I know I am lucky for it
These experiences people my age don't get
Traveling and performing
Playing my instrument
But they don't really know how it is
At home
Scales and metronomes
Haunting me in my sleep
Playing and practicing for my audition
All while crying
Tears rolling down my cheeks as I crescendo
A little sob escapes
During the half rest
I love music
But It shouldn't be this stressful
It's fun when I play with my band
But not alone with my mom
While she's telling me to play that measure again and again
Until I get it right
But I don't really care about that scale
I want to play for fun
Often I have fun though, when I get to solo or play a really cool song and stuff. My mom can really be free with music, it's cool, it's often just not like that with me. Today I was practicing for an audition and crying while doing it. After a while I got fed up and said I wanted to leave, and my mom started arguing with me about it. Eventually I did leave, and went to go hug my cat and write this. I am lucky for it though in many ways, and have learned a lot.
If interested, her name is "Reut Regev". Her most recent tour was with a band called "Monica Herzig's Sheroes".