny it anymore I know your game,
I understand I was just another one of your games.

It's sad I know but now I look back at my mistakes
I was blinded by your game
it made me understand something,
You never loved me you only loved the way you toyed with me.

I was always there for you,
When you needed me the most
I never left you.

But then you met her,
You stopped talking to me
Even ignored me.

The day I needed you the most,
You weren't there and instead
You were with her.

It made me feel different,
Like someone who never existed
I felt worthless.

Stupid even to think you'll be there for me,
But you were with her instead.

Remember what happened last year?
Maybe not Let me remind you

It started during Spring semester
I had crush on you
Badly

I remember my friends encouraging me,
I wrote you a letter confessing my feelings
Giving you my number and name only

You read it and left it on the table,
Wrong choice

Your friends shared that information with everyone they knew

Messages and messages of unknown numbers
Asking who I was

I found your number and you said,
"I want to get to know you,Zoe"

It was too late
Because I thought you were a ****
Someone who was making fun of me,
My feelings.

Now we go to the same school,
But I bring myself to wonder
What would happen if i responded with a yes.

Okay I'm stupid for thinking that,
But every time I see you now
I want you.

I saw how you looked at them
like if they are your gem
but she's not even your stem

You tell her the same things
but that's how you play your strings
that's how they fall for your sling

There's nothing special about her
or any other girl you were with,
but in the end its who you were

And you still make her believe shes special
but you're just waiting for her to nestle.

literature has many uses in life
but I like literature for one thing,
love.

Sometimes I look back at time and remember why I like literature,
it reminds me of you.

The way you wrote poems and stories,
the way your writing expressed your feelings
helped me realize you always loved me.

You wrote me poems and poems expressing your feelings,
at the time I was an idiot that didn't understand
literature.

I now love literature but it's too late now.

I was late on catching your feelings,
And now i know you loved me
But it's late,
You moved on.

No matter how much you watch
Stay alive

No matter how hard life is
Stay alive

No matter how easy it looks
Stay alive

No matter how much it hurts
Stay alive

No matter how much you cry
Stay alive

No matter what happens
Stay alive
Because if you don't
You'll leave your love ones wondering
"What did I do wrong?''

The moon is beautiful,
It's bright
And it's the light in the dark.

It's someone's love,
Someone's favorite thing,
Its also someone's everything.

No matter how ugly or distance,
People might think it is,
It's not.

The moon is the most beautiful thing out there,
Just like you.

I always liked you,
and threw hints at you

I showed you my love,
Expressed it

I wrote you poems,
And poems of love

I gifted you things
Things of love

But you had a problem
You were oblivious

I never really hated the rain,
until I met you.

You loved the rain,
so did I.

You took me out on rainy days,
went on walks in the rain,
even danced in the rain.

Now I see you with another girl doing the same things,
now I hate the rain,
more than I hate you for leaving.

I look up at the sky
I don't want to look at you,
It sickens me to even know you're next to me.

I can't bring myself to look at you,
You are still the same.

You lied when you said you changed,
I feel for your trick again.

I feel stupid for trusting you and thinking you changed
I hate myself for thinking you would ever change.
I was an idiot.

Look at the moon
far away
alone in the distance

Look at the sun
far away
shining in the distance
surrounded by planets

Just like you and me
people notice you but not me.

I remember the day you told me you loved me
I thought you did,
But you didn't.

You never loved me
I was stupid to think you did
You never loved me.

I remember when you called it over
With a simple word,
Sorry.

Every time I hear that word
That stupid word,
I break down.

Now that you remember what happened last year,
Let me tell you what I think now

I remember forgetting my feelings,
But I lied
I just hid them

I spent all summer forgetting you
I succeeded
But not long enough

We go to the same school this year again
Great?

Not really
I see you in the hallways,
At lunch,
Everywhere

I hate it but I don't
I find myself getting attracted again
It feels stupid

But at the end I tried and tried
But you seem to come back to mind

All I want is to go back in time,
Even now if I have a chance

To tell you I loved you and I still do
I want you again

They were always there
but no one ever cares
They are not even aware

But you made me aware
you were willing to share

It was your favorite flower
and it turned into ours to empower
our favorite flower

But then you left me
stopped once to see
to remember when we were free

and when spring comes and the tulips bloom
it reminds me of you

and I'll be there for you
if you want to come back home too

It was always us,
Your the oldest, I'm the middle, and he's the youngest child.

You were always happy, He was always rebelling
And I was always hiding

Hiding in both shadows,
Like I didn't exist at all
Always pushing me aside.

You always blamed your problems on me,
He was always fighting with me.

I accepted everything blamed my self for everything,
Hating myself.

I was always judging myself
hating my body,
Face,
And life.

I didn't feel anything anymore, and
Now I tell myself I'm okay
I'm not.

When you look at someone
I want to be looked at

When you smile
I want the smile

When you laugh
I want the laugh

When you walk away
I want to chase

When you love someone
I want it to be me

Its selfish to think, to even want you
because at the end
it's her and not me.

Every time I feel some kind of emotion
I come here
and let all my feelings out.

Its stupid
I know it is,
but i can't stop feeling safe and secure when I write

When I write
I feel free
to write what I feel and think
by writing poems.

In the end I understood
that not everything can be said out loud
so i've learned how to speak my emotions

To something wonderful
like writing